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[anustart76]

Meeting with my boss tomorrow, feeling anxious. My dad told me to think of her as a barking dog and ignore her, which helps, but I still feel some level of anxiety about it. I'll feel better once it's over. I wish I could just quit and spend all my time studying for the GRE and focusing on grad school applications.

 

[BrainSand63]

I’m sorry if this isn’t the place to post this. My best friend in the whole world, my cat, died from an aggressive cancer an hour ago. I can’t even begin to describe how amazing he was, but to put it simply, he was the best friend I could have ever asked for, and I leaned on him a lot during hard times in my life. He meant the world to me. I just needed someone to say that to. I miss him.

 

[The Feline Solution]

This is why if I had dementia coming on, I would just put a bullet in my head.

Same, not a single doubt about this in my mind. Though as an european nogunz i'd have to resort to another way to off myself. As Germany is working harder and harder at turning into c*nada (fairly sure the UK will beat us in this race, Sweden is also well on its way) i am sure something like MAID will exist once i hit the age range where it usually first sets on.
I thank God i don't have a family history of that shit (nor cancer for that matter), though i am actually not sure about how much the genetic component plays a role. The men in my family usually just drink themselves into an early grave.

I’m sorry if this isn’t the place to post this. My best friend in the whole world, my cat, died from an aggressive cancer an hour ago. I can’t even begin to describe how amazing he was, but to put it simply, he was the best friend I could have ever asked for, and I leaned on him a lot during hard times in my life. He meant the world to me. I just needed someone to say that to. I miss him.

I am very sorry for your loss.

Awful. Mesh Mom has cancer and it's reached the point where there's nothing else than can be done. She's also elderly and has a number of other health problems, so this is it. Don't know how much time she has but I can't imagine it will be more than a month or two, if that. Met with hospice today to get all that set up. Hopefully she can die at home, I'm going to do everything I can to ensure that. You always know the day is coming when you lose your parents, but now that it's upon us it really fucking sucks.

Condolences for you, too. This is a scenario i try to push as far away from my mind as i can, my father has been dead for ~15 years and i feel indifferent about it but it will be completely different with my mother. I still haven't come to terms with the death of one of my younger cousins which happened 8ish years ago, that broke me in a way i think i will never completely recover from, i think of him almost daily still.

I thought my dad had chilled out and become more calm with age, but I guess not completely, he yelled at me over nothing and made me feel like shit tonight. Now we're avoiding each other so I feel even worse.

Doesn't help that I have already been sad these past few weeks, I don't want to do anything, I'm avoiding everyone, job sucks, etc. so hearing my dad suddenly yell at me like I'm a kid again just really startled me and made me cry for the first time in a long time.

If it's possible, move out. I think it got talked about somewhere ITT before (or it was in one of the gay DM chains), i can't stress enough how much the relationship with my mother improved once we didn't bust each others balls and were bickering all day erry day.

 

[DenseDeerFather]

Trying to peer review a classmate's paper at the last minute and I'm not in the mood to give constructive criticism. Like, at all.

You know what, though? Looking at someone else's bad writing makes me want to get back into writing my own again. Probably will start something tonight, just for giggles.

I felt this. Got a friend of a friend wanting to be an editor for his for free and me in my infinite people pleaser faggotry decided just to spent a Saturday looking through the first two chapters of his fantasy novel.

It was so shit but I was way too nice about it, commenting

I honestly hate giving constructive criticism especially to strangers because people can and have flipped out on me for it.

Ironically I am a bit sensitive to getting it but I try my damndest to accept it with grace. And it has actually helped me improve my writing.

Might self publish a novel before I turn 30. Hopefully.

I thought my dad had chilled out and become more calm with age, but I guess not completely, he yelled at me over nothing and made me feel like shit tonight. Now we're avoiding each other so I feel even worse.

Doesn't help that I have already been sad these past few weeks, I don't want to do anything, I'm avoiding everyone, job sucks, etc. so hearing my dad suddenly yell at me like I'm a kid again just really startled me and made me cry for the first time in a long time.

If it's possible, could you move out? Just with a friend or something? Assuming you actually live with him?

Going into therapy mode for a second, and just yell at me if I sound retarded, but maybe the issue wasn't you at all. Could just as well be that your dad was having one of those days and he just sort of snapped and took it out on you.

That doesn't make it okay but it could be a reason for it..

Maybe he's avoiding you because he feels bad about it. I can only speak for myself but when I get into a conflict with someone, I tend to avoid them as much as possible..

Same, not a single doubt about this in my mind. Though as an european nogunz i'd have to resort to another way to off myself.

Euthanasia is a hot button issue here too. It's illegal unfortunately but we do have "passive euthanasia" which is just refusal of treatment or pulling of life support.

Doesn't do fuck all for dementia and it's so needlessly cruel to let people degenerate into a shell of their former selves while their families have to watch them mentally deteriorate.

I thank God i don't have a family history of that shit (nor cancer for that matter), though i am actually not sure about how much the genetic component plays a role. The men in my family usually just drink themselves into an early grave

I think some lifestyle things may also be a factor. Remember reading somewhere that mental illness can increase your chances and so can constant isolation. So can poor sleep. So can a long list of things I can't remember.

No wonder people in solitary confinement go a little doolally after a while.

In some less morose news. Got home from the doctor's and my fucked up vein is doing much better. So I feel pretty decent today. And it's raining which gets my creative juices flowing. Nice..

 

[The Feline Solution]

Remember reading somewhere that mental illness can increase your chances and so can constant isolation. So can poor sleep

WELL, looks like my ticket's already stamped then

"passive euthanasia" which is just refusal of treatment

Yeah, that's shit. If i am ever terminally ill you bet your bottom dollar i will be whacked out off my mind on the best, pharmaceutical-grade shit Bayer and GlaxoSmithKline has to offer.

Also, in less morose news from me, too, i am off to my cousins house in an hour or two. We decided to forego the fancy dinner shit he had planned and are gonna grill on his balcony instead. Almost 20°C today, we need to nurture that inner boomer and bust the grill out. Since we are not animals (sometimes) it will be the electric grill and not coal. He prepared fake salsiccia already, Lidl bratwurst stuffed with fennel seeds, vacuumized in a brine of white wine, garlic, pepper, salt. Tastes like the real thing, costs less than half. Gotta pick up something for the kids on my way there.

I honestly hate giving constructive criticism especially to strangers because people can and have flipped out on me for it.

Fuck this, i know exactly what you are talking about. If you want my critique, you'll get it, brutally honest, especially if i consider you a friend. Getting upset afterwards is just being a little bitch.

Ironically I am a bit sensitive to getting it

Honestly, who isn't? You also already correctly stated that it improved your creative works, it is a vital and neccessary tool for improving one's creative endeavours. Best to get it from strangers, too, they're less likely to mince words.

 

[bile demon]

There's one simple trick no-guns-allowed countries don't want you to know about if you're serious about suicide. You can go to a gun range and pay an instructor to show you how to shoot. This is not a class to prepare you for gun permit tests, it's just a demonstration which anyone can order. If G*rman gun ranges dont offer this service, just visit Czech Republic. It's not that long ago that some foreigner successfully 41 %ed using this method here.

 

[Shadfan666xxx000]

I feel like shit. I might be coming down with COVID and I know for a fact my ears infected. It's shit to deal with and I've already got a damn laundry list of things I've been putting off. Regardless, I'm going to get my appointments together and put in some time over the weekend. After all of that, I should be able to relax a bit.

 

[Coelacanth]

Tired and anxious. Even though I could see it coming the latest Bongistan fuckups are happening at a speed which really does make me worried. I've just gotta keep holding out until I see the private doctor next month about the health issue ruining my life right now that the NHS keeps refusing to deal with properly.

 

[Prj4MW8iPT3vmFM2rzDc]

I'm super burnt out on everything. Work, society, waking up in the morning. Its all so tiresome.
I wish my mother was alive still. I just want a hug and to feel like some one gives a cares about me.

 

[Betonhaus]

Meeting with my boss tomorrow, feeling anxious. My dad told me to think of her as a barking dog and ignore her, which helps, but I still feel some level of anxiety about it. I'll feel better once it's over. I wish I could just quit and spend all my time studying for the GRE and focusing on grad school applications.

barking like a Chihuahua or a Border Collie? Sounds like the former but that's not leadership potential.

 

[DenseDeerFather]

WELL, looks like my ticket's already stamped then

Well, they also say that sleeping with your phone next to your head can potentially increase the risk of getting cancer so I guess I can look forward to chemotherapy in ten or twenty years or whatever.

Honestly, who isn't? You also already correctly stated that it improved your creative works, it is a vital and neccessary tool for improving one's creative endeavours. Best to get it from strangers, too, they're less likely to mince words.

Very. Just not the internet because people will be like "If you have nothing nice to say, don't say it!"
Likewise, you need that shit like oxygen if you're in academia. The lectors will be professional and direct while giving you examples of what you did right and what you did wrong and what you can do to improve it.

I still remember the professor for my English class saying that I was like a turtle during the orals that he had to pull out but when I did get over the anxiety, I did well. Going in with confidence and trust in my work is what I needed more of.

Fuck this, i know exactly what you are talking about. If you want my critique, you'll get it, brutally honest, especially if i consider you a friend. Getting upset afterwards is just being a little bitch.

Really. And then you get the book of cope thrown after you.

"It's my coping!", "I don't want to get better", "I do it for my enjoyment!", "It's deeply personal for me and a way to work through my trauma so it feels like a personal attack!"

Well, sure. I get that. I use my writing to work through my bullshit as well. Doesn't exempt you from proper spell-check, actual fucking paragraphs instead of the Wall Text of China, and keeping track of your tenses. And maybe read a dictionary because I'm not sure you know what that word actually means.

And please stop with the exposition about the origin of demons right after you introduce your big titty succubus wet dream.

I'm super burnt out on everything. Work, society, waking up in the morning. Its all so tiresome.
I wish my mother was alive still. I just want a hug and to feel like some one gives a cares about me.

I can't offer much in terms of hugs or inspiring words so have this as a consolation.

 

[Yamamura]

You know its like... I finally understand what burnout feels like. I never really thought I experienced it myself because I thought that it just doesn't happen to me.

But then yesterday something was off that I couldn't really explain. I realized that I wasn't all the way there mentally. It's like I could hear people talking to me but their words weren't really registering in my brain. I was responding with "yep, un-uh, sure". Like I wasn't physically tired but I was unable to be fully present.

 

[Sergeant Major Buzzkill]

I honestly hate giving constructive criticism especially to strangers because people can and have flipped out on me for it.

I hate it especially when it's a part of an assignment and there's all these rules and shit that kills the motivation to even look at someone else's work. Like isn't this the teacher's job to check for all these consistencies and this other bullshit?

 

[Nick Obre]

A friend is doing a crowdfunding campaign to get her book published.

It's not going well. 3 pledges so far, me included.

Not gonna post a link or anything because I'm not here to shill even for a friend, and also it's a local platform and it can't receive pledges from outside the country.

Hope she makes it, but I doubt it.
On the other hand, if she doesn't, it's not like it won't happen ever, it'll just take longer.

 

[biozeminadae1]

A friend is doing a crowdfunding campaign to get her book published.

It's not going well. 3 pledges so far, me included.

Not gonna post a link or anything because I'm not here to shill even for a friend, and also it's a local platform and it can't receive pledges from outside the country.

Hope she makes it, but I doubt it.
On the other hand, if she doesn't, it's not like it won't happen ever, it'll just take longer.

Bro, this is kind of sad. But I don't understand how this affects you.

 

[eatler]

It's not going well. 3 pledges so far, me included.

Not gonna post a link or anything because I'm not here to shill even for a friend, and also it's a local platform and it can't receive pledges from outside the country.

Hope she makes it, but I doubt it.
On the other hand, if she doesn't, it's not like it won't happen ever, it'll just take longer.

Has she posted it to Facebook on a local page. Most people will find a project if they are a fellow local.

 

[Nick Obre]

Bro, this is kind of sad. But I don't understand how this affects you.

Makes me worry and feel bad for my friend you dingus

 

[I Know 孤独のせい]

Feeling meh. Ate something earlier that my body did not appreciate for whatever reason. Tekken 8 is annoying me, despite me trying to enjoy the game. Work is starting to become boring.

 

[biozeminadae1]

Makes me worry and feel bad for my friend you dingus

Worry about what? She can always make another crowdfunding campaign if this one fails. She can present her manuscripts to a publisher, etc. I don't think it should be that big of a deal for you.

 

[Nick Obre]

Worry about what? She can always make another crowdfunding campaign if this one fails. She can present her manuscripts to a publisher, etc. I don't think it should be that big of a deal for you.

Ok now you're pissing me off.
How does it not occur to you that I could be worried about how the likely failure of this campaign may affect her?
Do you not worry about things that happen to your friends?