I think it makes sense to want something better, modern society has a great deal of flaws and while a lot of them are endemic a whole lot of them are just poor planning and open corruption. I don't believe in the gay communist robot utopia concept but there are a number of things that could be improved upon with surprisingly little effort.
I think it also makes sense to resent the government (or even other institutions) for catering to the useless, especially if you claim to value your time and your own sense of self worth. When your time and money is taken and handed to the useless, that is more or less broadcasting the message that your time and money aren't worth very much at all. You can claim its morally justified in some way to do that to people, but to the average person the message being sent to them is that they are simply not as highly valued; that they are disposable. That does things to people, even if they claim they're okay with it. Its even worse when the useless people fed and supplied by your own hard work are walking, talking, everpresent, and are allowed to actively influence both local and state politics, making them an inescapable daily reminder. They don't just get hidden away like they used to in the past, and their numbers are always increasing.
If that sort of thing just doesn't bother you, somehow, I don't know if broken is the word I would use but it would make you something of a doormat. Its the wrong kind of apathy, and you shouldn't allow anyone to walk all over you like that.
They take
some of my money and use it for whatever retard stuff they do, so in that sense perhaps I'm not better off than a serf. Could things be better? Sure. I've seen lots of societal conveniences or systemic improvements in other countries I would bring back to America if I could.
Do I resent the government? Somewhat. They're corrupt retards. Every government on Earth is, to varying extents. I do not have a good solution, they are a necessary evil.
I do not get the feeling that I'm disposable and useless because my taxes go towards the care and feeding of bureaucrats and poors. Render unto Caesar, perhaps; but I honestly enjoy my work, try to do good in my community, and mostly ignore the enraged messaging and shock horror "baby given sex change in uterus then aborted because it is a clump of cells" shit we are constantly bombarded with, because the people who publish that want me to be angry, or demoralized. I am neither. I am growing food, I am learning new skills, I am making friends with my neighbors, and I am finding many people with similar values in surprising places, very close to me. Yes, 40% of my money goes to useless government programs. But they have to pass laws to do that, and I read those laws, and then I move money around in some accounts, and get most of my money back (to either tax shelter or to pay them again next year, another quarter in the slot machine).
I really don't feel beaten down. The world is a giant, intricate puzzle. A mystery with infinite depth in every direction. I feel interested, mostly - so interested I don't even mess with video games much anymore.
You seem very blackpilled, friend. I know I am perhaps very fortunate to live the life I do. I am aware of the injustices in society. I am aware that the current direction of the country will end in chaos, and some people will be angry, and some people (perhaps even me) may die.
My duty here is to do as much as I can for the people I can. I can't change society, or the government. Maybe someone else can. Maybe they will. Empires rise and fall, but the farmer is in his field; for who can feed armies?
I may be wrong. But I don't think so