Consider this the polar opposite of the 'is Chris getting better' thread. For a while CWC seemed to be improving slightly. He was meeting people in gay bars and seemed to be getting out more. There was an attempt to make money online even if it was executed totally backwards. He stopped obsessing about blarms (at least visibly). Of course there was moments where he failed but the trajectory seemed to indicate he was improving or at least coping better.
Everyone is always claiming that this was the happiest they have ever seen Chris, in my opinion and from everything I witnessed, it was just not true. Some people saw Chris coming to terms with his LGBTQIAXYZ female soul, and from my perspective (from the Catherine saga onward) things seemed to be very forced and extremely dependent on the reactions and approval of others.
Marvin: chris was trying to impress some lesbians who laughed at him for not having a vagina
If this is true, then this just reinforces a lot of the stuff I have said in this post. I have heard about people cutting their genitals or hiding them because of dysphoria, but to cut your taint to create the illusion of something fake to impress women you fantasize about having sex with is bloody insane. Even his new ID and woman-card struck me as one of those, "
look at me ladies, I'm one of you, now be my BFG" moments.
I wonder if Chris' renewed interests in "HRT" was those videos going nowhere and some woman telling Chris, you look like a dude.
Honestly I wonder why he stopped going to Pulse - losing that contact with outside people is where I earmark his present sharp nosedive beginning.
I think Marvin said a while back that it was because no lesbians wanted to sleep with him, there was no big controversy.
In my opinion, Chris does not care anything about actually fitting in, what he does care about is getting sex and securing a securing a Barb replacement, and lesbianism seems to be an option that meets his physical and psychological needs. If he wants to fit in, it seems more like a fox trying to fit in with hens.
If Chris actually had a female soul and viewed himself as a woman from a younger age, why didn't he say he had lesbian sex dreams with Barb? Chris is always tried to sneak in his lesbian identity when discussing any type of sexual activity.
Not trying to be rude or disrespectful to the identity, I am just trying to make the point that Chris was never happy or even content with this female soul stuff.