Man i do love it when we kiwis can dig deep and get in touch with our feelings and pour them out and be supportive. Probably sounds sappy and gay but I do appreciate it. It should be proof that it's not all nigger tranny faggots to the outside world.
It's a morning I can finally sleep in but here I am awake absurdly early, with a weird hot feeling in my head. Zero trigger, just my brain deciding I needed to be uncomfortable.
God, you too, huh? As a fellow anxiety mess, I relate to this horribly. Would go to bed at 11 at night and wake up at three, unable to sleep any longer.
On the flip side, it conditioned my body to wake up in time for whatever plans I have for the day, completely eliminating the need for an alarm.
But I wish I had a "Real Mom" that I could talk to like he does. It makes me SO jealous
God I feel this too. And I always felt guilty over it because I'd think "She's not MY mom. I'm just an interloper."
I would almost add father's into the mix but I don't know who my birth father is, step father was a piece of shit and foster dad was incredibly emotionally distant when he wouldn't randomly degrade and insult me for existing outside his gene pool.
I unfortunately think it gave me Daddy Issues
but a weird form of it where I actually fear men in general.
People really don't understand great parenting compared to lack of parenting/bad parenting is the difference between your life feeling like a Disney movie to a David Lynch film. If I could choose 50 million dollars in cash and a decent relationship with my parents, I would pick the latter no questions asked.
Same. It does wonders for the mind and sense of belonging if you have a loving family by your side.
Maybe an unpopular opinion but a lot of people take that for granted, I feel.
Completely random but I remember crying over a Pokémon movie as a little kid and my birth mother asked me what I was crying about and I didn't know how to explain it so I just said something in the lines of "Loving family" and she beat the future mathematician out of me.
Damnit man, what's with all of these posts in the last week being family that hits close to home with me?
Nah I totally understand that. I think regardless of how old we become, there's still a little kid inside who could really do well with some love and support but can't get it and it's a bittersweet solace to know that there is others like that.
Actually I want you to tell yourself that every time whenever you feel down. Playing shrink for a moment, write it down and hang it on a wall.
Anyway uh it's very early since I had to go somewhere and the bus driver gave me the elevator look and asked me if I knew where I was going or ask me where I need to go. A majority of the drivers on this route actually do this and it's kinda getting under my skin.
I am aware that it's an educational bus that provides long distance transportation to students but is not bared from other uses. Hence why I ride it. However it would not be like this if they didn't close all the relevant routes in my region.
It's too early to start interrogating me. At least have some faith in me instead of looking at me like I'm some sped escaping the institution.
Or maybe it's just Monday grump mixed with anxiety again with a side order of tax bullshit.
