- Joined
- Apr 27, 2023
It's the beginning of yet another spring in the great state of Ohio. It is currently 71 degrees and we're dealing with a long line of storm cells that stretch clear down south to Mississippi. I'm not a particular fan of tornadoes, but I do enjoy a good strong storm. It's even more an indication of spring in that we're forecasting snow on Thursday. Getting tired of bipolar weather, but we should even out soon enough. On the bright side, because of the severity of the weather, we ended up not needing to go to work today. Probably for the best with how nasty things are starting to get.
I guess it could be worse. I'm looking at potentially getting off second shift since there's a position coming open at the end of the school year. Old dude is retiring and I'm gunning for that job. My wife and I have been having some issues relating to our work schedules. I usually only get to spend significant amounts of time with her on the weekends. Not really conducive for a couple trying to have a kid. She's been ornery lately and we've had a couple arguments over small stuff, so I'm hoping that switching shifts will help us. Hopefully I get it, but union and seniority rules might be my downfall. I've got a pretty good report with our facility manager and personnel director, so I might have a leg up above any other internal candidates. I just gotta keep telling myself that I'll get the job. Manifesting destiny never hurt anyone, right?
The last two weekends I was not myself. I'm not sure what it was, but I just didn't feel like my normal self and it showed. I barely moved and lamented not getting anything done. I just had no will or energy for anything. Shit, I couldn't even muster up the energy to have sex. You know how people usually get that seasonal affective disorder when the autumn comes? For some reason, I'm the exact opposite, but the season changing isn't what is causing my depression. Things have just been so up and down lately. My mom has been having issues with multiple sclerosis, so I've been having to take on more responsibility and worry. She went for a cardiologist appointment this week and came back to tell me that the left ventricle of her heart is hardening. Hypertrophy I think it's called. The doctor told her it was "moderate" but that isn't exactly comforting. She's been working on getting better at exercise, drinking water, and managing stress, but there's always a setback somewhere. Maybe I'm just mentally drained from having to deal with everything and not have an outlet to let things out. Times like this make me wish I never stopped drinking, but that's a whole new can of worms I don't want to open.
Looking to have an OK week. Doesn't have to be good, just OK. If I can manage that, I'll be happy.
I guess it could be worse. I'm looking at potentially getting off second shift since there's a position coming open at the end of the school year. Old dude is retiring and I'm gunning for that job. My wife and I have been having some issues relating to our work schedules. I usually only get to spend significant amounts of time with her on the weekends. Not really conducive for a couple trying to have a kid. She's been ornery lately and we've had a couple arguments over small stuff, so I'm hoping that switching shifts will help us. Hopefully I get it, but union and seniority rules might be my downfall. I've got a pretty good report with our facility manager and personnel director, so I might have a leg up above any other internal candidates. I just gotta keep telling myself that I'll get the job. Manifesting destiny never hurt anyone, right?
The last two weekends I was not myself. I'm not sure what it was, but I just didn't feel like my normal self and it showed. I barely moved and lamented not getting anything done. I just had no will or energy for anything. Shit, I couldn't even muster up the energy to have sex. You know how people usually get that seasonal affective disorder when the autumn comes? For some reason, I'm the exact opposite, but the season changing isn't what is causing my depression. Things have just been so up and down lately. My mom has been having issues with multiple sclerosis, so I've been having to take on more responsibility and worry. She went for a cardiologist appointment this week and came back to tell me that the left ventricle of her heart is hardening. Hypertrophy I think it's called. The doctor told her it was "moderate" but that isn't exactly comforting. She's been working on getting better at exercise, drinking water, and managing stress, but there's always a setback somewhere. Maybe I'm just mentally drained from having to deal with everything and not have an outlet to let things out. Times like this make me wish I never stopped drinking, but that's a whole new can of worms I don't want to open.
Looking to have an OK week. Doesn't have to be good, just OK. If I can manage that, I'll be happy.