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Sleeping didn't help my feelings about shit, it's gotten worse. All I'm going to say.
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All my cats have been semi-feral and aggressive and claw out of nowhere. My distinction between utter ferals and cats to bring into the home is none of them attack my face. They may ruthlessly claw at arms or legs, but they know there are rules. Hence the "semi" feral category of cats.
Get a room you two homos.
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forever always as meh as meh could ever be.
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Well on the back of the news of gf's Mum passing it looks like she's inheriting half the family home. We're going to move in, do it up and get a mortgage. Her sibling has said we can move in straight away.
We've spent a few nights and it feels weird that gf's Mum is not there anymore.
It's actually been affecting me more than expected. The gf comforted me in the night because I was wailing in my sleep - I had a nightmare it was time for her to pass and I was given the responsibility of giving her the medication to make her unconscious. :/
We've spent a few nights and it feels weird that gf's Mum is not there anymore.
It's actually been affecting me more than expected. The gf comforted me in the night because I was wailing in my sleep - I had a nightmare it was time for her to pass and I was given the responsibility of giving her the medication to make her unconscious. :/
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I hope you got the Old Man Siamese! This little bastard is 15 and I love him to pieces even though he howls all day and night.
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I'm watching the BBC Pride and Prejudice miniseries, and I want to pound beer, but I don't want to in the future have pounded beer
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You know, Pretty damn good for this time of year, winter sucks but It’s not bad this time around, spent the weekend showing my daughter the beetlejuice cartoon And some old Arthur tapes. Next weekend I’ll try to do some painting make something useful out of my days off.
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My sister suddenly passed away on Friday. I didn't find out until Saturday.
I don't know how I'm going to live without her.
I don't know how I'm going to live without her.
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I'm sorry you lost your Sister. You must have a hole in your heart the size of a crater.
* Big fucking hugs *
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Not great.
My condolences. It's so painful to lose close family, I certainly know... I just lost a close family member last night. I'm feeling the same way.
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My condolences and a post-virtuous mission Big Boss salute to you.
On topic, I just got back from a very very long (play)date which ended with a movie and dinner. I'm pretty sure I mismatched the sequence of these things in how they're supposed to be in order
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No unfortunately not. He was snapped up in a hurry and I just couldn't get there. My consolation is my current kitties, an elder Siamese girl who has heart issues and a young adult oriental shorthair boy who is attached like he is glued to my husband. Next cat is undoubtably similar, although ragdolls look appealing too. I'm not sure if I can handle upkeep on a longhair cat after having only shorthairs ever.
Puppykat in his first snow. Thanks he hated it
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Getting a bit scared that i'm losing my grip on reality. Maybe this is too powerlevelly but I've mentioned it before so fuck it.
I started having dreams of literally just living out normal days a week or two back. This started maybe a year or so after I lost all grasp on time ironically, just after entering an environment where grasping time was more necessary for me than ever. I have had dreams like this constantly since they started. I'll wake up after having lived an entire mundane day in my sleep and be yawning for hours afterwards for no discernible reason. My eyelids are constantly heavy and sensitive to the point where driving on a normal sunny day with dark sunglasses on still makes them itch or water.
I'm going to several doctors for it soon because this is starting to become dangerous. I can't shake the feeling that I'm at an incredibly pivotal moment in my life and I refuse to lose it to whatever the fuck this is. Chronic fatigue, some hormonal issue, I don't know, I don't care. I don't want to take pills but if it means I get to return to the real world I'll fucking do it. This is terrifying me on a level that few other things in my life have before and all I need is a cause so that I can get to work fixing it.
I started having dreams of literally just living out normal days a week or two back. This started maybe a year or so after I lost all grasp on time ironically, just after entering an environment where grasping time was more necessary for me than ever. I have had dreams like this constantly since they started. I'll wake up after having lived an entire mundane day in my sleep and be yawning for hours afterwards for no discernible reason. My eyelids are constantly heavy and sensitive to the point where driving on a normal sunny day with dark sunglasses on still makes them itch or water.
I'm going to several doctors for it soon because this is starting to become dangerous. I can't shake the feeling that I'm at an incredibly pivotal moment in my life and I refuse to lose it to whatever the fuck this is. Chronic fatigue, some hormonal issue, I don't know, I don't care. I don't want to take pills but if it means I get to return to the real world I'll fucking do it. This is terrifying me on a level that few other things in my life have before and all I need is a cause so that I can get to work fixing it.
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I've messed up big time as a nephew to my aunt and now its too late to say goodbye. Why did I take life for granted.
Catman from cat town
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Everything seems great at my job, but I’m noticing it’s not challenging anymore and I’ve become the coworker who yearns for hard work. With my ADHD I need to be doing something or I get easily distracted, with having nothing to do besides sweep and deep clean, I’m going insane.
I’ve decided to start looking for a job in my dad’s area because it’s good for me career wise and my dad cooks great food.
I’ve decided to start looking for a job in my dad’s area because it’s good for me career wise and my dad cooks great food.
#FreeRoss
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I was feeling great today thinking I'm going to improve by losing weight, and then I remembered there are tons of kids who got to play sports in school who are ripped and in college thriving right now. I thought I was doing good losing a couple of pounds, but sometimes I just feel like a waste of a life. It hurts thinking about how the things I'm proud of achieving have already been done by other people way before I did it. It's also such an awful feeling knowing that I was handicapped by my mother's awful parenting style and my dad's refusal to stand up to her.
I was honestly thinking about cutting again. Thoughts about self-harm keep coming to mind. It hurts so much seeing other kids who got to live my dreams while I am slowly fading away like a worthless speck of dust. Most kids will finish school in 2 years from now, get a comfy job away from their parents, and have lived their dreams, while I am lucky if I can even be alone for 1 hour, and I most likely won't be able to move away anytime soon. Something I think is great, like losing weight, has already been done by other people better than me. I just feel like such a loser that's behind everyone else in life.
I feel like I'm never good enough. My parents always say they are proud of me when I do basic stuff, but I'm incredibly insecure about my lack of achievement. It's funny because I only won a couple of baking competitions with our homeschool friends, and yet my mom now says she regrets partaking in that too. It's like she wanted me to be a complete, miserable hermit with no achievements. If there was some way I could make a statement like suicide without actually dying, I would want to do that. The closest thing to that is cutting, so it's been on my mind. even though I have fantasies about freedom. and how I'm going to overcome my issues. The reality is more than likely I will one day wake up 30 years old, having never been to in-person college; I will still be fat and miserable and have nothing left to my name, no accomplishments, no achievements, just what could have been and regrets about my life.
I was honestly thinking about cutting again. Thoughts about self-harm keep coming to mind. It hurts so much seeing other kids who got to live my dreams while I am slowly fading away like a worthless speck of dust. Most kids will finish school in 2 years from now, get a comfy job away from their parents, and have lived their dreams, while I am lucky if I can even be alone for 1 hour, and I most likely won't be able to move away anytime soon. Something I think is great, like losing weight, has already been done by other people better than me. I just feel like such a loser that's behind everyone else in life.
I feel like I'm never good enough. My parents always say they are proud of me when I do basic stuff, but I'm incredibly insecure about my lack of achievement. It's funny because I only won a couple of baking competitions with our homeschool friends, and yet my mom now says she regrets partaking in that too. It's like she wanted me to be a complete, miserable hermit with no achievements. If there was some way I could make a statement like suicide without actually dying, I would want to do that. The closest thing to that is cutting, so it's been on my mind. even though I have fantasies about freedom. and how I'm going to overcome my issues. The reality is more than likely I will one day wake up 30 years old, having never been to in-person college; I will still be fat and miserable and have nothing left to my name, no accomplishments, no achievements, just what could have been and regrets about my life.
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Really good lately. I've help my family move forward on a lot of things and took care of lots of personal shit. I've also gotten caught up on my sleeping after a long busy month.
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I feel like I've been repeatedly punched in the face. On the plus side I get to justify eating ice cream. Dental work is great "keep your teeth clean and don't eat sugary foods". "Oh, yea, we just drilled some holes in your jaw and stuck a screw in it, ice cream is fine."
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Here's the thing: some of us didn't have supportive parents that helped us find passions or at least discipline as kids. The good news is, your life isn't wasted because other kids got what you didn't. The big thing is to keep going. That's all. Keep going.
I got a black belt in taekwondo in my late 30's (after about 7 years on and off and in and out of McDojangs until I found a school that would actually teach me shit). I started BJJ in my mid-40s (same story; found teachers that would teach me the mechanics, not just throw me into rolling and expect me to just pick it up).
It'g going to be okay for you. I can't make you believe that, but the best thing my teacher says is that the only person you need to be better than is the you that you were yesterday. If you do that, everything else will eventually fall into place.