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I'm optimistic for a change. My daughter finally (after 21+years) woke up and admitted that her grandfather, great grandfather and I aren't the evil racists she thought we were. She went all through public school being taught how bad her race was and bought the bullshit for a long time. Any family gathering occasion she attended she would without fail tell us how rude and racist our conversations were. Two months ago she insisted I ride with her in her new vehicle (car buying is her next lesson) when someone cut her off in traffic. "STUPID NIGGER!" came out of her mouth and she immediately covered her mouth and apologized. I laughed and told her I was proud of her for finally understanding. She can laugh at a nigger/pajeet/etc meme now without feeling shame. My work here is done.
 
Tell them to quit being fat lmao.
Some of the cherished advice from someone the weight of a baby beluga whale: Oh, you shouldn't let a baby have Chick Fil A nuggets. They're fried.

Girl, you eat acai bowls with Oreos and Nutella crumbled on top as a "pre workout snack" for Mommy and Me classes at MY breakfast counter. I'm not going to say anything because it's her friend, but goddamn. This fat slug. I worry about the bar school crumbling beneath her every time she hambles on top of it. All I can do is say, "Careful! Those are fragile!" every time she hooks her little plump goat hooves into them and hoists herself up like a reverse Humpty Dumpty.

She's her friend because they live in the area and have kids the same age. Maybe I am antisocial, but you know, better to have to drive to your friend's.
 
Every so often, I have days, or a series of days, that leave me wondering what happened to the fire I used to harbor from times prior, like an element of mundanity suddenly surrounds me.
A highly specific form of tiredness, neither mental nor physical, but instead stemming from some deeper aspect entirely.
It'll pass all the same - out of necessity, it'll have to. Perhaps a more robust diet is in order. God knows there's so much more in regards to cooking and recipes I still have to incorporate into habit proper.
 
. She can laugh at a nigger/pajeet/etc meme now without feeling shame. My work here is done.
Sort of reminds me of an interaction I had recently.. Was hanging out with some friends and one was playing games on her phones until she got an ad and said "Stupid GTA niggers" because it was one of those Mafia City games or whatever.

She then looked at me because I was the only nigger in the room and probably the only nigger she knows and I smiled and acted offended in a joking way. She quickly tried to explain herself like she had done something wrong but I just laughed it off and said it's fine and I don't really care.
The stress of this election season and everything else that's going on is hurting me. I know I can't get work up to much on things outside of my control but it feels like there is always something we could all do. I just really hate all the people who rule over me and abuse that power to hurt good people.
Honestly I pity your election seasons. They are always such circuses and everyone becomes rock bottom stupid during it. Not to mention the chaos it spreads. No wonder anyone would be stressed.
And now you got fear-mongering and stuff...

Then again our own government here is kinda in the pits.
acai bowls
What in the hell is that?

Honestly, what is the deal with the bowl craze? Pokebowls, taco bowls, smoothie bowls, Buddha bowls and now acai bowls?

Bowls aside, I'm considering upgrading my laptop's RAM in addition to that new SSD. Currently at 16Gb (2x 8gb) which is fine but I am considering upgrading it to 32 so 2x16gb cards.

Other than that, life is not suicide worthy except for that shit heatwave and my psychotic schizo neighbor being stupidly active.
 
What in the hell is that?

Honestly, what is the deal with the bowl craze? Pokebowls, taco bowls, smoothie bowls, Buddha bowls and now acai bowls?

Bowls aside, I'm considering upgrading my laptop's RAM in addition to that new SSD. Currently at 16Gb (2x 8gb) which is fine but I am considering upgrading it to 32 so 2x16gb cards.

Other than that, life is not suicide worthy except for that shit heatwave and my psychotic schizo neighbor being stupidly active.
Good to hear life is okay!

Acai berries are sometimes blended into a paste. I like the ones that add spinach and kale for a green bowl and add almond and peanut butter. They're decently nutritious and sweet.
 
Short answer:

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Long answer:

I’ve been unemployed for over a year for various reasons, including moving abroad and attending a specialized course that runs through the end of the year. Part of this schooling includes an internship to practice what we’re learning to be more employable in the local (mostly non English speaking) workforce. I requested office work, medical office training, or even warehouse/forklift training so that I could get out of retail/grocery work.

Guess where I got assigned.

On one hand, it’s just an internship. Not even a long one. But an internship it is. On the other hand, fuck me. After everything I’m back at the fucking grocery store? My wife has been trying to reassure me that it’s not all bad and the work environment should be less a lot less stressful than the same sort I was doing in the States. It just makes me feel like all I’m good for is scanning shit. Plus I really wanted more of an office setting at this point between scheduling, pay, and health issues like chronic back pain. I really didn’t want to go back to all that unless I really had no choice (which I guess is my current situation).

I’ll get through it. I’m just really not gonna like it.
 
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Yesterday, I met this cute chick at a student club in the university I'm attending. She was very nice, intelligent and funny and had a nerdy, but cute air about her. It was a blast talking to her for the time I did and then I realized I had a crush on her and it has been almost a decade since I even met a woman I had some sort of crush on.

We have another meeting on Friday. I just hope she's there and I don't fuck it up. For once, I'm looking forward to meeting a woman and actually interacting with her in a semi-normal way. I miss that feeling but I don't want to fuck up what I've set out doing. Some people are too unique and too precious to destroy relationships with them. Kinda over dramatic, but still I want this to go somewhere and not just be a one off thing.
 
How this last week made me feel:

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Everything just felt like a complete strain on my patience and energy. I got throught it, but it sucked. However, I can rest and move on now. Next week, both work and life at home will be normal again.
Same. The last two days at my job were like a sitcom. Everything is trying its best to go sideways. But at least my friend brought me a kitten. It is afraid of me, but I hope with enough love and patience I will be able to change that. Take care.
 
A dream about losing teeth supposedly means you are scared of losing something.
Well, losing teeth is what already happened to everyone and everyone knows how does it feel like. Maybe it's just replaying of the past experience, but as you already know you aren't gonna get a third set of teeth even in the dream, it hits differently.
 
I miss my former best friend (and our road-trips) too, he had turned from a quite apparent, but functional sperg into a full-blown autistic office drone and a complete stranger overnight, even worse, because people are usually quite nice to random strangers as long as they don't want to bum money, this one doesn't even try.
Sometimes he re-emerges (when he's drunk) and writes messages about how he fucked his life, but the moment he sobers up, he's in a drone mode again.
 
Well, losing teeth is what already happened to everyone and everyone knows how does it feel like. Maybe it's just replaying of the past experience, but as you already know you aren't gonna get a third set of teeth even in the dream, it hits differently.
I used to have a recurrent dream where my tongue fell out which apparently has a standard meaning but for some weird reason it never bothers me and I literally just put it back in.
 
The car charger install in the garage is done, except monitoring temps on a longer charge. The outside outlet for "guest" charging is done. Since I never have any guests it's just in case I need to do stuff in the garage and charge outside. The 3d printer has been relocated to the garage and placed in an enclosure to keep warm to print higher temp materials so I can print the bracket I need to finish assembling the portable EV charger.

I started pretending to be an Internet Lawyer by inhaling white powder.

But not the fun kind.

Have a bedroom and hallway to finish skim coating the drywall. Tried to find someone to hire, failed, so it's back to a sanding pole, dust mask and a bunch of touch-up work. Hoping to do an hour a day during the week(more on weekends) until it's done, drywall, paint, trim and a new floor.
 
My big sister (adopted, but that never lessened the bond between us) died of lung cancer this morning. I'm sad she's gone, I'm mad she's gone, I'm not surprised she's gone. She'd been a chain smoker for decades. Stupid broad was still smoking after she got diagnosed with it. She as good as killed herself and it's infuriating

If you're looking for a sign to quit fucking smoking, maybe this will be it.
 
My big sister (adopted, but that never lessened the bond between us) died of lung cancer this morning. I'm sad she's gone, I'm mad she's gone, I'm not surprised she's gone. She'd been a chain smoker for decades. Stupid broad was still smoking after she got diagnosed with it. She as good as killed herself and it's infuriating

If you're looking for a sign to quit fucking smoking, maybe this will be it.
I'm sorry for your loss.
 
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