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Life really is great when you cut out all the bullshit and negativity that you reasonably can.
Finally found a group to work on my hobbies with and stopped wasting time on cliquish retards who will never change.
 
I'm still sick. I'm coughing like crazy. It's not Covid or the flu. I have one more day of antibiotics but I'm only a little better. They said that the lupus might be causing some organ inflammation and making the symptoms worse. I've been sick for a month and I just moved in late August. I haven't even fully unpacked because of all this. I'm thinking of just letting it burn itself out rather then going back to the ER or doctor. Watch me eat my words.
 
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I've decided to stop being financially illiterate and learn to actually invest my money, not just save it for a rainy day. And the more I read, the more I realize that a lot of life changes are in order. Like finding a new job with a retirement plan or something. And that in turn means moving towns (where to, I still don't know), plus building up some semblance of social skills so I can pass interviews. All things I should've been doing in my mid-20s instead of settling for a mom-and-pop thinking "whatever, I can survive off this".
 
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Pretty great, actually. I finally decided to stifle that millennial "just wait until the market crashes" chant and get a house. Who cares if the value drops. You have to pay for your living space one way or another. Property with diminished value is worth more than the zero long-term you get from incinerating rent money every month. I found a place in a nice, quiet area. Near my grandfather. No drug addicts. None of the trashy minority orc neighbors blasting ghetto rap or mariachi music or rattling the walls with their inconsiderate stomping at all hours that's part of rental life. No HOA. Patrol car in the driveway just down the block. 5 minute drive from groceries, drugstore, gym, park. Brand new appliances. After I get all my stuff moved over, things will be fantastic for a while.
 
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Very tired. Just trying to power through two more hours of my work so I can go home, put on something chill/relaxing to listen to and get some sleep.

As an aside you’d think with it pouring down rain that would be a deterrent to homeless junkies to find shelter and gtf off the streets but nope seems like even more of them just crawl out of the woodwork to shit things up.
 
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Friday through Sunday, after the week I had, was what I needed. Took family photos in the mountains, the nieces and nephews were acting like a Calvin and Hobbes strip, that was fun lol, then all of us went out to Olive Garden. The food and waiters were great, with the glasses never going dry. Really just a good night.

Then got the Hanes Manuel for my car, which looking through it, gives me some comfort that I can get the turn signals fixed in a cost effective manner, so I'm relieved on that.

Then talked to a good Friend I hadn't heard from in a while on Sunday. He was worried after hearing from another friend about my split with my ex friend we both share. Really just a great guy, happy that he thought to call.

So I'm doing alright. The weekend was rejuvenating. Took some time off here too, which was nice.
 
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Was going to clean the house this weekend, but was too bushed from a long night of softball on Friday.
WelperHelper99 said:
Friday through Sunday, after the week I had, was what I needed. Took family photos in the mountains, the nieces and nephews were acting like a Calvin and Hobbes strip, that was fun lol, then all of us went out to Olive Garden. The food and waiters were great, with the glasses never going dry. Really just a good night.

Then got the Hanes Manuel for my car, which looking through it, gives me some comfort that I can get the turn signals fixed in a cost effective manner, so I'm relieved on that.

Then talked to a good Friend I hadn't heard from in a while on Sunday. He was worried after hearing from another friend about my split with my ex friend we both share. Really just a great guy, happy that he thought to call.

So I'm doing alright. The weekend was rejuvenating. Took some time off here too, which was nice.
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Mountains are the best. Never take them for granted, I'm envious over here in Flatistan.
 
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Was going to clean the house this weekend, but was too bushed from a long night of softball on Friday.
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Be happy for your softball game man, cherish those moments. House cleaning can wait.
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Mountains are the best. Never take them for granted, I'm envious over here in Flatistan.
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Trust me I know lol. Illinois only had hills. Mountains are something to behold.
 
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decided to revisit a few old online "friend" groups I used to waste time in a while ago for yom kippur to apologize for how I acted around them (since I was a really shitty teenager)

it was beyond surreal

one whole friend group had trooned out and pretty much spent the last few years jacking themselves off nonstop from what I can tell
safe to say I didn't get any forgiveness from them, both because I didn't want to stick around for long and because they were still mad at me even though from what I can tell all I did to them was complain to them a little when shit was going down irl
apparently they just never got the chance to tell me to shut up before because they didn't want to be rude but now that I was kind of interrupting their hanging-out I guess they felt it was open season

another that used to be a small group (but started getting bigger a few months before I left) has apparently grown into an enormous lynchpin of the community that brought us together
there's thousands of members and nobody knows each other anymore
it was really bittersweet, since the old "founders" of the group were now head honchos and I just came in as a normal member
a few ended up kind of making a scene and it was a bit embarrassing but I think we ended up on good terms at the end of it all which is good

another group I have yet to see the reaction of
it's mostly europeans and one canadian guy who flipped (in happiness, for once, which was something), most of them haven't woken up yet
but i'm worried about this one group the most because I spent most of my time with them and was incredibly deep into what brought us together
my leaving was rather abrupt as well
so I'm just anxious I suppose

It feels like balancing on a tightrope and it makes me want to throw up, but I want to be forgiven and I want to clear things up
I probably won't stay with the groups for long because being in them makes me want to curl into a small ball and throw my guts up
not to mention the fact that I acted the stupidest around them as opposed to anyone else
but I have to do this or I'll be thinking about it forever so I shall
 
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I'm trying to record some audio but for some reason I keep getting tiny audio dropouts (like a tenth of a second long silences) and it's driving me insane. I tried a new mic, different recording software, basically everything I can think of, and it's still maddening.
 
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Went clothes shopping today, either all the Speed i'm doing is having a nice side effect or vanity-sizing is a thing in men's clothing now, too. The L-sized hoodie i bought today feels roomy compared to the XL sweatshirts i bought end of last year, the last time i bought new clothes. Feels good, man.
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I haven’t been doing so great these last couple of years. I’ve been trapped in a problem that I’m not sure how to fix or deal with it. As far as I can tell it’s not really something that is solvable. I wish i could get help but I’m not sure others can help. It’s really not fair to me that I’m stuck like this. I hate even telling others because it seems like I’m the one that gets blamed.
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Minus that last part i feel like i'm living this in perpetuity, or at least for the last five years. Shit is out of my hands for the most part and there's pretty much nothing to do besides enduring it. Bad choices really come back to haunt you sometimes.
WelperHelper99 said:
Friday through Sunday, after the week I had, was what I needed. Took family photos in the mountains, the nieces and nephews were acting like a Calvin and Hobbes strip, that was fun lol, then all of us went out to Olive Garden. The food and waiters were great, with the glasses never going dry. Really just a good night.

Then got the Hanes Manuel for my car, which looking through it, gives me some comfort that I can get the turn signals fixed in a cost effective manner, so I'm relieved on that.

Then talked to a good Friend I hadn't heard from in a while on Sunday. He was worried after hearing from another friend about my split with my ex friend we both share. Really just a great guy, happy that he thought to call.

So I'm doing alright. The weekend was rejuvenating. Took some time off here too, which was nice.
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I'm happy for you. Lately i had some quality time with parts of my family as well and it, once again, put into perspective what's really important and does matter in life.
 
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