How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[A Grey Cat]

i feel a mix of elated...but also empty kinda like krusty when he doesn't get his lithium dibromide. but id sooner shoot smack in my eyes than rely on big pharms posion.

 

[Harbinger of Kali Yuga]

Having edgy thoughts. In no danger of acting on said thoughts, just sitting here and being angsty.

its okay i frequently feel like killing women too, but no woman is worth a loss of freedom, which is why marriage is also a bad deal

 

[ForgedBlades]

I have a zit in my nostril and it hurts like hell.

 

[Harbinger of Kali Yuga]

I have a zit in my nostril and it hurts like hell.

I had one on my scrotum, and I popped it and, ooof.

 

[Scarlett Johansson]

I'm looking forward to going out eating pizza with my family in the evening today.

But if it doesn't have truffles, gold leaf foil, magareći cheese, and caviar on it then I'm afraid you aren't the right class to eat it.

 

[Friend of Dorothy Parker]

This thread has typically been a no-shitting-on zone. People are sharing their personal difficulties, struggles, progress, achievements, discouragement, and hope. There are a lot of serious or serious-to-the-poster things put in here. It would be nice if folks with no intention of sharing their own or engaging in a real way didn’t bring beefs or critiques in here.

Yes, I know where I am. And I know where I am within where I am. This thread is a nice, fairly honest space that I really hope can stay that way. I’d thought that that was a sort of understood thing. Sure, “if youre looking for support from KF, rethink your life,” but behind all the guff there are some real people here. I, for one, love seeing kiwis at all ages and stages working through their trials and speedbumps. Would be nice to keep this thread that way.

And no, I’m not going to go ask for protections or jannying or any of that - just stating a hope that people’s better natures will acknowledge time & place and not work to deter real folks from a little carefully shared honesty.

…

As for me, feeling pretty good. Home ownership woes this week that will cost or cause a lot of headache, but my children are safe and thriving, and I’ve recently hit a point of new professional opportunity, so I’m psyched and focused on maximizing this next chapter. My work/effort of the last several (call it 1-20+, depending on topic) years is good.

 

[Scarlett Johansson]

I've been sleeping late and just genuinely have no energy to do the things I normally do. I miss my dog and I have no ambition. I'm excited for the new Star Ocean but it comes in waves, this excitement. Honestly I just want to be happy.

 

[The Cunting Death]

Handed out candy for Halloween and the joy those kids had when I handed them a big ass thing of airheads is the type of joy I wish I lived on.

 

[LGHDR+]

I'm looking forward to going out eating pizza with my family in the evening today.

I just want to warn everybody in here that you guys are talking to Felix Lang. Sorry for the minor derailment, but he's going to turn it into a full-on trainwreck.

 

[HOMO FOR LIFE RETURNS]

I dunno. Working for same boss 7 years now.

Took me through some tough times and he did a lot for me.

But I feel like I am trapped at my job and feel like.i am under utilized. I make near 100k but not enough.

I feel like I can and should make more and do more.

I feel like I know more and can do better than other people on certain management jobs.

My ability to organize, execute, and envision is better than most. We took some weakass business into #1 in the region after I came to.my position.

Yet I feel like I am underappreciated and over used for things that big managers do yet get paid no where close to what they make. Effectively I do the jobs of higher up but don't have the title or money to show for it.

I make it known to my boss over and over.

And when my pay was short of what was promised by 30% I just lost it and told my boss I won't lift my finger.to do any more work than I should. He told me my flaws make it impossible for him to promote me despite making over 300k for.rhe company this year plus additional duties that generates over 1 million.

I am both old school and also highly gifted in exploring and exploiting market opportunies in my field. I oversee all marketing operations as well as internal inventory management and more. I consult with vendors and merchants all the same. I also sell merchandise to make extra $3000 a year...I do monthly market analysis, manage over 200k in ad spending, generate 10x amount of leads compared to competitors, and almost triple the phone calls compared to competitors. I oversee and deal with multiple departments and link between them with good communication skills.

I also can and close sales for others and myself....my talents and abilities are endless...

Ever since the last hard talk with the boss I've been feeling like shit and looking for transition. I no longer trust him to deliver.me.to promiseland and instead I feel like I should seek my own path outside of his organization

.

Anyway long rant.

Just tired.

 

[Shadfan666xxx000]

I'm going on Nofap November for the month. I'll stick fuck a hookup and maybe get a relationship but I'm going to jump on the bandwagon and see if I can properly carry it out this time. That way, I can at least jerk myself out into a proper coma once December rolls around as I put some finishing touches on my other plans for the year.

 

[Harbinger of Kali Yuga]

-snip-


Anyway long rant.

Just tired.

they'll blow smoke up your ass about how great you are every single moment until the one where you ask for more compensation. It's the same endless shit. They're just not gonna pay you. Corporate america is retarded with its own "hiring-out" culture because they think they need to attract talent so the other guy doesn't get them all the while they bleed themselves of their existing employees.

 

[HOMO FOR LIFE RETURNS]

they'll blow smoke up your ass about how great you are every single moment until the one where you ask for more compensation. It's the same endless shit. They're just not gonna pay you. Corporate america is retarded with its own "hiring-out" culture because they think they need to attract talent so the other guy doesn't get them all the while they bleed themselves of their existing employees.

It's fucking crazy listening to him talk about his four million dollar house, going to luxury store many times etc with straight face 1 on 1. I don't feel envy nor have desire to be that wealthy but my god. Why even talk about this shit.

Taking about how we are gonna get new building, new this, oh I can make more money here or there yet it never comes to fruition somehow.

Fuck it's frustrating. It's always over promise and under deliver. And when I press to say hey dude you said this and that, he gets mad. That he is the owner, how I make.money money than this guy or that woman, or how I should be grateful for what I have.

Fuck.

I worked with this other department manager for 4 years and recently he quit. I always felt he was comfortable where he was. He made good money, had great relationship with his staff and he did his job competently. Obviously I did more and got.paid less but I learned alot from him and we always made up after a fight or so.

But this is now second time his position got replaced with someone else after 5 years....

First time, I was new into my role and I helped the department with organization and cleaning up the mess...

This time, I didn't know how to feel...to clean up someone else's mess once again in a different location and department...same scenario...yet I am more experienced and knowledgable....still doing the same shit...with less pay than the position that is now vacant soon to be replaced with someone else....

I felt hallow....

 

[Shitted Scaredless]

Autism below

Spoiler

I just watched the FNaF movie with my brother. It's weird, in a way. I was so little when the game itself came out. I had just started middle school. Something about the fact that I'm here, 8 1/2 years later, feels weird. I didn't think I'd be here necessarily, (teen angst for you), but here I am. Maybe not at ny best, but by the gods I made it. This is such a dumb thing to use as a milestone, but, right here and now, especially with everything going on at home, it is one. A message to my younger self that we did make it, and we will carry on.

 

[anustart76]

But this is now second time his position got replaced with someone else after 5 years....

First time, I was new into my role and I helped the department with organization and cleaning up the mess...

This time, I didn't know how to feel...to clean up someone else's mess once again in a different location and department...same scenario...yet I am more experienced and knowledgable....still doing the same shit...with less pay than the position that is now vacant soon to be replaced with someone else....

I felt hallow....

I hate that things are this way, but I think you have to look at switching jobs. It's scary, you get so comfortable where you're at, but these days that's pretty much what you have to do to get a raise/promotion. Internally you never get anywhere significant anymore.

 

[Harbinger of Kali Yuga]

It's hard to chase the dream when we live in such a bankrupt society that I can't figure out what I'd be working for. I feel like I have a decent amount of savings to maintain my lifestyle for a long time. Unless it's doing something I love, why shoudn't I do it? While my peers went out drinking and having fun, I worked my ass off. I saved and invested it. I didn't get rich but I have some comfortable padding for the future. Now I see they are bitchy socialists and, well, you know how that goes and what socialists are like, but I can't figure why I shouldn't be more ambitious? What would I be fighting for? Most of my entertainment is free, and the best video content is youtube documentaries on obscure historiography or Sabine Hossenfelder dunking on particle physicists; I don't have the expensive appetites the more consumerist "socialist" peers have. In person, I could never find people to talk to--what could we ever talk about? Nor do I see a hope in this society.

I literally can't get along with other people. Everyone gets pissed at me because I love stirring drama in uptight people. I'll start saying slightly offensive shit and act innocent because I can't stand other people's emotional weakness. I can listen to women bitch about men on the internet all day but the second I make a crack about women all sirens go off with these bearded goofy overly-"friendly" soyboys.

But I think, I'm not gonna live forever, what if I'm missing opportunities?

And I don't know that.

 

[Triple Flutz]

I fucking love my husband and kids so much. We had a really trying past week, some bad news on my loved ones' end which I quickly mentioned before, unexpected work when I was expecting to relax which ended up actually feeling great, and the kids being overly excited and having some out of character chimpouts over trivial shit because of the anticipation for Halloween, but it was just amazing.
I really, genuinely love how much we're focusing on creating childhood magic within them and it really landed today, and all the conditions we couldn't control went perfectly. Even the weather was perfect- chilly but not to the point where costumes had to be altered! We started early because there are young ones, and finished quickly because people are generous as fuck when you're the first to show up. I'm talking mostly full-sized candy bars that will be doled out slowly and should last for months. Kids fell asleep on the ride back home, woke up when we got home and had their first fireplace campout of the year, and promptly fell asleep so my husband and I got to enjoy the rest of the night alone and undisturbed, playing spooky video games and watching tv. I'm a lil tipsy, he's sober because he doesn't drink anymore but ate a lot of good food, and I'm so glad we chose each other and have the family we do.
I hope everyone who enjoys Halloween had an equally great day, or one that mogged mine.

 

[Vingle]

I just want to warn everybody in here that you guys are talking to Felix Lang. Sorry for the minor derailment, but he's going to turn it into a full-on trainwreck.

Dunno who that is, and it was a very harmless and wholesome comment from the user. Until you people from, the Spiderman faggot-thread I assume. Came to shit up the thread.
Based on that, you are still claiming the user will turn this thread into a trainwreck.

THE DELUSION.

It began to snow here yesterday, and I'm not too happy about that. I rather want it to get colder and free of snow.

 

[LGHDR+]

Dunno who that is, and it was a very harmless and wholesome comment from the user. Until you people from, the Spiderman faggot-thread I assume. Came to shit up the thread.
Based on that, you are still claiming the user will turn this thread into a trainwreck.

THE DELUSION.

It began to snow here yesterday, and I'm not too happy about that. I rather want it to get colder and free of snow.

Don't even know what the spider-man thread is, and I can understand your suspicion (especially with the more aggressive posters).

Just click on his username and check his wall (s, third sock account). I think you will find things are a lot less wholesome than you were expecting.

Having said that, sorry again for shitting up the thread, and good luck.

 

[A Grey Cat]

By the way, I'm keeping the dark Spooky orange theme. I love the parody posters kn the back ground plus...something about the farms in orange and grey athat just tickles my fancy.