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I'm trying to make a new business venture (my third this year) off the ground.

Also my country president is a fucking retard who fucked his dogs to death. So yeah, trying.
 
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So we just found our I'm pregnant with our first kid. 7 weeks right now but gotta wait till week 9 for the first Obgyn appointment

Any Kiwis who have good advice for surviving 1st trimester? I've managed to avoid the morning sickness bar a few days in Week 5 so far
I really liked this book 30 yrs ago however luckily it's all new and updated for current year. I especially liked the drawings of what a fetus looks like every week. It's some light reading plus daydream inspo edit sorry left out link https://www.amazon.com/What-Expect-When-Youre-Expecting/dp/0761187480 (sorry guys I'll learn HTMP I promise)


Eat what, when and where you like. With Number 2 if I didn't eat every 4 hours I had a meltdown. Tune out all the gruesome labor and delivery gossip.

Enjoy your sleeping while it's good!
 
Allergies bothered the hell out of me all last night and today before managing to get some meds at the store today. Screw this itchy nose garbage and mouth breathing like a dying fish.
 
Was in the hospital yesterday, as my sickness wasn't going away. Found out I had Laryngitis (can barely speak) and had Pneumonia in the Lungs. I'm on an anti-biotic, If the anti-biotic doesn't work then there is a small chance I could die. These past few days has been hell. Been coughing a lot, even when I'm trying to sleep. Can't enjoy most foods except for some soft fruits (Bananas, applesauce, smoothies), and it feels like there is an endless supply of mucus in my body. It may not been the worse I've ever been sick but it's been the most painful.
 
My vow to never drink again after nearly dying from it last weekend (i am convinced it was alcohol poisoning after talking to a friend who had a similar thing happen to him. Y'know, instead of talking to a physician like a responsible person would do :story:) lasted exactly one (1) week, gonna go shopping and after that i'm gonna spend the rest of the day laying in bed, drinking beers and rewatching japanese movies. Already rewatched "Love Exposure" and "Hard Romanticker" this week and had a blast. Think i'll watch "Kabukicho Love Hotel" next and then some animu shit for a change.
Planning to cook something nice tonight, too, hope the shop still has pork shoulder on sale. One of the few perks of living in a low-income, high-muslim area is that pork is always avaible and often marked down to affordable prices. Girlfriend is busy with YT stuff sitting on her laptop in the kitchen so i pretty much have the day to myself. I don't want to jinx it but i think today will be a good day.

Edit: Of course i jinxed it, the slabs of pork butt on sale were already gone and the normal-priced ones are too expensive. I wanted to cook this today, it's a great recipe (like pretty much anything from that channel) and i haven't had it in quite some time:
Gonna make burritos instead.
 
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Was in the hospital yesterday, as my sickness wasn't going away. Found out I had Laryngitis (can barely speak) and had Pneumonia in the Lungs. I'm on an anti-biotic, If the anti-biotic doesn't work then there is a small chance I could die. These past few days has been hell. Been coughing a lot, even when I'm trying to sleep. Can't enjoy most foods except for some soft fruits (Bananas, applesauce, smoothies), and it feels like there is an endless supply of mucus in my body. It may not been the worse I've ever been sick but it's been the most painful.
The worst part off all of this is I can't laugh at kiwifarms humor without ending it in painful coughs.
 
Planning to cook something nice tonight, too, hope the shop still has pork shoulder on sale. One of the few perks of living in a low-income, high-muslim area is that pork is always avaible and often marked down to affordable prices.
Tbh I like that but also the presence of halal butchers. While I generally check into their reputation first, good halal meat has a uniformity of quality that I like (much as with kosher). Also always having lamb available is good too. Lamb chops, lamb burgers, lamb mince, lamb shanks, or even a good old-fashioned leg of lamb made Western style with mint jelly.
 
Tbh I like that but also the presence of halal butchers. While I generally check into their reputation first, good halal meat has a uniformity of quality that I like (much as with kosher). Also always having lamb available is good too. Lamb chops, lamb burgers, lamb mince, lamb shanks, or even a good old-fashioned leg of lamb made Western style with mint jelly.
The halal butchers in my area are very good and often have the same or better prices than Lidl for meat of better quality but i don't shop at them too often because Lidl is a two-minute walk from my house and the turkish/arab shops are farther away. Not by much, but i'm a lazy bastard. I got a small green grocer/halal butcher right on the corner of my street but i don't shop there at all, i don't want to be salaam'd every single time i pass it. Had that happen before when i was living in a different area, it gets real old real fast.

Edit: To be honest, i also don't shop too often at the muslim stores because i often simply don't want to interact with muslims.
 
Honestly just cant Wait to Go back to the Philippines. At least I could vote for Trump?
 
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We moved into new teams and I'm in a new area of the business. Already trying to streamline our routines and papers, but I've also applied for two other positions that'll have me leave the team, so I'm here planning all of our xmas/new year covers, knowing I'm likely to dip. I've got favorable shifts for xmas, which may not be the case in the new position. Obviously not gonna turn down a role shift for one xmas but yknow.

Mentally, wack. I was hoping changing role would keep me from looking for new jobs for a while, but at the same time I wanna start looking in january.. but I'm comfortable? I need a real good gig to move, but I also hate knowing I'm "wasting" my time here, not being in a somewhat relevant job for my education. There's a huge flow of people in and out of my workplace, so to see all these.. immature, braindead (women, honestly. It's the health sector) people get jobs because of their past work and not their actual competences or room for growth is insulting.

I'd honestly pull the sexism card and say "they wouldn't hire a sub 40 year old male".
 
I don't really know where else to post this, but I feel the need to write it out. I feel absolutely ecstatic and as if nothing could ruin my day.
I'm getting a new prosthetic!
I lost my left leg from a little below the knee. After years of my old one creaking like a dying goat and forcing me to do a weird holding-it-in limp. I feel relieved because, even disregarding how beautiful this new one is, at least I don't have to deal with that old thing anymore. I feel like my whole week has been significantly improved and nothing could go wrong from here...
 
I've half a mind to blogpost on KF, but this is a rational community, so I will.

The thing that I swore I would never allow to have happen to me has happened. I swore never to get into a relationship because chances are it would end in heartbreak, yet I was foolish enough to enter a relationship. I never understood why society values romance and relationships so highly, but now I do. I cannot emphasize how special this woman was to me: she was kind, caring, gentle, and loving. She understood me for who I am, and I loved her. Before this, I never knew how you could love someone other than one of your immediate family members, and I never knew how you could fall in love with a brand new person and see someone you've never known before as a guiding light in your life. She was a woman who could have been a wife to me, and I could have been a husband to her. Sadly, none of that will happen, and now I feel like I have been condemned to a lower sphere of existence. This is like having to experience teen angst as an adult! I have no ill will towards her, and I wish her well, but it's still sad.
Editerino: We're back together =D ^-^
 
Found out that I get an additional week of PTO next year! Had no idea, duh. I also still have 12 days left for this year, hot damn.

I also just finally officially finished transitioning someone in to take over 1/3 of my areas of responsibility (and it will be their entire job, if that tells you anything about how my work life has been this entire year). I think I even got more than 5 hours' sleep almost every night this week, for the first time in 2 years.
 
I just swapped over to night shift (lol) which isn't particularly bad because nothing ever happens and I can work on my certifications and ultimately my degree, but damn do I need an iron infusion, I get tired way too fast (12 hours into my day) to the point where I sleep on the job. There literally is 10 people in the building at night (5000 people work there in the day) so its not like anyone will walk in without me hearing but I'm a bit spooked my boss will walk in at 2 am for some reason and just blow my fucking head off on the spot. I got my VA rating set to 100% P&T and in it they said my anemia was confirmed so I'm sure once I get to my doctors appointment in the next couple weeks I can get an iron prescription/maybe an infusion.

I managed to control my bulk and not eat 3800 fucking calories in a day but it is insane how much fat there is in everything; my diet gives me a severe carbohydrate shortage so far. My macros for today are:
3278 calories (had to add more due to exercise)
275/405g of carbs
159/108g of fat
185/162g of protein
I hope I'm doing this right; the goal is to go from 190 to 220lbs of fat fuck with muscle for the next 8 months then holocaust my way down to low bodyfat for the remaining 4 months, then repeat and I should look a lot better.

I wanted to go play airsoft for the first time yesterday but when I went to the military clothing store I found out they don't sell uniforms to anyone but military which is a pain in the ass, so now I have to get around to buying a set online because my pants are way too small now, and I need to get a couple canteens as well just in case they don't do water breaks or anything.
 
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I hope I'm doing this right; the goal is to go from 190 to 220lbs of fat fuck with muscle for the next 8 months then holocaust my way down to low bodyfat for the remaining 4 months, then repeat and I should look a lot better.
You need to talk to some sort of medical provider and get regular labs if you're going to be pulling this sort of bullshit my guy LOL. Just tell them your goals and they'll be able to say what's recommended for you.

None of the numbers you're giving are outlandish, but your idea of bulking really sets off the alarms for mental illness. Training is good, obviously, and cutting and bulking is part of it that most guys learn at some point, but eating disorders also typically involve a cycle between binging and over-restriction. If you're BADLY ANEMIC as a MALE while in a BULK you're doing something awfully wrong.

Hitting the numbers on the scale is mostly just a numbers game, calories in, calories out. So you absolutely can do that on microwaved burritos and carry-out Chinese for every meal. But your body is much more than your actual weight. You are at so much of a higher risk of health problems if you're bulking on nonstop fatty crap and alcohol. And I have to imagine your idea of cutting involves shitty nutrition too, from you calling it "holocausting yourself."


You should invest some talent points into your cooking skill, to say it as gay as possible. I think if you increase your nutrition, it'll make everything easier for you. If you're too lazy or retarded to figure out how to make chicken salad, you should really just find some brand of protein supplement drink like fucking Walmart's generic Ensure, and drink two of those a day. If you're tracking your food already for macros using an app, start paying attention to your micronutrients too.

I said it before and I'll say it again, if you're in a bulk and not hitting your macro goals and going OVER your cal goals because of alcohol, and if you're anemic, etc.... are you bulking or are you just binging with plans to restrict later?

If your goal is to "look better", consider all the unpleasant effects of poor nutrition- low energy, your hair will fall out, your skin will look like shit, your muscle gains will be stunted, you'll bruise more easily, your mental health will likely suffer: it's very unmanly to be malnourished due to your own actions. I'm not even saying you need to slow your bulk or anything. I'm just saying stop eating ice cream and microwaved Chinese food and liquor all day.
If this is so hard for you because you feel compelled to only eat fatty fast food and other junk, well dude that makes it very clear that there's a giant mental component. Eating a ton of junk food is basically a way to chemically sedate yourself. And intense eating restriction does similar things.

Go find your most high-functioning, non-retarded buddy and ask his opinion of your plans. And definitely tell your doctor. Get your A1C checked.

My lung meds give me insomnia big time, but I can't really take anything that makes you sleepy because it will also affect my breathing badly. I don't really mind because I just do housechores and catch up in my favorite internet circles until I finally can go to bed. It reminds me of the simpler times in life.
 
Had to work during the weekend again. I thought, I was prepared, but by God that was unexpectedly exhausting. And I can't even say that the work was harder than usual. Maybe it's seasonal, I don't know. I just hope that the next 5 days won't be too hard and I will finally have some rest.
Take care.
 
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