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My boyfriend has the Covid. It was inevitable given his work. I’m bracing myself although we hadn’t seen each other for a few days before his positive test. I’m worried about him because he finished a round of chemo a few months ago - prognosis is great for the cancer, but I worry he is still immunocompromised. Fingers crossed y’all, for both of us.
 
I started doing this thing during my quarantine where I pulled all but $100 out of my stock trading accounts. In one account I sold after 10% profit, the other after 20%. It was going swimmingly until the temper tantrum the stock market had this week.😡

Oh well. Still have the $100. Back on the horse.
 
Pissed off and worried -

Week started out great, I got a book I've been waiting for and a friend of mine who I havent seen before Christmas was going past where I am and stopped in for lunch and a chat.

Middle of the week someone broke into my Carpentry tool box, and stole a lot of stuff it wasn't anyone in my class but the CCTV wasn't of any use but they have a idea who it was and I wasn't the only person to suffer a break in but I'm down a lot of tools that I needed relatively soon, I've had to buy and start making a lot of whats been stolen but I'm still pissed off.

I'm now planning on making a much stronger tool box out of Mild Steel and inch thick oak with peened hinges. and a flush mounted lock.

Thursday and Friday have been horrible, a very young relative of mine is in hospital started off as one thing but they are now on a ventilator and is sedated, I can't go and see them as only two people are allowed to be on the visitors list (fuck you covid).

I manged to shrink my new polo shirt that I got from my godmother for christmas.
I am angry at myself.

Tried washing it with Hair conditioner in room temperature water and then putting it on and pulling it back to size? I did that to rescue a jumper I loved and it worked shockingly well it wasn't back to original size but it was close enough you wouldn't notice.

The first bread was ugly as shit. It was delicious, but I still don't understand the weird magic why caging it up in an oven inside an oven that retains water in the form of steam somehow leads to an incredibly crisp dough, but it did. I've read explanations. Now I want to moderate that crustiness, somewhat, because it actually bent a knife when I sliced it. Or maybe I should just buy a dedicated slicer. NOOOOOOOO.

If you find a good way of moderating it let me know, I love a light crust but when I try the double oven thing it's always to crusty for my liking.

Also you need a dedicated bread knife, I've got one that looks like a Carpenters Rip Saw and it's never not cut a sandwich, or anything else I've tried cutting with it.
 
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i had a nightmare that ended up in my trying to defend myself from my dad attacking me and swung my arm IRL and ended up bopping my cat. :(
he's totally fine though and i'm hoping he understands the words "sorry" :optimistic: (:_(
been having a lot of nightmares about my dad, even more than usual
 
I’ve been trying to get into graduate school for the past two years, and I finally accomplished my goal.

I got a call last week from a professor I interviewed with for a graduate assistantship in Florida offering me the position, and I accepted. I’m so glad that I’m getting to escape the shitty blue state that I currently live in for a state that isn’t on board with the COVID regime.

Preparing for the move is really stressful though. There are so many variables that I need to account for that it feels incredibly overwhelming. I spent most of yesterday packing my personal items into boxes, and there’s still a lot of things I need to take care of.

That being said, I’m still really excited for this opportunity, as it will be a chance for me to start anew and further pursue my career goals in a place that is more aligned overall with my personal values.
 
Both my cats will be 18 in April, and one of them is prone to respiratory infections. Yesterday morning, he quit eating and drinking, and he had bright yellow snot around his nose. Thankfully, he already had a vet appointment scheduled for an infected claw, and he'd been on Interferon for a week because I could tell he was getting a cold (my vet always gives me extra to keep in my freezer, specifically for these occasions). With his paw, it looks like maybe he got one claw stuck on something and partially ripped out the nail, and it got infected at the base.

Anytime he gets sick in the winter is usually incredibly stressful, because, for various reasons, I can't take him to the vet myself. There's really only one person who can drive me, and we have to fit in vet appointments around her work schedule.

My old boy is now on two antibiotics, has ointment for his paw, and is sleeping peacefully in bed next to me.

However, my other cat is now having problems. He's thrown up everything he's eaten this morning. He's tried to use the litter box twice; as much as he strained, he couldn't go the first time, and he barely pooped out a little nugget the second time. He's acting kind of strange, not really hanging out in my room much and lying down in places he normally doesn't. He finally came in and fell asleep on my bed about ten minutes ago.

I'm worried it's an intestinal blockage. I don't know what else it could be, but I can't do really do anything until I have a ride. So, I'll most likely have to take him to an emergency animal hospital. He's drinking water on his own, and I've been giving him Pedialyte to keep his electrolytes from tanking. That's about all I can do on my own, though.

Not going to lie, I'm fucking dreading the bill. I know you're supposed to have money aside for your pets' medical care. They're your responsibility, and you shouldn't take them in if you can't afford to take care of them. But I never expected to need $5k set aside for this.

Update: Sick kitty #2 is currently staying overnight at the emergency vet. It was an intestinal blockage, but it's not huge. He won't need surgery to fix it. The vet isn't sure what caused it in the first place, though.

In other news, they found he might have some kind of asthma or chronic bronchitis. They also found a small nodule in his lung on one of the x-rays, but only in one view. Since they were taking x-rays of his abdomen, it wasn't set to get clear pictures of his lungs. So, they're going to take more tonight to check. It might be nothing. We'll have to wait and see.

$1,500 spent so far. They needed 60% of the max estimated total cost before they would keep him overnight. Still not cheap, but fuck it, I'll take it. The little guy is still drawing breath. That's all I care about right now.
Since I can't edit my post, here's the second update:

Kitty #2 came home last night. The constipation was from being dehydrated, and the dehydration was caused by hyperthyroid disease. He's on a laxative and gets Miralax and extra water in his wet food, which makes it more of a soup, but he likes it (as long as I heat it up in the microwave first, the spoiled brat). The compound lab nearby didn't have any methimazole already made, so he'll start that this week.

His appetite is back, he's drinking plenty of water, and I've never been so excited that my cat pooped.

Total cost ended up being right around $2,200. For all the tests they did, with an overnight stay included, that's not bad. They found out what was wrong with him, and there's a medication to fix it. That's just about the best result I could've hoped for.

Kitty #1 is also getting better every day. Well, except for the fact that he kept hissing at his brother last night and refused to be in the same room as him. Today, he's continuing to be a cantankerous dick, not hissing, but still fussy. I get it, your brother was in the hospital and is covered in weird smells, but you've known him for almost 18 years. Chill the fuck out, dude.

He despises his antibiotics, but I can't blame him. The smell of liquid amoxicillin took me right back to childhood, and I feel his pain deep in my soul with every dose.
 
Still feel like shit, coughing up lots of phlegm and junk. I’m able to hold down actual food now so I feel a bit better outside of the coughing and sore throat. I got prescribed a steroid to go with the vitamins I’m taking and I feel like it’s helped me a lot.
 
recovering, slowly.
the headaches have dissipated, the shivering and constant sweating have abated, and my appetite has returned, although certain flavors seem a bit muted. my heart, though ... the physical activity to which i'm accustomed is just not something that i'm presently able to do. i managed my first and only hike of the year so far yesterday, but trying to trail run today was a mistake. the hiking, the running, the skating, the weights and the yoga ... i miss it all so much. i just want my physicality back! i see a specialist again tomorrow, and i'll hopefully be back to work the following day. we'll see about the rest in the weeks to come, but at least i have employment in a field that allows me to be active, to make a decent living, and to prioritize my own health over the needs of the company. be well, kiwis!
 
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I hate going to bed every night feeling like a useless blob of flesh. No matter what I do, I can never accomplish even a fraction of what I have on my to-do list. There are so many important things I want to do but it feels like I get nowhere. I waste all my days off, and then I work at a boring, mundane job that I'm underpaid for for the degree I have. I don't have any close friends I talk to regularly so I'm also super lonely.

I know a lot of kiwis have it worse than me. I'm relatively healthy (got covid recently but hardly affected me at all), and I least I have a job. But I'm falling into a hole of depression again. I just had my birthday but no one really celebrated it (I don't expect that, just wish I had friends to hang out with you know) and the cake I bought for myself sucked. I'm also just reminded how little I've done last year.
 
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