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Four and Five started school today. Now all of my children are in school.

There are no babies left in my house, nobody needs me any more, I am drowning in my emotions.

I am obsolete.
Do not think like that, they will be still coming home after school to be with you.
 
Do not think like that, they will be still coming home after school to be with you.
"Daaad come put up shelves!"
"Daaad I'm drunk and lost, pick me up!"

Saw a post on reddit about some girl "laying in the arms of her dad as she used to as a kid" and that dude had a reminder that he used to have a lot more physicality with his kid.
 
Whelp I'm moving in with my parents this weekend. These damn kiwis convincing me to put away my pride and make better long term decisions. But now that the time has come, and I feel like fucking shit. I'm just feeling pissed off and full of unresolved frustrations. I'm also feeling pretty doomerpilled right now too. And I'm just tired of my work environment. Fucking babies dealing with entitled baby customer base. Thinking of moving from a residential job to a commercial one.
 
Had the plumbers over this morning because the fucked up drains clogged again and i wanted to get this shit dealt with before it turns into a shitwater flood like a couple of weeks ago. Was out with a friend, on my way home now, girlfriend just sent me a video of my kitchen flooding. Fuck. My. Life. It was such a good day, of course it can't end on a good note.

Still got an hour train ride left and she already dealt with the worst of it, but still.

It doesn’t help that I found a good book only to learn that the sequel comes out next year.
I know that feel but be happy you don't have to wait 25 years like a fan of a certain Stephen King series :story:
 
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I got the details of my work, I know which job site I'll be sent to and when i head out, and am just completely the site's virtual orientation for it. one of the videos starts with a cheesy history lesson with employees dressed as historical figures acting out scenes with a old-timy video filter (and unedited audio) and it is laaaaame
 
My family member called me up and told me my most valuable trait- the thing she's most proud of in me as an adult man, is that I've held a lot of jobs in social services and hands-on care. "You're worth it because you do that type of work!"

Yeah, I QUIT that type of work.

I would rather be a ditch-digger for the rest of my life than ever to back to the "helping" professions. They got their pound of flesh from me. I don't regret it because it "redpilled" me and did wonders for my spiritual development. It helped me recognize the depravity of man and the fact that only God can save us. But no, I don't think I'll spend any more of my time being paid minimum wage to get those [slurs here] free money. They literally get paid more to be homeless felonious crackheads than I got paid to tend to them.

Never again, kiwibros.
 
My family member called me up and told me my most valuable trait- the thing she's most proud of in me as an adult man, is that I've held a lot of jobs in social services and hands-on care. "You're worth it because you do that type of work!"

Yeah, I QUIT that type of work.

I would rather be a ditch-digger for the rest of my life than ever to back to the "helping" professions. They got their pound of flesh from me. I don't regret it because it "redpilled" me and did wonders for my spiritual development. It helped me recognize the depravity of man and the fact that only God can save us. But no, I don't think I'll spend any more of my time being paid minimum wage to get those [slurs here] free money. They literally get paid more to be homeless felonious crackheads than I got paid to tend to them.

Never again, kiwibros.
Eh, I said the same 4 years ago about working in certain fields and guess what? I am there again. Just because I need to survive.
 
Next week three interesting things happen; the DNC convention happens which might be a shitshow, I have a couple (paid) training days for work, and I get the place to myself for a couple days.
 
Yeah, I QUIT that type of work.

I would rather be a ditch-digger for the rest of my life than ever to back to the "helping" professions. They got their pound of flesh from me.
People seem to vastly underestimate what a huge toll that work takes from you, be it in the healthcare sector (like working in nursing homes for example) or doing social stuff like you did for junkies and bums. Any time i was inpatient or otherwise in non-drug/alcohol related treatment 9 out of 10 patients came from the health care sector, all completely burned out and every single one saying "I will not go back to that shit". It eats you up sooner or later.
My experience with it lasted exactly one fucking day, back when i was growing up you had to chose to do either military service or go into the health care/social service sector for a year once you hit 18 years of age, i chose a super luxurious nursing home to do my stint in, manager gave me a tour on my first and only day, showing me what i had to do and how people lived there and i got up the next morning, called them and said "Fuck this, i am not coming in". Had to jump through a million hoops to get exempted from my duty but it was worth it in the end, that one day was one of the single most depressing experiences in my entire life, still is. I can't imagine working in a field like that for years on end, i wanted to kill myself even after only one day. Don't even want to know how bad the state-run institutions are when this $5k-per-month private place was already so bad.
 
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My family member called me up and told me my most valuable trait- the thing she's most proud of in me as an adult man, is that I've held a lot of jobs in social services and hands-on care. "You're worth it because you do that type of work!"

Yeah, I QUIT that type of work.

I would rather be a ditch-digger for the rest of my life than ever to back to the "helping" professions. They got their pound of flesh from me. I don't regret it because it "redpilled" me and did wonders for my spiritual development. It helped me recognize the depravity of man and the fact that only God can save us. But no, I don't think I'll spend any more of my time being paid minimum wage to get those [slurs here] free money. They literally get paid more to be homeless felonious crackheads than I got paid to tend to them.

Never again, kiwibros.
Though I don't know what it's like to do social services and hands-on care, I do have years of previous customer service and public service experience and from that angle I agree with you! Our society idolizes the institution of service regardless of context. People love to be served! Of course, they also feel entitled to it and take it for granted. Many of these same people never want to do any form of service themselves, but they sure love it when they're being served. It's fucking awful. Personally, that's also why I don't care too much about these same people having to deal with automation instead of human workers. They never appreciated the human contact they say they deserve, so now they get to deal with a machine instead.

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I'm tired and burnt out as usual, but still doing good. When I'm cozy at home and indulging in my hobbies and interests, I feel alive again.
 
I've never known a single person who went into that line of work, burned out, and ever did it again.
One of the dudes i was in treatment with the last (and 100% sure the final) time went from being a nurse to become a fucking dog trainer because he hated his previous job so much. Another one, middle-aged female nurse working in the coma station for years, went back to her job, just in a different department. Shit she talked about was mind-numbingly depressive, all you do day in, day out on the coma station is taking care of what amounts to breathing corpses.
Though I don't know what it's like to do social services and hands-on care, I do have years of previous customer service and public service experience and from that angle I agree with you! Our society idolizes the institution of service regardless of context. People love to be served! Of course, they also feel entitled to it and take it for granted. Many of these same people never want to do any form of service themselves, but they sure love it when they're being served. It's fucking awful. Personally, that's also why I don't care too much about these same people having to deal with automation instead of human workers. They never appreciated the human contact they say they deserve, so now they get to deal with a machine instead.

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I'm tired and burnt out as usual, but still doing good. When I'm cozy at home and indulging in my hobbies and interests, I feel alive again.
Coming from a restaurant family i put my time in as a waiter and line cook and all i can say is that there's nothing else that turns you into a misantrophic bastard faster than having a job in the service industry for a prolonged amount of time. We in Germany, and especially in this city, are not even that forthcoming when it comes to service, if you behaved like a cunt and then asked for the manager he told you to pack your things and fuck off as quick as any waiter did, but my time in the service sector played a huge part in why i chose to live the hermit life which i am still living to this day.
 
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