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I'm on a brink of starting to pray as my last resort to do something about this never ending turmoil that debilitates me on a daily basis since I can remember myself, growing and expanding with experience of life, like a snow globe that absorbs random trash and shit while it rolls down the hill. These attempts are most likely going to be futile, as there's nobody to respond and nothing beyond the cold, unforgiving, dead matter.

Edit: This is absolutely retarded, but my mind thrives on catching silly little coincidences, so here we go. @dick brain I find it amusing that you reacted to this post of mine, because I decided to post specifically after reading about your loss. One of few major things that pushed me into the sense of ultimate defeat that I'm whining about is losing a close person I considered a literal saint. It's been a while, but I still cannot accept it.
 
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[[BIG SHOT]] said:
I can remember myself, growing and expanding with experience of life, like a snow globe that absorbs random trash and shit while it rolls down the hill.
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I feel so tired and a little depressed because I’ve been just working then going home to sleep. It doesn’t help that I found a good book only to learn that the sequel comes out next year.

I’m finding stuff to do but it’s hard on my days off when I find myself bored.
 
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Need to get my shit together again. While unemployed I'd check listings, apply or not, then move on with my life. Now, I got a good job, check when I get home, if there's nothing however I'll fucking doom and think "I'm dying in this job". It's summer, there's only maternity and temp positions. I know great ones exist; I applied for 4 in 3 days not long ago, but the following drought just ruins me.

All day at work Ill say "money and career aint everything" and truly believe it, then come home and just doom about it to the same few people (granted we've nothing else to talk about). I'm doing so much for my health and sleep but oh boy, job? Perma doomer.
 
Shitty neighbors at it again with their reggaeton and other shitty bass-heavy musics, sadly for them my studio monitors are turned on at max volume with even bassier music, and I have ear protection on :smug:
dick brain said:
Maybe you're just getting old.
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It was perfectly the day before and I'm not even 30, for a pricy mouse you'd expect them to last more :mad:
 
My new boss is uncomfortably slow to get back to me, but to be fair the job won't start for another 2-3 weeks and all i have left is some safety training they probably won't have until closer to shutdown. oh and uniform sizing. that last bit will suck as i really don't want to know what size uniform i need
 
Doing quite good, actually. In my previous post I lamented the fact that nobody was able to work on my electric bike that I had written off as totaled, and therefore decided to buy an electric scooter. As it turns out, upon further investigation, the only thing wrong was that the battery wire had become disconnected due to a shoddy plug/solder job.

There is exactly one person in my state that I know of (within reasonable range of my house) that was willing to work on it, and as a bonus he was able to pick up and drop off my bike so that I didn't have to take 6 bus rides, round trip to drop off and pick it up (I did have to pay him for transport, although his price was fairly reasonable) Only downside was I had to pay in cash which isn't that bad.

The whole repair cost around $280 (it had other things wrong with it, like a busted rim, flat tire and worn brakes), so overall I'm very happy with it. I am out a total of $1500 from buying a new electric scooter on impulse, and said scooter had to have it's wheel reinstalled as well as new brake parts before it was 100% (the pre-installed brakes are really shitty and I had installed the wheel incorrectly).

So despite being out a significant amount of money I'm now happy that no matter what happens I will always have some kind of reliable transportation. As, even with a backup bike, and in this situation, both of my bikes were unusable at the same exact time.

The expense did leave a rather large dent in my savings but not so much that I'm having trouble making ends meet.
 
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I drive 170~ miles round-trip each day to work.

I forgot my badge to actually access my building today so I came to work for nothing cuz I couldnt get in lol

Thankfully I'm in a 2 man team so I just let him know and fucked off and apparently I can just put in PTO for today and it'll be that, but thats retarded.

My dog was laying in the yard acting all retarded even though it was 1 am and he got excited to see me though so that was cool ;)
 
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Toji Suzuhara said:
What kind of dreams do you have? (Or should that go into one of the dream threads?) Mine usually involve icy plains in them, oftentimes alongside lavanda-colored boreal forests and crystal-wheat fields
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Sounds cozy. Mine are rarely set outside the city (or a city), even though I like to spend time outside in nature. Now that I think about it I rarely see any vegetation in my dreams.
 
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Currently taking break from work with my family to assist my sister's high school graduation exams. My wife and I are rehearsing her chemistry reviewing subjects, from memorizing electrochemical series, metallic effects, basic math for chemistry; then calculus and geometry; and physics. We still recall 12th grade math, physics and chemistry vividly and get her to prepare to get enrolled into college. She just recently completed her literature exams, but she is a bit nervous, so I was here with her to assist her to handle them well. I do not care if she is perfect or not, we always want my sister to pass through everything swiftly.

My sister was at first incompetent, but I am glad she improved marginally slowly. My wife enjoyed her presence in assisting her exam. Currently she is babysitting the gremlin with my family and rewatching Hell's Kitchen. By the weekend, our family would be attending my paternal grandmother and grandfather's funeral feast. I have vivid memories with them, and I dearly missed them along with my uncle and my late chihuahua and other dogs. Losing someone affects me mentally, especially when I lost my uncle by testicular cancer. It fucking struck me worse, and made me mourn him as long as 2 to 3 days, but I am glad that I moved on and not letting that affect me mentally. I still miss my late uncle a lot.

Once my sister gets passed through every subjects, me and my family, and my son will go on a vacation to enjoy days off. The previous vacation kinda sucks because it is in the countryside, and constant outage happens every 2 to 5 hours, and forced us to sleep without air conditioning and in the dark. But at least I enjoyed the scenery a lot. Our vacation to the Mekong Delta was fun. I am looking forward to spend more time with nature. I was far less stressed and mentally downed than before, and that I was in a better mood now. Even in raining season here I currently live, it was still fucking hot and one of my fans fucking broke. Now working on fixing the fan and having a break with my family. Tonight is where I will put everything in one basket for my sister. She is ready to go with the chemistry exam with a bang.

edit: i forgot to tell last week i got a mini PC from my company. i might get into install fedora or arch linux on it.
 
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Bawbag said:
Okay mostly.

I got laid off and don't know what to do with all my free time. Most afternoons I go throw rocks at the ocean.
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Week 1: unwind, relax, play games or read books
Week 2: clean house, tackle important things you've been putting off (budget permitting)
Week 3: devise a plan to find work again and begin job searching.
 
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