Since moving and settling in, I really need to learn to get out of the apartment, and get social hobbies and/or find where people go to interact on weekends. And, lord help me for admitting this on the Farms, find someone to date and maybe form a relationship with since I'm half a year from when middle age traditionally starts and I'd like to settle down with a good lady before it's too late (hurr hurr already is right everyone?). I haven't ever used dating apps nor will, though. I am also in the cursed position of my energy drained from work and exercise (which I enjoy as a core aspect of my life) to really have motivation to go out than just catch up on rest, alongside having to actually figure out, erm, social hobbies to try out and thus deal with people socially. I've always been in the weird-ish position of being a social retard not from anxiety (if I need to talk to anyone for any reason? Cool, I'll hunt them down) but isolation: almost entirely from living in the boonies the vast majority of my life and thus very, very used to being on my own and without "a reason" just don't interact with anyone.
Otherwise in life:
-Work's going well I like to think.... I feel okay so far with it. I like the job a ton and wanna learn more, but the boss of the lab is also my trainer and is too flooded with boss-stuff to do much training so far. I decided to go back to co-workers to keep busy with them and learn their specialties for now while trying to pick up on the stuff/training I was actually hired for. I still have an innate fear of being fired for not doing enough, but I also know for once I'm doing as I should, if that makes sense?
-I like where I live too, everything's walkable and in distance to check out if I feel like moving in terms of foot and not gas. Expensive, but that's New England for ya.
-Budgeting is a pain in the ass in I really wanna put a ton into savings "in case", and thus in the weird position where obviously that's good to do but I need to also live a little, ya dig (which is related to the above initial thought, I suppose)?
-Being away from family has opened up how shitty they were for my psyche and not being my own person until finally getting away. I'll always love them and know the same to me, but my parents chose their fates to be miserable with one another and I no longer will be their peacekeeper between them.
-I miss my cat terribly and still prepping the place up to take her in, she'll miss family but glad to be with me and away from the family pets (she never liked any of them and vice-versa).
