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Thanks I feel a little better having vented my frustrations out and while I appreciate the advice it hasn't gotten that bad. Really it's the waiting that's making me anxious waiting to hear back Wether it's after filling out applications or after an interview. The waiting is always the worst part.
While you wait stay active is all I can say. Find a new hobby, read a new book, hell volunteer if you want to. Try not getting overwhelmed at what you don’t have and use the free time to gain or utilize what you do. Shit I sound like a self help shithead.
 
I think I need to stop sperging on the normie part of the internet. I've always done it to some degree but the past year has been particularly bad because of the vaccine tyranny and putting 2+2+2+2+2+2 together on that topic and several others. Actually pretty much everything in life, my whole life is a lie.
The thing I've learned generally is not to get too MATI at the opinions of others and not get upset about the things I cannot change. I stopped watching the news and posting on other parts of the internet for over a year now and what I've learned is you really don't miss anything.

A friend of mine (who also quit social media years ago and has never been back since) questioned the efficacy of me shouting into a black hole of content consoooomers. You and him are right, but I need to find an alternative - maybe doing Louis Rossmann style rant videos (he personally stated back in the day that many of his rant videos managed to replace therapy).
I had a similar issue too where I felt like I was trying to reach out, but I feel like no one really understands me these days. What managed to work for me is finding one other person who just sort of gets it, you know what I mean? We message each other frequently about events and bounce ideas off one another. Having a single person to meaningfully talk to is way better than thousands who don't even try to understand.

By all means, troll some fags on Facebook. But do it under a burner account. It's the wrong place to be posting wrongthink. The establishment there hates you, and are just waiting for a reason to punish you.
Pretty much this. You don't want to needlessly have data collection done on you.
 
I may have to put my cat of nearly 12 years to sleep soon. I say may because she's not "dying" in the literal sense; surgeon found during her dental last week (she's been having congested breathing for at least a week prior and her dr thought it could be dental-related) a polyp/mass is partially restricting her airway and while she's been getting on fine the past week and acting like her usual sassy self, she had a rough night last night and I don't know what to do.
I can't go the specialist route to get it removed because it'd be at least $3500 and the recovery post-OP would be rough, and even if she did recover there's the chance it could come back; I opted for symptomatic treatment to try and control it but it doesn't seem to be doing a whole lot.

I don't know if I should ask her veterinarian today to try steroids (he was hesitant due to us not knowing what we're dealing with), more anti-inflammatories or just...get the inevitable over with. If she was suffering, I wouldn't hesitate, but she isn't (though I do know pets, especially cats, are good at hiding things)...

I've been through the loss of a pet more than enough times and by-proxy with consoling grieving clients (I work at a vet hospital), so I have been more cognizant of my cat's age and health as a result - it's still not an easy decision and fuck me if I decide to put her to sleep today because oop!: better stop crying and get back to work!

Edit: I was ready to put her down once I got into work but we're going to start her Prednis(ol)one; doctors said that a steroid regimen could shrink it to a point where she won't have these issues (it could also be the reason she sounds congested-she can't clear herself out well). She got a long lasting steroid shot so I'm going to be cautiously optimistic. I always joked about her taking years off my life from worrying so much...pretty sure she took at least 3 years lol.
 
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A bit self-conscious, I'm still very much a newfag and I rarely post because of it. I originally planned on doing nothing but lurking, but someone who I knew at some point came up on a thread I was reading, so I registered and... Decided to stay I guess.

Other then that, just sort of down at the moment. It'll pass like it always does...
 
Work changed my hours to me getting off pretty late now and I'm sad. I would only be able to spend like 2 hours with my husband before he has to sleep. On the bright side though, both me and him are off tomorrow so we get to just relax and stay up late tonight. We're probably going to continue our catalina video marathon tonight too.
 
Stressed. Lonely. Dealing with anxiety and depression, agoraphobia. I really want to go visit my sister but I have a mental block about getting in the car to do it. My partner will drive but the anticipation anxiety is the worst
My kids want to go visit so bad though, I need to get over myself and do it
I’m so tired of having to deal with these things. It feels unfair and I figured at this point in my life it would have magically been gone
 
Husband got sacked a few weeks back and I'm having to work plus my green card renewal is coming up, we'll afford it no issue but geeze the timing. It's a bit stressful but I started attending church here recently which is helping a bunch. He's been working hard to get back on his feet so I'm hoping that effort will pay off.

Back in Fish 'n' chips land my sibling has decided it's time to have a baby with their missus. Unfortunately they decided to breed while both at home with our Mum & Dad and they decided not to tell anyone bar her folks more than a few months into it. They are moving out soon but the house is set up for a couple with like one bedroom and needs some TLC that it def won't be getting while they try to afford raising a baby. Explains why brother suddenly got out of the work he was in for some office position instead a few months back.

At first I was a bit "oh..." because my brother is the baby and we're still not in a position where I feel we're ready to have a kiddo yet. But my folks always made clear with me that if I came home with a story like "oh no I had sex and now I will have babby" they would not be very sympathetic (basically "we'll help but we'll spend every day reminding you it was a shit life choice" which I generally agree is great motivation to not get pregnant)

Mum was all smiles for the announcement but spilled the tea later. The house deal not fully though yet so still a chance it could fall thru last min and then they have to deal with a baby under their roof. She's absolutely peeved at the moment. I guess we're not doing that bad at least.
 
Two weeks ago my leg broke and now my throat hurts, my body hurts, I'm cold and I'm coughing. Unless I've been raped without knowing it (something quite possible for I am quite sexy and have seen some faggot looking nurse checking me out) then I must have the the flu or a virus of some kind, maybe covid. If I stop posting on the next hours then please assume I have died and contact Null so that he can give my account the pertinent tags. I'll miss you kiwi people. Stay based.
 
Husband got sacked a few weeks back and I'm having to work plus my green card renewal is coming up, we'll afford it no issue but geeze the timing. It's a bit stressful but I started attending church here recently which is helping a bunch. He's been working hard to get back on his feet so I'm hoping that effort will pay off.

Back in Fish 'n' chips land my sibling has decided it's time to have a baby with their missus. Unfortunately they decided to breed while both at home with our Mum & Dad and they decided not to tell anyone bar her folks more than a few months into it. They are moving out soon but the house is set up for a couple with like one bedroom and needs some TLC that it def won't be getting while they try to afford raising a baby. Explains why brother suddenly got out of the work he was in for some office position instead a few months back.

At first I was a bit "oh..." because my brother is the baby and we're still not in a position where I feel we're ready to have a kiddo yet. But my folks always made clear with me that if I came home with a story like "oh no I had sex and now I will have babby" they would not be very sympathetic (basically "we'll help but we'll spend every day reminding you it was a shit life choice" which I generally agree is great motivation to not get pregnant)

Mum was all smiles for the announcement but spilled the tea later. The house deal not fully though yet so still a chance it could fall thru last min and then they have to deal with a baby under their roof. She's absolutely peeved at the moment. I guess we're not doing that bad at least.
They still have churches in Fish and Chips land?
 
Got the UPF umbrella/parasol I ordered last Thursday. I like it, it's more fancy than using my regular umbrella. Easy to open and close, and tall enough so I don't bump the top my head constantly. Yey, for innovation!
It even was some sun when I retrieved it. So I could give it a test.

Ordered a new workout trouser too, but this one from a local vendor. The delivery service for them has retrieved it, but no update on the tracking.
Like, ok? No update on 4 days. So gave them an email today, as I suspect it has gotten lost or something.
I know it's summer and thing are a bit slower then, but the umbrella was sent from Murica. It's fucked up when it's faster to order something from the other side of the word. Yey, for shopping local.
 
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I got a new job as a busser for a restaurant downtown! What I tell ya only a week and already I'm back in action. My "first day " is tommorow but it's mostly gonna be showing up for a few hours to shadow someone and meet and greet with the other staff maybe sign the w 4's and employment agreement and all the legal mumbo jumbo. Probably won't even count as a paid day but still I got it.

"The ole Parker luck comes through again. "
 
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