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I got a grand jury summons. How do I get out of it, preferably without ever going? They actually bust people for ignoring them around here, and my sense of civic responsibility died a few years ago.
Just go, and treat it as a side sociological research project.

I'd appeal to your better nature (carrot) on it, but in your case, there's a stick involved, so simplest path is just do it.

...

And not that anyone but me is counting the seconds on this, but I FINALLY got a neg covid test, and my temp is sub-fever. :woo:
Are you vaccinated against it?
What qualifies? This year, no. I got the original vax and, iirc, 1 or 2 boosters, but not this year. I don't regularly get flu vax, either, so I suppose my number was up. In any case, as soon as I catch up on work, Christmas is back ON. FINALLY.
 
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Got over being sick as a dog for a week, probably the Covids but I just sleep.
First time in a week that I was awake with the sun, nice feeling.
Got off work around noon since I started work in the wee hours of the morning.

Still don’t know why my tranny is dumping fluid, but me thinks it’s the inlet to the cooler, I would dig in and fix it but the sky is absolutely DUMPING right now.
(Don’t worry I’m not driving the truck until I get the leak plugged, not a retard lol)

A cute girl that I’ve only seen twice has been sending some wild hints my way; unashamedly flirtatious.
She also lights up when I enter a room and since I have no context for her whatsoever, I’m confused but appreciative that she finds me attractive.

My friend’s wife dropped by and brought me gifts which I didn’t expect, but I appreciate it ❤️

Not getting my hopes up in the partner department (I’ve been hurt too many times) but I’m happy for an opportunity. All around, life is good, it’s been hard lately, and I’m failing in a lot of areas. Though work is good, I have food, and I get to spend Christmas with a lot of family. :)

(Also got scammed on Amazon out of $200 but it’s ok, I’ll get that motherfucker)
 
A cute girl that I’ve only seen twice has been sending some wild hints my way; unashamedly flirtatious.
She also lights up when I enter a room and since I have no context for her whatsoever, I’m confused but appreciative that she finds me attractive.

Then she finds you attractive retard. If you are also interested go after her, just say hi. This isn't rocket science. Women also suffer from fear of rejection.

I am losing my shit. The more I talk to this man the more we have in common in the most obscure ways. No way he could have googled it or made it up, the man fucking lived it like I did and has the deets. It is so WTF. I am probably like one of 10 people in the US that ever gave a shit about this gay shit we are talking about. How in the fuck did we not meet earlier?

Lord have mercy, Lord have mercy, Lord have mercy.
 
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Don't make your own fragility someone else's responsibility.
No one is saying that. I'm just saying men do hold onto "wrong timeline" thinking and do have a tendency to remember women they met for very short periods of time in their life, even after being happily married and successful.
Woman: Eh, it's no big deal, he's probably moved on by now.
The men:
 
Lol my blood pressure is waaaaaaayyyyyy too high. I put on too much muscle in too short a time. I'm gonna ween off of the creatine over the next few days. I'm glad I'd never do steroids. I can't imagine how much worse it could be if I had put on 20 pounds instead of 8.
 
So what I'm saying is, @Blobby's Murder Knife, stop trying to say it without saying it, stop giving him massages during class. Just go and tell him:
HEY, BRO, I WANT YOUR HOT BODY
I NEED YOU TO REARRANGE MY GUTS
I WANT YOU TO FUCK ME TO SLEEP


Or, you know, something more demure but equally unambiguous.
DUUUDDDDE...
First off though, congratulations on the big tiddie goth.
Girls really underestimate for fucking socially retarded guys are.
But yeah, one of the first things this girl texted me was right after I had been sperging about Gurren Lagann and recommending it to her.
"You'll love it."
"I better... or it's pound town for you 👊".
That's probably the only time in my entire life I hoped somebody I met didn't like Gurren Lagann... But if that was the case she would have only been a one-time for me anyways.

Lord have mercy, Lord have mercy, Lord have mercy.
My mother asked me if I quit being Catholic because of this. I called her a retard and lmao. I was like no, just means I'm going to to have to go to confession...a lot...and pray the prayer rope a lot more. God intervened here for a reason. He is such a great guy. I am guarded but hopeful.
Oh God, have mercy on me, a sinner.
Oh Lord, cleanse me of my sins and have mercy on me.
Oh Master, forgive me as I have sinned without number
You right now:
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The total retard war is annoying me a bit but nevertheless I still have TOR. Anyways slight rant coming in perhaps a bit autistic but here goes. I've been chatting with numerous women overseas (I'm American) over the past few years and I've noticed something. Every once in while I'll start talking with a woman and it goes well for about a couple of weeks then she comes in with the can we be dating or are we dating spiel. Now my policy has been that I won't commit to or date a woman I've never met in person, at all. Well tonight she asks me if we can be dating, and I told her that was my reason for not wanting to. Also, two weeks is a bit fast for me to be dating someone anyways well now it's all awkward and probably won't go anywhere. I dunno maybe I should just say yes and not take it too seriously I mean in the long run it probably wouldn't pan out anyways. So, my point is ladies stop doing this please, it doesn't do you or me any favors to rush into this kind of thing especially when cultural and language differences come into play. Ok that's enough out of me just had to get that off my chest. Thanks for reading. Hit me with those puzzle pieces and top hats if you wish kiwi's.
 
I'm tired of my isolation. And I'm so at odds with this society. You know why I'm such a huge autist about how people on KF recognize my avatar? Everyone in real life hates my music, the movies I like, everything else I'm into. I can cringe remembering how many times I've heard nerds argue about which Final Fantasy is the best... what a stupid thing to talk about, yet it seems that's the sort I've always fallen in with. Everyone has always hated everything I liked, even my preference in food (except my first crazy "good" ex, bless her heart). As a result I never talk about the things that are truly meaningful to me with anybody. Only abstract blocks on text on the internet in forum posts online have I ever anywhere read sympathetic opinions. I always find that strange.

I don't believe anything anyone says anymore. People describe one reality, but I step outside and talk, meet, and see people, and I see and hear an entirely different (and much more horrible) reality than apparently most of you do.

I think I'm slowly getting more comfortable with leaning on Fireball. It has a high alcohol content and doesn't give me hangovers.
 
My girlfriend just had a bipolar fit and started hitting me and then locked herself in the bathroom of the apartment, banging her head off the wall (lol). Decided against calling the cops although I’m wondering if I should’ve just done it. At my moms now cooling off she has been blowing my phone up since I left few hours ago asking why does it have to be like this but I’m ignoring. Have broken up with and gotten back together with this girl a few times. Posting here so maybe others can tell me I’m retarded for keeping her around.
 
As a result I never talk about the things that are truly meaningful to me with anybody. Only abstract blocks on text on the internet in forum posts online have I ever anywhere read sympathetic opinions. I always find that strange.
Same. To a point where I genuinely have no idea what to talk about to people. I love design, I enjoy good art, but trying to discuss that with most just falls on deaf ears. Forget talking about anything of any actual meaning. I've had more "real" convos on the farms than in actual life in the last year.

On another note, it looks like my friends from college have stopped drinking. Which, good for them, it was turning into a problem for one and probably the same for the other. But it sucks to be the only guy who doesn't mind getting a little tipsy as it were. I don't over indulge or really have the draw to; but I mourn the loss of us having some beers and a good time. Good times will still be had; but still.

So my credit is absolutely wrecked since I lost my job for a month, and wasn't paid for another 3 weeks. However, I should be getting the lease to the apartment tomorrow. It's weird getting some of the comments a low credit, no or shit job person would have because you lost your job for a bit. All those years wrecked in a matter of weeks. I'll fix it, but still a bummer.

My girlfriend just had a bipolar fit and started hitting me and then locked herself in the bathroom of the apartment, banging her head off the wall (lol). Decided against calling the cops although I’m wondering if I should’ve just done it. At my moms now cooling off she has been blowing my phone up since I left few hours ago asking why does it have to be like this but I’m ignoring. Have broken up with and gotten back together with this girl a few times. Posting here so maybe others can tell me I’m retarded for keeping her around.
You're retarded. Listen, I'll go through literal hell for a girl I love. But I've always had one condition: They need to work on themselves and improve. If your girl isn't doing that; and she pulls shit like you described, gtfo.

Frankly, even if she is you should probably gtfo but I'm a sucker for a damaged girl.

You should, probably, call someone, I'm always iffy on the cops since you can get btfo doing that. Maybe once removed from the scene but I'll let others speak to that.
 
I am losing my shit. The more I talk to this man the more we have in common in the most obscure ways. No way he could have googled it or made it up, the man fucking lived it like I did and has the deets. It is so WTF. I am probably like one of 10 people in the US that ever gave a shit about this gay shit we are talking about. How in the fuck did we not meet earlier?

Lord have mercy, Lord have mercy, Lord have mercy.

To paraphrase key quotes I've encountered -

"If God is Love, then you can call me Cupid"

""God loves, Man kills"

"Remember, if balls don't touch-"

But seriously though, No matter which big brother higher power you believe in, take the chance.


On topic, I passed my driving theory and basic run tests today. Came back home and cleaned the house between the two-day span of the week I am wont to do to relieve stress and maintain cleanliness here since I'm the only one who was trained (and willing) to do all this. Tomorrow is big rig theory and a dry run along the wharf areas. Hardhat time.

Need to find a Purple Autobot Decal to emblazon on my safety helmet.
 
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Same. To a point where I genuinely have no idea what to talk about to people. I love design, I enjoy good art, but trying to discuss that with most just falls on deaf ears. Forget talking about anything of any actual meaning. I've had more "real" convos on the farms than in actual life in the last year.
Seriously, all people know these days is surface-level pop culture stuff. People always try to shame you for complaining by claiming it was always this way, but you read old books and things--it wasn't. People don't even engage in the classics these days. There's no context to anything and it's all a hell of cenobite bureaucrats confusing and tormenting us. Nobody is literate, nobody knows real history, nobody knows anything, but they have strong opinions on everything.

I used to enjoy literature more, but the people who enjoy literature put such a distaste in my mouth that I kind of stopped reading like I used to. I feel like I"ve become a shell of who I am or who I wanted to be in so many ways. If you want to write a book and be published,you have to be some woman or write nigger religion shit like The Hate U Give. I love music but the music scenes near where I live is jam-packed full of fucking communist punks. Imagine if you were a young kid into rock and wanted to start or join a band--how could you? Everyone just wants to make soundcloud pregenerated sampled nigger rap shit.
On another note, it looks like my friends from college have stopped drinking. Which, good for them, it was turning into a problem for one and probably the same for the other. But it sucks to be the only guy who doesn't mind getting a little tipsy as it were. I don't over indulge or really have the draw to; but I mourn the loss of us having some beers and a good time. Good times will still be had; but still.
Excuse me for talking out of my ass because I'm not a Christian, but Jesus turned his blood into wine for a reason. Alcohol is redemption and salvation, it may be neurotoxic and horrible for you but it acts fast and makes you feel better. Nobody should ever reject the gift of alcohol; I'm a little bit drunk right now, excuse me.
You're retarded. Listen, I'll go through literal hell for a girl I love. But I've always had one condition: They need to work on themselves and improve. If your girl isn't doing that; and she pulls shit like you described, gtfo.

Frankly, even if she is you should probably gtfo but I'm a sucker for a damaged girl.

You should, probably, call someone, I'm always iffy on the cops since you can get btfo doing that. Maybe once removed from the scene but I'll let others speak to that.
You and I probably have very different interests but it seems like we've had somewhat similar experiences in relationships.
 
Well the new job I was really enjoying has lost its luster. My manager told me she doesn't think I'm performing at the level of my title. Now, I know I'm doing a bang-up job, so hearing this really pisses me off. I can't do anything about it because obviously she can get me fired if I piss her off, and I haven't even been at this job 6 months yet. I'd like to at least have a year behind me before I start job hunting again. I miss my previous manager, he's a cool dude.

God I wish I could start a business and stop answering to moron bosses, but I'm too socially retarded to figure out all the networking and shit to actually get customers.
 
I used to enjoy literature more, but the people who enjoy literature put such a distaste in my mouth that I kind of stopped reading like I used to. I feel like I"ve become a shell of who I am or who I wanted to be in so many ways.
I need to get back into reading. Or at the very least, listening to books. I'm very much with you in the feeling like a shell of your former self or who you wanted to be. My buddy is so enthusiastic about the latest science "discovery" or ideas; and all I can do is think "meh". Maybe it's just over-all depression / dissatisfaction with the world and its state. It doesn't feel like things are progressing; only devolving.

KF book-club when? Probably a thing already; but I miss groups of guys being interested in a topic and helping each other improve by fostering that kind of environment. Again, it's back to the problem that everything is so surface level.
Excuse me for talking out of my ass because I'm not a Christian, but Jesus turned his blood into wine for a reason. Alcohol is redemption and salvation, it may be neurotoxic and horrible for you but it acts fast and makes you feel better. Nobody should ever reject the gift of alcohol; I'm a little bit drunk right now, excuse me.
Am Christian, probably not a great one but I try. I'm more or less in agreement. "God gave us alcohol as an apology." But like most things, over-use or consumption is bad.
You and I probably have very different interests
Probably, I just like the classics; I'm a simple man when it comes to that.
it seems like we've had somewhat similar experiences in relationships.
Unfortunately, for us both.

My manager told me she doesn't think I'm performing at the level of my title. Now, I know I'm doing a bang-up job, so hearing this really pisses me off.

Has she given you performance goals and a plan to meet them?
God I wish I could start a business and stop answering to moron bosses, but I'm too socially retarded to figure out all the networking and shit to actually get customers.
Depending on what you're doing, it might not be too bad. Half of it is just lacking etiquette and being annoying it seems. People eat it up; I hate it.
 
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