How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

I'm doing pretty good, all things considered.

It's almost Thanksgiving and I know someone who raises turkeys that's gonna hook me up with one. The freezer is full of butcher stock meat. The fridge is full of food. The pantry is full of food. Got 12 cases of water, just in case. Back up to 6 months worth the food for the family +10%. Truck is running good. Computer's good.

It was a long year, but things worked out.

Sure, there's inflation, but I started making more money, so I'll just remain your basic poorfag. At least I'm making enough to offset inflation so far, so my quality of life hasn't declined.

Middle daughter's new house is progressing, the wiring is almost done being worked on. Plumbing is done except the sewer outflow pipe needs replaced, but that's on the docket. Furnace is repaired, water heater replaced.

Wife is happy. I'm happy.

So, things are doing pretty good.

I'm pulling air past my teeth, so I'm ahead of the game.
 
Rethinking some of my associations. When you have a conversation with a friend that goes something like,
Them: "Hey how's it going?",
You: "Not my best week. I've got some tough decisions to make on top of some personal demons I don't like facing."
Them: "Mmmh. So how do you like my new shirt?"

You can't help but think, ah. So we're not reeeeeally friends.
 
I haven't been doing too good lately. I've been extremely lonely, and painfully bored. The only good thing that's happened recently is that I passed my GED tests. Sadly, that doesn't really make up for the crushing loneliness. I've mostly given up on finding a relationship due to nobody I meet online living anywhere near me. All I can really do is occasionally post on r9k looking for potential boyfriends because I'm too much of a social retard and a coward to meet people IRL. And to top it off, I've had a really bad cough for the past week.
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Got a turkey in exchange for fixing a neighbor's computer. Gonna kill that fucker about 2 days before Thanksgiving. He looks ugly, stupid, and delicious.

Figured out what was wrong with my truck. Turns out that the switch had stuck on my underhood light and that's what was running my battery down. Smacked it, poured Coke on it, now it's fine. Yay 30 year old vehicles!

Daughters are all hyped for Thanksgiving. Wife is hyped for the holidays.

So me?

I'm doing fucking awesome.

Take care of yourselves, fellow Kiwis. Log off, touch grass, look up into the sky, feel the rain on your face, the wind in your hair (or on your male pattern baldness, whichever), pet a dog or cat.

Smile at yourself in the mirror. Close your eyes and give yourself a hug.

It's the holidays. Don't let doomers and bullshit ruin it.
 
Horrible. I haven't looked my mom in the eye since Wednesday, I haven't had a real conversation with her since then. I feel like I'm going nowhere, like I have no future or reason to keep going, I feel fucking ugly as shit and can barely stand to look at myself, my fucking hairs falling out, I look like shit, I feel like shit.
 
Rethinking some of my associations. When you have a conversation with a friend that goes something like,
Them: "Hey how's it going?",
You: "Not my best week. I've got some tough decisions to make on top of some personal demons I don't like facing."
Them: "Mmmh. So how do you like my new shirt?"

You can't help but think, ah. So we're not reeeeeally friends.
It's a debatable solution, but I once had a friend who did this shit. Would want to talk to me about heavy stuff, when he needed help, but wouldn't put the effort in when I wanted him to reciprocate. One word answers, just not interested.

I ghosted him, radio silence. After like two months he messaged me asking what was up. I told him frankly that his low effort, low rent responses were just him being a lazy fuck and taking, taking, taking. He was genuinely upset, and apologised. We're good friends now, better than before.

You could argue I could have said this to him instantly, but some people don't understand the impact of their neglectful, selfish behaviour until they experience the consequences.

If it was anyone else, they'd be dead to me.
 
Well, I guess it's good and bad situation, I had a crush on a co-worker(even though she told she had a boyfriend) we talked to, and after I was done my shift moving to a different schedule, she showed no interest or really care. The bad is I wasted my time however, the good is she wouldn't constantly occupy my thoughts.
 
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I guess I'm not as sad today, but I'm still bored as fuck. Also still lonely. My cough isn't really getting any better. I went to the doctor yesterday, and they didn't really tell me anything. Just did a quick corona test (despite telling them that I had tested negative a week prior, when it first started) and told me to take some anti allergy meds, then waved me out the door. My family thought it was bronchitis, but the doctor didn't see any signs of it apparently. Shit sucks. I guess I'll be taking Nyquil before bed for a while now.
 
I'm currently trying internet dating. First guy I met up with snorted coke in front of me. (:_( At least he wasn't a rapist.
One time a long long long time ago I went over to a guy's place and he opened his front door and literally right there on some high table at the door was a plate of cocaine. It was one continuous motion of him opening the front door and bending over and snorting it. He wasn't completely rude because then he offered me some.

Nope nope nope nope. Bye bye!

I hope the online dating goes better for you soon.
 
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