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[YHWH's Strongest Soldier]

Omg, that happened? Lol, I haven't checked in on shoe for like years. Wow, huh. That puts things in perspective!

She suffers from trichotillomania and I'm surprised you didn't notice her always wearing wigs. You haven't seen Shoe's real hair because there isn't any.

 

[Getmeout]

She suffers from trichotillomania and I'm surprised you didn't notice her always wearing wigs. You haven't seen Shoe's real hair because there isn't any.

I thought she just liked cosplaying, omg

 

[AnOminous]

Sorry, I think the describing of it as "voodoo" scared me. Grew up in a very Christian household and that's exactly what my mom said and why she wouldn't let me get mental help, "Therapy, pills, they're all from the devil. Jesus will heal you, why look to humans to do it?". Ig it brought me back. Idk, I should be less sensitive and have my head screwed on straighter. Not your fault.

I didn't mean "voodoo" as some sort of racist dog whistle, and I don't even have any particular hostility toward voodoo either, I just meant that psychiatry is barely medicine and is largely based on nonsense. But it worked for me, apparently worked to some extent for you (that is up to you), and if it works for you, it works for you.

 

[Cherry Milk]

I'm still missing the friend I lost. It's hard, but I know these things take time.
Otherwise I'm feeling ok and grateful.

Have a good weekend, everyone

 

[Motherf*cker]

I feel as the universe is reaching out, and going: "hey, how you doing over there Motherf*ucker?
So I've reached out to that one friend and we've been slowly catching up, which is great!
Another long-time friend I've been terrible about keeping up with, texted me and we talked for almost two hours, which I so needed because I needed to unload.
Yesterday a neighbour had put things to the curb, and I picked out a bag I liked--today I found two crisp $50 bills in the pocket of that bag.
My head is fucking boring, I feel like I should give the money back or at least put it towards bills.

 

[Burning Bridge]

But it worked for me, apparently worked to some extent for you (that is up to you), and if it works for you, it works for you.

I know this isn't healthy, but when I hear this from people I just want them to drop dead.

 

[⋖ cørdion ⋗]

We finally got the drunkard downstairs to stop blasting music, but now a new upstairs cunt is doing it instead. 2AM RnB, so it's not just drunken noise but an actual cunt thinking to himself "Music at 2am is fine, it's a holiday after all".

It really is still voodoo

I read of a cyclist with permanent spine damage and he somehow learned to think the pain away. On one hand, it seems reasonable that we invent medicine that replace organic processes in the body to FLESHSHAPE our existence. The other, we literally fall victim to placebo. Everything is made up.

The gymcel life is the life for me, I don't know why I'm doing it because I'm just a sperg with no future.

The gym meme is meant to be an easy and approachable way for losers to get used to progress, building confidence and then springboarding into other things. But they don't. Most gym-go'ers are socially active and strive to achieve things, you'd think it easier to meet such friends at the gym.

I did get utterly raped by it financially though,

It's free here, including the food, so half the slots go to people who bounce back because they can't afford their meds or because they're homeless and want the free housing and food.

 

[Hepativore]

I am actually doing rather well. It is Friday and I found a cool, online radio station that plays stoner rock/acid metal/heavy psychedelia 24/7 (Kyuss, 35007, Monster Magnet, etc.) with no ads. It is addictive as fuck!

https://onlineradiobox.com/uk/cosmicfuzzfm/?cs=uk.cosmicfuzzfm

 

[ilovecornsyrup]

I'm just going to assume (hope) that you no longer mean that "You're a stunted baby" thing anymore now that you understand I was calling out pedophiles.

Yeah, that was a misunderstanding on my part. That said I still disagree with your statement on a purely practical level.

My one experience with a psych ward was highly positive. Of course I had an absolute Cadillac health care plan at the time, so it was more like a resort than a ward.

I paid NOTHING for being in a psych ward because at the time I was a kid who overdosed etc. Admittedly the food was great, I had a safe place to sleep for a while, and the other kids in the ward were nice to me too. Everything was free.

That said I still despised it because I was unable to leave and that felt very very claustrophobic like being arrested and thrown in a jail cell I guess. The psychiatrists felt entitled to knowing your past trauma and prodding at your brain in a way that felt violating, and they were all assholes tbh.

When I returned to the system as an adult I said no to any therapy because to me it feels like mindrape. The government now gives me sedatives paid for by taxpayer money so I can live a normie life. Success? Maybe.