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Feeling cheesed off at the moment, had an appointment with my physician who has confirmed I have Autism. It's mild Autism but what I can't get around my head is that it's taken 34 years for a diagnosis.
I can relate, to that I' m waiting evaluation from the assessment that ive done. im 54 lol
 
Getting back on the dating apps is rough. The more I swipe, the more I start to turn into a misogynist. It doesn't help that I'm an atheist that isn't some left-wing socialist dipshit.

I'm kind of at a crossroads now. Part of me wants to keep dating for adventure because I always come back with wild stories for my friends. Part of me wants something serious. That part of me has severe doubts that is possible. I've seen too much, except for what I'm actually looking for. It's literally not out there. It doesn't help that I can't talk to women for the sole fact that I'm completely disinterested in, divorced from, and disgusted by pop culture.

It makes a man wonder. How close is close to a woman? What are you even supposed to share in common? Is my disgust unreasonable? Are you just supposed to find a pretty face to fuck? I've always wanted more than that, but I genuinely feel that anything other is just a western cultural folktale and the real world has never worked that way. That we all follow some biological script and then window dress it with what's culturally acceptable, all the while we do what we've done for millions of years.

And women's naked and obvious lust for material possessions is really getting to me. Maybe I'm rich, maybe I'm poor. Who can say? Either way, I don't want the women I date to comprehend my money situation. Because it seems like either they are attracted to what I can provide them, or they get upset that I can't feed their impulsivity.

Fuck me, man, it just hit me.

What a sad state of affairs the world is in when I come to kiwifarms primarily to chat about "big topics" or more substantial things. That's why I'm here, it's not for the cows, it's to read real ideas that isn't regurgitated socially approved horseshit.
 
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Meet girls anywhere but dating apps
Unfortunately, and I know most people would probably disagree, but I honestly don't see any difference between what I see in real life and dating apps and honestly never really have. Sometimes you even run into people you see on those apps in person. It's the same people in the same society, I really don't find them to act all that different. I've made peace with the ways things are, to an extent, but I also kind of feel like I'm letting some powers-that-be that define the tastes win out in the end, or something like that. I dunno. Like there was some secret competition I wasn't let in on, and I was sabotaged and just let them get away with it, as crazy as that sounds.
 
Unfortunately, and I know most people would probably disagree, but I honestly don't see any difference between what I see in real life and dating apps and honestly never really have. Sometimes you even run into people you see on those apps in person. It's the same people in the same society, I really don't find them to act all that different. I've made peace with the ways things are, to an extent, but I also kind of feel like I'm letting some powers-that-be that define the tastes win out in the end, or something like that. I dunno. Like there was some secret competition I wasn't let in on, and I was sabotaged and just let them get away with it, as crazy as that sounds.
Just be your best self, man. I'm not Brad Pitt, but it's worked for me and a lot of other guys. It's cliche, but you have to let it happen.
 
You're right I am going to start committing high profile thefts.
Depends, what's your income level, rent, and level of education? I need to confirm you're not being retarded before I can conclusively recommend becoming an international criminal.
 
A scam leaving you with a lot of debt.
Seriously, don't go to college unless it's for engineering or some other high-level shit.

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Someone very close to me is slowly losing their sanity to mania. I'm not sure their therapy is helping. It's causing me a lot of stress and strain watching what they are becoming. It's horrible to see happen and I'm afraid they're going to get frustrated with me "shooting down" their manic ideas.
 
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Getting back on the dating apps is rough. The more I swipe, the more I start to turn into a misogynist. It doesn't help that I'm an atheist that isn't some left-wing socialist dipshit.

I'm kind of at a crossroads now. Part of me wants to keep dating for adventure because I always come back with wild stories for my friends. Part of me wants something serious. That part of me has severe doubts that is possible. I've seen too much, except for what I'm actually looking for. It's literally not out there. It doesn't help that I can't talk to women for the sole fact that I'm completely disinterested in, divorced from, and disgusted by pop culture.

It makes a man wonder. How close is close to a woman? What are you even supposed to share in common? Is my disgust unreasonable? Are you just supposed to find a pretty face to fuck? I've always wanted more than that, but I genuinely feel that anything other is just a western cultural folktale and the real world has never worked that way. That we all follow some biological script and then window dress it with what's culturally acceptable, all the while we do what we've done for millions of years.

And women's naked and obvious lust for material possessions is really getting to me. Maybe I'm rich, maybe I'm poor. Who can say? Either way, I don't want the women I date to comprehend my money situation. Because it seems like either they are attracted to what I can provide them, or they get upset that I can't feed their impulsivity.

Fuck me, man, it just hit me.

What a sad state of affairs the world is in when I come to kiwifarms primarily to chat about "big topics" or more substantial things. That's why I'm here, it's not for the cows, it's to read real ideas that isn't regurgitated socially approved horseshit.
You think about killing random women on the regular because they're all evil psychotic BPD femnazis conspiring to destroy you.

Maybe dating is not for you... or at least not for any woman who doesn't want to end up as 'fertiliser' for your writing career... and your garden.
 
It makes a man wonder. How close is close to a woman? What are you even supposed to share in common? Is my disgust unreasonable? Are you just supposed to find a pretty face to fuck? I've always wanted more than that, but I genuinely feel that anything other is just a western cultural folktale and the real world has never worked that way. That we all follow some biological script and then window dress it with what's culturally acceptable, all the while we do what we've done for millions of years.
Life would be so much easier if I didn’t want to have a family.

But what’s the point of life if you’re not going to keep the chain going, to pass both your genes and knowledge indefinitely into the future? I don’t think there is one.
 
You think about killing random women on the regular because they're all evil psychotic BPD femnazis conspiring to destroy you.

Maybe dating is not for you... or at least not for any woman who doesn't want to end up as 'fertiliser' for your writing career... and your garden.
I have to really roll my eyes at this reddit-tier response, right down to you deliberately reframing what I've said to play the internet gentleman. And the idea that I'd be a murderer and stick a bunch of strange chemicals and plastics into the ground is pretty offensive.
Life would be so much easier if I didn’t want to have a family.

But what’s the point of life if you’re not going to keep the chain going, to pass both your genes and knowledge indefinitely into the future? I don’t think there is one.
The religious people here will disagree and they're free to, but your purpose, your raison d'etre, is whatever you want it to be, and don't let anyone define that for you. You certainly don't have to have children if you really don't want to, and I feel like today, if you have a child, they will become something you will struggle to love, or you will bring them up in a very unhappy world. What would you do if your child comes home a they/them and nothing you say or do changes that? The left doesn't even want parents to have any real control over their children, they want it to be a community effort... because they find communism attractive in some way, even if they don't admit to it publicly.
 
I can relate, to that I' m waiting evaluation from the assessment that ive done. im 54 lol

I got diagnosed with ADHD as an adult. I feel this.

Meet girls anywhere but dating apps

I met my fiancé on a dating app. The commodification of people is kind of weird but you just have to not be a retard. I think people like to blame dating apps when the problem is them.


This might be suitable for some people, as they're debatably better then a bipolar feminazi that does little around the house.

I second this recommendation. Keeps anyone who would buy one away from real women.
 
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If that's the point of life without which all else is irrelevant, then we all ought to cap ourselves right now.
Honestly yeah, if you’re not planning to have a family there’s really a marginal difference between living out your life and committing suicide.

Reproducing is the only way to potentially have an effect on the world for billions of years to come.
 
Honestly yeah, if you’re not planning to have a family there’s really a marginal difference between living out your life and committing suicide.
That's not what I'm saying at all.

I'm saying "reproduction is the only act worth anything" is such a miserable, depressing worldview that if it's the case, we should all kill ourselves out of despair even if we succeeded in that "ultimate purpose".
 
Honestly yeah, if you’re not planning to have a family there’s really a marginal difference between living out your life and committing suicide.

Reproducing is the only way to potentially have an effect on the world for billions of years to come.
What if you invent something like the computer or create a fantastic piece of art?
 
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