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Well...what work has he "gone through"?
It was a heavy level of emotional intimacy, no bix noods shit. Had sort of a breakthrough with him where I think he finally gets it and it is all good and I am very satisfied with it. He just was maybe concerned with rejection. *Crosses self three times because oh shit what am I doing in some ways lmao*
 
Just fucking asking him out and make it clear. Jesus fucking Christ; women.
This always worked for me. This is how I ended up going with some guys I thought were unobtainable to me. I have always been the socially inept artnerd girl, I don't think I'm particularly attractive and I'm a smallfat. However, when I flat-out asked men I found attractive if they would like to go out, it worked.
"But January, you are old now and you have always been single," you say. True. I largely attribute that to those men deciding they wanted less. When I thought I'd met my equal (fairly late in life, I was in my 50s) the same thing happened. (Seriously, for this one I would have gone halfsies on the biggest asset I own, a very nice and valuable chunk of real estate, because I actually trusted him.) It turned out that in that case I dodged a bullet. Last time I heard his eldest son (handsome, early 20s, one of two) was trooning out. If I had still been in the picture I think I would have backhanded that boy into orbit, and my reaction probably would have ended things between Mr Perfect and I.
So, just say so. Say "I like you, do you want to go to x?" You have to put yourself in the position to be rejected. You may be disappointed. But now you know. If they want to go to x, follow up and ask them if they want to go to y. Keep doing this. Let them know what you like about them.
edit because typing
 
I finally get to have a vacation and I couldn't be happier! Also, I was going to rant about assorted things in the You Know What Grinds My Gears? thread, but as soon as my work week ended and my vacation began all those things I wanted to sperg about vanished. I think it's best this way. For me and everyone else. However, I'm also a A&N regular, so I'm sure something from that will get my blood boiling. But I'll leave my rants on that board in the appropriate topics.
 
Well mom may have just moved dad's stuff out of the house and they may be fighting on the phone and they may both be accusing eachother of things and I don't know who to believe anymore

But at least I still have my mold family. (If I pull a Chris Chan over this but with RE8 I want one of you to shoot me.)
 
I'm having this end of the year calm. I love this season because I usually can get reflective about the year and plan for the next.

I really hope to turn things around in 2024. I basically want to make up for my lost 20s, pick up a few new skills/hobbies and improve my dreadful English. I just wish I could learn stuff fast so I could get rid of my job or at least have a solid plan B so I don't need to stress as much.
Your English is very good! Better than many native speakers today; I've found a lot of ESL speakers speak (or at least type) much better than native speakers, maybe because they actively chose to learn it. But don't give up, you're clearly doing great at least in written English.

Wait, English isn't your native language? You should see how the kids here talk and write. Hell, back when I was in college the other students were barely literate. America's lack of truly valuing education (America values the fame money that education can bring only) means even native speakers speak worse than many foreign people. The thing is you're focusing on every error of pronunciation or grammar that you replay in your head while kids growing up here are babbling about "skibidi wub a dubba dub duuuuuub piiiiickleeee riiiiiiccckkkkk!"
I think it's a combination of foreigners wanting to learn it and actively looking at proper English, while native speakers grow up hearing massive amounts of ebonics and other garbage, and think it's "cool"

...is Bloons even a thing? It predates fortnight and angry birds and it is probably older then the college freshmen
I remember the old Flash games back in the day, but the developers (good for them) actually put the most recent games out on Steam and on mobile. I think it's great to see that happen. Something similar happened with the This Is The Only Level guy, his games are on GOG. I always like to see those amateur game devs successfully turn into professional indie devs.
 
Missed some of the thread because of the gayops but let me shine some light.

Blobby's Murder Knife

(Don't know if these actually notify you or if I'm just a retard shouting into the wind)....
I'll be honest. I'm not even officially on the spectrum and can talk with normies okay, but I have a horror story of a literal big tiddie goth gf making very forward motions, asking for my number and giving me every chance to make a move and I blew it. Somewhat because of social retardation but also half because of anxiety and the modern dating scene. That whole "When she does this, she's obviously not trying to flirt with you" has ruined an entire generation of men. Don't let that happen again. Even if he's not literally autistic, most men are scared of women actually wanting them nowadays as they've been browbeat most of their lives into thinking they don't deserve affection.
You have to make things as blatantly fucking obvious as possible. This might be awkward for you but trust me, sometimes it's the only way. Again, not because men are all autistic. But sometimes the idea of a decent woman liking us is such a far-off idea that we don't even indulge it when it happens. With me personally it was my own insecurity ("Why is this big tiddie popular girl flirting with me?") and tunnel-vision (I had a lot of stress at the time).
Don't create an autistic girlfriend depression story. Because trust me, even if you move on, us guys hold onto that shit forever.
 
Missed some of the thread because of the gayops but let me shine some light.

Blobby's Murder Knife

(Don't know if these actually notify you or if I'm just a retard shouting into the wind)....
I'll be honest. I'm not even officially on the spectrum and can talk with normies okay, but I have a horror story of a literal big tiddie goth gf making very forward motions, asking for my number and giving me every chance to make a move and I blew it. Somewhat because of social retardation but also half because of anxiety and the modern dating scene. That whole "When she does this, she's obviously not trying to flirt with you" has ruined an entire generation of men. Don't let that happen again. Even if he's not literally autistic, most men are scared of women actually wanting them nowadays as they've been browbeat most of their lives into thinking they don't deserve affection.
You have to make things as blatantly fucking obvious as possible. This might be awkward for you but trust me, sometimes it's the only way. Again, not because men are all autistic. But sometimes the idea of a decent woman liking us is such a far-off idea that we don't even indulge it when it happens. With me personally it was my own insecurity ("Why is this big tiddie popular girl flirting with me?") and tunnel-vision (I had a lot of stress at the time).
Don't create an autistic girlfriend depression story. Because trust me, even if you move on, us guys hold onto that shit forever.
i've seen this happen to a lot of guys, yeah. the inconfidence makes a lot of sense.
 
Cut the back of my ring finger on a partially rusted box cutter knife. Small cut but was bleeding a fair bit. Sanitized it, applied antibiotic cream and bandaged it. Now trying to remember if I’ve had a tetanus shot within the last ten years, if I should be good to go or if I need to fork out the money to get a new shot.
 

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Today was the last Monday at work for the year and it's been quite hellish. On the upside, the extra holiday money is welcome. Gran kids have been yelling at me to retire already. Maybe they're right. Too old for this shit, but when people my age start doing nothing, they die. Looking forward to fishing and shitposting next week.
 
Still badgering my partner to nail down what plans with his parents ar for Christmas e, as we see my parents immediately after and if we need to change the schedule I need to give my parents as much advanced warning as possible.
 
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