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[Pomniman]

When does it fucking end?

Really not helping that I spent nearly a year being too perpetually ill to work just to learn it was severe adult-onset asthma the entire time. I could've been making money.

Happiness isn't about not having problems so much as learning to give less of a shit about them after you've done however much you can to address them. I've met all sorts of people in various stations in life and there are gimpy crippled motherfuckers who'll spend their entire lives in abject filth and poverty no matter what they do who still manage to be more joyful in their day to day lives than neurotic or depressive or psychotic, but able-bodied 30+ year olds who have careers, money, spouses, kids, houses, etc. — everything you'd associate with a good life. Misery too, comes from within and it's important to enjoy whatever you do have in the present moment as much as you can while you have it rather than dwelling on all the things that aren't going the way you want them to because any of us can lose everything or drop dead at any given moment for any number of reasons outside of our control.

 

[Dustlord]

I hate feeling like I'm just killing time.

 

[The Feline Solution]

Nothing works in the bureaucratic system of this country anymore, at least not how it's supposed to and how it did in the past. Just called these cunts up to get an appointment to renew my passport, because of course their homepage is worth shit and throws up "We are sorry, there are no free appointments!" for five fucking years by now. Now i get sent halfway through the city, in the early morning, tomorrow to the city hall of and in a completely different district because God forbid the taxpayer-funded people working in these bureaucratic positions ever get their shit together again.
For comparison, the city hall of my district is 10 minutes by foot away and i used to do all my shit there but ever since COVID it's "Our poor workers can't handle the caseloads anymore", nigger it's not COVID, it's importing half of the 3rd World and making the german passport ridiculously easy to attain, clogging up the system.

 

[Yamamura]

I don't feel like my performance at work today was very good, but I'm not trying to dwell on that too much. I have a lot on my mind right now that's causing me distress but I figure if I can just make it through this day at least I have that.

Even if I limp to the finish line today at least I can tell myself I made it.

 

[Sergeant Major Buzzkill]

Trying to not sweat the small stuff.

 

[DenseDeerFather]

Spoiler: Responding because I wanted to feel included

someone recommended me the Super Mario Bros. movie that came out recently, they told me it was my kind of thing and I'd like it.

Someone recommended me the Little Mermaid remake, claiming that it was superior to the original and I'd totally love it since. It kinda made me wince for a second because it reminds me of the Lion king remake with everyone talking about the "updated animation" which is so retarded.

Animation is animation. Just because it's now CGI, doesn't make it "updated". It's just that big studios in the west randomly decided that 2D isn't worth it anymore.

And no, I did not love remake. I shut it off when Scuttle sang.

Normies in real life will tell me I listen to "weird" music or even "Halloween" music when it's just fucking Sisters of Mercy (thanks again @Syaoran Li!) because they ALL listen to the same superficial pop or autotuned stuff with no diversity to the sound.

Yeah I've had this too. I don't listen to any specific band as much as I listen to songs that I like. People kinda deride me because I listen more to the soundtrack of Sonic games and Streets of Rage than whatever is hot right now. I don't really like what's hot right now and I wish I didn't get flack for it.

I hate remembering the times I've argued with people about autotune. "BUT IT SOUNDS SO COOL!"

Playing Devil's advocate here....autotune itself is not a bad thing. It's kinda like religion. It is what people make it to be.

You got bad shit like debut Kesha, Future and
James Charles.

You got good shit like Daft Punk and she. But also I am biased because I love Daft Punk. And there's really subtle uses like Pentatonix (rumored)

Someone once described my workout playlist as "This sounds like cult shit".

Take it as a compliment.

Lol it reminds me of the time someone called my playlist "a bunch of unhinged noise" or "ching chong" because I also listen to j-pop.

Yeah, I mean, Bloody Beetroots isn't fucking Frank Sinatra, I know. It's loud but doesn't matter, I still like their stuff.

That same person got passive-aggressive at me when I revealed that I also liked a good chunk of songs before the 80s as if you can only enjoy things that came out after you were born.

I think music may be the one thing all human beings enjoy. There is so much music out there I can’t stand to listen to, but when I see it making other people happy, I can appreciate it being there. I can’t stand Taylor Swift or modern rap, but y’know, if it genuinely makes someone happy, then I’m glad it’s there for them. Everyone deserves to have that.

I agree!

It's weird that people still kinda get into little spats regarding something as deeply individual as personal taste.

I know I’m going to sound like a total stereotypical fag (don’t care) but just found out someone uploaded the entirety of Passions (supernatural soap opera from the 90s I used to watch as a teen) on YouTube.

Yay! Got a big download planned for today!

You reminded me of a convo I had today about anime and I just got hit with a huge nostalgia bomb that has compelled me to set some sparre time off to watch the Silver Fang series. I watched it as a child with its horrid Nordic dub so I'm gonna rectify that with the original sub.

4AM an i'm sitting in the subway still, why do we live in the future and don't have access to teleporters yet,

Coming from a rural little settlement, very. They nuked all night busses but in general, the busses are always fucking late. On a good day, five minutes. On a bad day, 15+ minutes.

On second thought, it's not a little settlement thing. It's everywhere. I wish we'd update the buses too. Stop buttons don't work, navigation displays don't work, seatbelts for your bikes or whatever don't work.

They made a big stink about raising prices for tickets and travel cards but shit is actively getting neglected.

Over the past decade, I've really stopped caring about staying in-vogue with current styles and fashions that a lot of people my age and younger enjoy

Same, really. Trends and behaviors as well. I just don't find any enjoyment in it and I don't like to do it just because everyone else is. That goes from anything from video games to slangs to memes.

For example, social media usage. I hardly use it and I don't want to waste my entire day scrolling through Facebook or taking random pics for Snapchat Twitter or Instagram or TikTok.

And I just hate the design of Snapchat really.

Anyway for me...it's night and I should go to bed but I've been busy. Went to the therapist, got "warned" about group therapy and talked about vocalizing boundaries. Was nice.

The day got a little dour when I decided tor randomly read the news. I stay clear of them a few weeks because they do horrible shit to me mentally. And today was no different although to a somewhat lesser degree.

Spoiler: news sperging that happens when i read the news

They wanna reward purely white middle/upper-class families for having three kids or more by giving tax deductions per kid.

Well, at least it's not more tax reliefs to the upper-class.

They wanna make it mandatory for teenagers to do community service, like working at retirement homes and educational institutions etc. I got an issue with this one because there's yet another nurse staff strike due to horrible working conditions and terrible pay. Schools have slash budgets, mental wards have to slash budgets, and eldercare is fucking pandemonium.

But let's make Gen Alpha pick up the slack.

Conscription will now be mandatory for women. It's been pretty lownote up until now but they wanna turn up the "involuntary" in involuntary service and make it almost a year Plus 40 billion to our military. I got issue with this one too because of the aforementioned societal issues.

Also, I don't dig the idea of forcing people into the military.

One party wants people seeking citizenship to acknowledge and probably wear loyalty to Issrael as a state. I have no input on the conflict so I'm just gonna refrain from unpacking that one though the reasoning is fucking funny.

"Upstanding citizens say 'from the river to the sea', as Palestine supporters and we can't have that here!"

Sure, cool.

But otherwise, I am feeling somewhat better. There are also three weeks to my birthday and I feel fucking old.

 

[Betonhaus]

Whelp, tomorrow evening we get a practice session on real customers after one whole week of training. I wish them good luck

 

[Nick Obre]

Had a seriously scary situation today.

It resolved favorably, but jeez that was a tense few hours.

 

[Plantation Barbie]

Just got hit by a sudden stomach bug. After having to leave work and lying in bed all evening I suddenly feel somewhat normal.

 

[Betonhaus]

Just got hit by a sudden stomach bug. After having to leave work and lying in bed all evening I suddenly feel somewhat normal.

Not enough veggies?

 

[Plantation Barbie]

Not enough veggies?

Perhaps. My boss said that the morning cashier was complaining of stomach pains. So something might be going around.

 

[Second Sun]

I feel better for having given up on the dating apps. I might try again when I'm sufficiently bored, but for now I'd rather be alone than unstable.

 

[Anne Hathaway Fan]

I am going to start cooking my boneless skinless chicken thighs in my Crock-Pot in about an hour, then I'm going to eat those. Around 5 a girl I met in the mental hospital is coming over and I'm going to fuck her and then I think we're going to the movies after that.

 

[WelperHelper99]

Frustrated. Built my buddies PC yesterday. Wouldn't boot up. Had to take it to a shop I know because nothing I did was working. Took 4-5 hours with his help. I'm tired bros.

 

[bile demon]

They wanna reward purely white middle/upper-class families for having three kids or more by giving tax deductions per kid.

Based Israel learning from the pros.

Spoiler

In 1933, the German government introduced the marriage loan for newlyweds, a policy aimed at increasing marriages and births as well as male employment, which entailed a work ban for the wife and sizeable credit deductions for children.

 

[Dustlord]

Finally got around to making a springtime Mishima avatar.

 

[pot of sneed]

God awful. Been shitting like crazy since yesterday and today it got worse with puking. Thankfully I didn't really have anything in my stomach due to being off my food and only brought up the tea I drank before. Afternoon now but I did manage a ginger biscuit without feeling nauseous so maybe I'm over the worst of it now.

 

[pork and beans]

the weather is finally starting to get nice... first day i left my coat at home. feels good
but im slightly bummed because this week i have a heavy workload

I feel better for having given up on the dating apps

oddly enough i started for the first time ever yesterday and its not going bad. but now is probably too soon to tell. definitely agree that being alone is better than with the wrong company

 

[Dustlord]

the weather is finally starting to get nice... first day i left my coat at home. feels good
but im slightly bummed because this week i have a heavy workload

oddly enough i started for the first time ever yesterday and its not going bad. but now is probably too soon to tell. definitely agree that being alone is better than with the wrong company

In my experience, dating apps are great for finding hookups, but I've never found anyone looking for something serious. Personally, leaving hookup culture behind in general made me happier and feel like relationships don't have to be so shallow.

 

[pork and beans]

In my experience, dating apps are great for finding hookups, but I've never found anyone looking for something serious. Personally, leaving hookup culture behind in general made me happier and feel like relationships don't have to be so shallow.

thats both sad and good to know; I don't want to be involved in hook up culture either; not really my thing. Not looking for marriage level serious obviously but like genuine hang outs i guess. I agree that hook up culture generally does more harm than good.

I knew how dating apps worked but using them first hand is so odd, the swiping mechanic on all the profiles literally feels like looking for clothes on vinted. No wonder people get messed up. Literal marketplace.