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- Mar 18, 2020
I’m starting my work-out plan tomorrow and I’m excited!
everything else is pretty meh
everything else is pretty meh
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- Nov 27, 2019
My day was better than I thought it was going to be, drama averted
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- Jun 4, 2019
I hope you mean you're "feeling old" emotionally, and not physically, though then again the latter can usually be addressed with improved diet, exercise, and sleep.
Here's how I know-- I felt fine until they closed the gym due to covid and I got out of the habit of working out. I'm approaching the age of "f----," so. I feel like crap. I need to make myself get back into it.
That said, at least my hairline isn't receding that I can tell. Fat and grey is fine just lord don't make me bald.
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- Sep 18, 2016
I’m an anxious mess, a temp company called me yesterday telling me I need to do some paperwork and I’ll be offered a job. No interview just straight up offered and I’m terrified of leaving my current job. The no interview bit has me worried and annoyed. I bitch and moan about my current job but now that I’m about to be offered another one to leave I freeze up and freak out. The new one is close by and pays better but I never worked full time before. I feel like such a baby. No matter what I do the anxiety just comes right back into my head I freak out again. It shouldn’t be this big of a deal and yet here I am freaking out over it. I’m scared the job will have sweatshop tier conditions and by some legal mumbo jumbo I’ll have to work there for a long ass time. It sounds so insane but I don’t know anything contracting, legal paperwork, finances, etc. so I might accidentally get myself into trouble. I hope to God this job is only temporary and I can leave as soon as it’s over. I don’t want to work with temp companies ever again after this.
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- May 13, 2019
Feeling the onset of Autumn. It always puts me in a sad mood as seasonal depression is very much a real thing for me especially post-New Year's (and that will be on top of all the bullshit this year has wrought so double yay).
Also getting worried about what I'm going to do with the pet snake I recently adopted when it comes time for him to shed. The humidity needs to be rather high during that time so it goes smoothly but nothing I've been doing has even kept it at the normal levels it's supposed to be at.
Also getting worried about what I'm going to do with the pet snake I recently adopted when it comes time for him to shed. The humidity needs to be rather high during that time so it goes smoothly but nothing I've been doing has even kept it at the normal levels it's supposed to be at.
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- Jul 7, 2020
I'm on the fence about entering consecrated religious life (srs) or continuing dating in the hopes of marriage. I've always been on the melancholic side, but VirusRegime has really made it worse; so any of the spontaneity or good humor that's necessary for making a good first impression is just... not... there.
I had a could-you-even-call-it-a-relationship (it was only two months) end right before the quarantine. Because I'm no longer emotionally immature, I got over the breakup in no time at all. I rashly stated that if this girl was not "the one" then I would seek out religious life.
In the middle of September, I spent five days in a silent Ignatian retreat. The retreatants all had their own rooms and we were kept on a schedule that was set by a real bell (the kind you need someone to ring). It gave me the impression of living as a monk. Most importantly, because of the lack of television and internet, it almost felt like there wasn't a global pandemic raging outdoors; the retreat house didn't make us social distance and nobody wore masks.
I didn't resolve to choose a state in life but after that experience, I was leaning more towards becoming a religious. The only thing holding me back was I was planning to go on a first date upon returning, with a girl who shared a lot of my same values and was a Trad Catholic to boot. Alas, she said "I didn't consider this a first date" and gave me the boot. This, after she vetted me through my parish priest before she would consent to messaging outside the dating website.
Planning anything at all seems like a fool's errand, what with the threat of VirusRegime staying for years to come or the Democrats planning a coup for anything but a landslide Creepy Joe victory.
I had a could-you-even-call-it-a-relationship (it was only two months) end right before the quarantine. Because I'm no longer emotionally immature, I got over the breakup in no time at all. I rashly stated that if this girl was not "the one" then I would seek out religious life.
In the middle of September, I spent five days in a silent Ignatian retreat. The retreatants all had their own rooms and we were kept on a schedule that was set by a real bell (the kind you need someone to ring). It gave me the impression of living as a monk. Most importantly, because of the lack of television and internet, it almost felt like there wasn't a global pandemic raging outdoors; the retreat house didn't make us social distance and nobody wore masks.
I didn't resolve to choose a state in life but after that experience, I was leaning more towards becoming a religious. The only thing holding me back was I was planning to go on a first date upon returning, with a girl who shared a lot of my same values and was a Trad Catholic to boot. Alas, she said "I didn't consider this a first date" and gave me the boot. This, after she vetted me through my parish priest before she would consent to messaging outside the dating website.
Planning anything at all seems like a fool's errand, what with the threat of VirusRegime staying for years to come or the Democrats planning a coup for anything but a landslide Creepy Joe victory.
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- Jun 23, 2015
I am feeling blue more than ever. I feel empty inside and I can't stand covid anymore. I am afraid that I have a latent mental illness and it scares me. This year have drained me.
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- Dec 26, 2019
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- Jun 4, 2019
Within a few months, I will probably leave the house I built myself and the best job I've ever had to move halfway across the state on a big roll of the dice.
It's such an odd mix of doubt, excitement, and sentimentality.
Have you tried nasal strips? They've been a game changer for me.
It's such an odd mix of doubt, excitement, and sentimentality.
Have you tried nasal strips? They've been a game changer for me.
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- Jul 9, 2020
As good as I usually am. I haven't posted a lot lately, but I've been lurking. I'm anxious about the future. Everytime I think things are getting better, they just get worse again and the old problems aren't improving (and if they are they're improving in insignificant ways). It's starting to wear me down and honestly, if things do improve I'm going to be so fucked up for the rest of my life I'm not going to be able to live normally.
Maybe I'm being melodramatic, but these last two years—not even the last four—have hit me like a tidal wave. I'm not very old. I'm relatively young compared to most people here, but I feel like my life is over. My personal life is fine. My family is fine. But there is a gnawing in my chest that just never stops. To avoid sounding like a fucking lame creep or cow, I'll stop my rant here but God do I hope things get better next year.
Maybe I'm being melodramatic, but these last two years—not even the last four—have hit me like a tidal wave. I'm not very old. I'm relatively young compared to most people here, but I feel like my life is over. My personal life is fine. My family is fine. But there is a gnawing in my chest that just never stops. To avoid sounding like a fucking lame creep or cow, I'll stop my rant here but God do I hope things get better next year.
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- Mar 17, 2020
I woke up with a coof. I don't have a fever or loss of taste, so I don't think it's chinavirus.
We'll see how this goes.
We'll see how this goes.
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- Aug 7, 2017
I feel kinda of sad, I don't know why. Maybe it's because days get shorter or air gets colder or because it's just the way I am. Everything seems to be fine, I'm not desperate for money or job or company, but still I feel blue.
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- Mar 17, 2020
Could be worse. You could be working for a company under Chapter 11 bankruptcy protection at the moment and seriously wonder about your job security because of it.'
I'm seriously hoping the buyout deal to get us out of bankruptcy goes through.
Still don't know anyone who died of, or even had lasting side-effects from, COVID, but someone at my school committed suicide the other day.
Really bad but it might be just seasonal depression or something. This is one of my worst streaks so far but at this point I just feel numb to all of it. I'm not interested in anything and just very tired and bored. At least I'm not suicidal yet but it's not like I ever really was. Worst thing is that I can't really talk to my friends or family about it because they all have their own problems, I don't want to add to that.
The only thing that's keeping me sane is that I'm making a mental list of good/positive things that happened each day. This can help me a lot and even the most miniscule positive things I notice can make my day a bit better. Would recommend this if anyone's feeling down lately. Especially now that winter is coming and most people end up depressed around this time of the year.
The only thing that's keeping me sane is that I'm making a mental list of good/positive things that happened each day. This can help me a lot and even the most miniscule positive things I notice can make my day a bit better. Would recommend this if anyone's feeling down lately. Especially now that winter is coming and most people end up depressed around this time of the year.
- Joined
- Dec 26, 2019
I use a bipap, but sometimes I yank it off while I'm sleeping.
This was one of those cases.
If somebody knocks on my door before 10am I always answer wearing it, gives me sort of a "bane" look since I use a fullface.
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- Aug 6, 2020
I feel like I have a lot to worry about, there are a lot of things under my belt right now. I am a firm believer in that everything falls into it's place, but goddamn can it hurry up already lol. Have any of you had long distance relationships? It sucks right, met the coolest chick ever but she lives so damn far lmao- I do have a cool girl I know in my city tho.
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- Mar 18, 2020
I’ve felt really empty lately. It feels like nothing I do matters anymore. I don’t find the things I used to enjoy fun any more. The only thing I still enjoy is working out and reading.
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- Jul 27, 2020
Kind of relieved.
I finally confessed to a girl I've been over the moon for.... half a year now. Whether she sees it or not, I guess it doesn't matter. It's my own Voyager probe out into the universe. It IS there whenever she sees it. That's what matters.
It's the least I can do. To get out what needed to be said.
I finally confessed to a girl I've been over the moon for.... half a year now. Whether she sees it or not, I guess it doesn't matter. It's my own Voyager probe out into the universe. It IS there whenever she sees it. That's what matters.
It's the least I can do. To get out what needed to be said.
Feeling off the last few days. Trying my best not to make things worse by recognizing when I'm in a bad place. I've been coping a lot better than I used to. I was used to going down a self destructive path and hurting myself more in the process.