Sorry for posting here so much, I’m doing it for accountability. I talked to my therapist and she’s gonna get me on meds, I was very hesitant at first cause of that hurdle that I’ll seem retarded but when she laid it out for me I realized she was right. I could finish school, get a job, move out. The main thing hindering me from all of these was how unstable and schizo I was, meds could fix all of that. I’m weighing it between people judging me and me actually living my life, the latter sounds more important I guess.
I’m nervous but I think I’ve got this, I’ve been medicated before and it’s how I graduated high school, it’s how I had the drive to make genuine friends, it’s how I felt the need to go outside. I don’t know if they’ll prescribe me Prozac again, but I can hope that whatever they prescribe it’ll be ok.