Careercow Narcissa Wright / Cosmo Wright - Former speedrunner tumbling down

[Treesapsoda]

I turned on the stream and Narcissa was actually trying to commentate and interact with the stream by explaining the run. There's a schedule where the 'severe depression warning' used to be. Wow, I thought, Narco's actually thinking about what people might want to watch for a change. Sure enough 10 minutes after I started watching Narcissa ragequits the run and tells the stream "it's over for me, it's all over, the downfall memes have finally come to life".

Why you might ask? Has Narcissa finally realized she has failed as an entertainer, that she was never a "seer" and all the whining, drug taking, and sitting around doing nothing ultimately led her to this place - her choices? Of course not, Narcissa explains "the ecosystem has changed and I do not feel enough support". Yes it is your fault, it is twitch's fault, it is the fault of existing supporters not giving enough. Then I look at the stream before, sure enough it is Narcissa sleeping. It looks like I mistook primal fear for a change in attitude.

 

[DarkSoulsPhil]

I'm looking at the stream and there are 80 viewers, for some reason I think maybe 70 are just watching the shitshow, while 10 are probably actual fans

 

[Drip Feed]

Spoiler: bad eye

Really entitled tidbit

Seems to have the problem DSP has, wants it all their way with no changes, cant reflect on oneself and their mistakes they're making so ends up in a downfall of subs, supporters and money

We're at 100+ viewers now to see this

EZ money

I turned on the stream and Narcissa was actually trying to commentate and interact with the stream by explaining the run. There's a schedule where the 'severe depression warning' used to be. Wow, I thought, Narco's actually thinking about what people might want to watch for a change. Sure enough 10 minutes after I started watching Narcissa ragequits the run and tells the stream "it's over for me, it's all over, the downfall memes have finally come to life".

Why you might ask? Has Narcissa finally realized she has failed as an entertainer, that she was never a "seer" and all the whining, drug taking, and sitting around doing nothing ultimately led her to this place - her choices? Of course not, Narcissa explains "the ecosystem has changed and I do not feel enough support". Yes it is your fault, it is twitch's fault, it is the fault of existing supporters not giving enough. Then I look at the stream before, sure enough it is Narcissa sleeping. It looks like I mistook primal fear for a change in attitude.

A little more on what narcissa felt about it

 

[Guy Smiley]

I've never watched his stream, but I read all his comments in Tommy Wiseau's voice, and it totally works.

 

[Idea Waifu]

Spoiler

I started watching Narcissa ragequits the run and tells the stream "it's over for me, it's all over, the downfall memes have finally come to life".

Well that's how speedrun works, you need to grind like an idiot for months or years, thats why a lot of speedrunners have a meltdown after failing in the game, i dont know why he expects it to be easy with his history of grinding in ocarina of time?

Spoiler

so he expects go get paid just by living his shitty life?

Spoiler

EZ money

yeah go for it turtlerrock7188 , we can't lose this high quality valuable stream

Spoiler

A little more on what narcissa felt about it

aren't people streaming and playing part of it because they enjoy it?
hes basically reaffirming that he does it all for money, put a coin to make narcissa move

he has a reminder to drink water just wtf, how do you forget to drink water

 

[Whetfahrt Cheesebörger]

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he has a reminder to drink water just wtf, how do you forget to drink water

That's just Stay_Hydrated_Bot. It's an independent bot that can be sent to any streamer to remind them to drink a proper amount of water. It was banned a while back due to triggered streamers disliking being told to do anything, but I guess it got unbanned and has official bot status now.

 

[Xanax]

If xhirz was really a trans, I guess xulr'll show the boypuzzy instead
But I think zyr really is just mentally sick, so... We'll see

Was it really necessary to do the le epic pronoun joke three times in two sentences

That's just Stay_Hydrated_Bot. It's an independent bot that can be sent to any streamer to remind them to drink a proper amount of water. It was banned a while back due to triggered streamers disliking being told to do anything, but I guess it got unbanned and has official bot status now.

Imagine being that upset by a bot that drops a single message in your chat

 

[andr0id psycho sho(ker]

Was it really necessary to do the le epic pronoun joke three times in two sentences



Imagine being that upset by a bot that drops a single message in your chat

Imagine needing a bot to tell people to drink water to stay healthy while working

 

[Xanax]

Imagine needing a bot to tell people to drink water to stay healthy while working

It was probably set up by one of those self-care/mindfulness people. They're all obsessed with giving "friendly reminders" to stay hydrated.

 

[Idea Waifu]

That's just Stay_Hydrated_Bot. It's an independent bot that can be sent to any streamer to remind them to drink a proper amount of water. It was banned a while back due to triggered streamers disliking being told to do anything, but I guess it got unbanned and has official bot status now.

Imagine needing a bot to tell people to drink water to stay healthy while working

its just crazy how backwards the world is going sometimes to make a bot to remind people to drink water, even a toddler can tell when to drink water and nowdays you have access to water just at two steps, i guess it makes sense to some extend as there is people with mental illness that play games 24/7 but i dont think a shitty reminder will do, it reminds me when world of warcraft and other games created systems that penalizes you for playing too long, rewards you for resting 8 hours or just shut down your game completely

 

[Ruin]

Was it really necessary to do the le epic pronoun joke three times in two sentences



Imagine being that upset by a bot that drops a single message in your chat

Eh I can understand being irritated by that nanny state nonsense. I never liked getting the "you've been playing for a while, don't forget to take a break!" message from my 3DS. Fuck off Nintendo, I'm entitled to do whatever I want on my day off.

 

[AIDSSkrillex]

Can one really make money out of streaming/youtube etc, considering the drop in followers she experienced, with her current activity?
(Honest question, I don't know much about twich and all this shite)

 

[Idea Waifu]

Can one really make money out of streaming/youtube etc, considering the drop in followers she experienced, with her current activity?
(Honest question, I don't know much about twich and all this shite)

you cant but she receives donations which isnt reflected on the followers, one guy donating 50 dollars can cover 20 suscribers, also he has money from patreon which has 40 patreons receiving $388 of income, someone just become patreon today because earlier he had 39 patreons
Edit : sometimes fanatics end tanking the income of the one who leaved, that's why narcissa pressure his fans more to give money, its like when blizzard with world of warcraft raise the quota when the game wasn't so popular to receive the same income

 

[Xerxes IX]

Can one really make money out of streaming/youtube etc, considering the drop in followers she experienced, with her current activity?
(Honest question, I don't know much about twich and all this shite)

TBH Narcissa is doing more than other "donate to me because I'm sad and trans" people. They don't even stream, they just play the troon card and expect money for it. So for that community that's actually a lot of activity.

 

[LiquidCancer]

Inspired by @Drip Feed I looked back at what happened on Twitch that night that Cosmo claimed coming back to Twitch made him "overcome with loneliness and detachment." Keep in mind this is the same stream that included the removal of the "depression warning" because things are finally changing.


After playing Zelda for a while, gets frustrated and stops. Opens up YouTube and listens to music for 10 minutes. Seems happy while the music is on and even dances a little in the chair. Abruptly cuts it off.


"How deep we divin' to? Do we lose the body?" Narcissa is obsessed with the science fiction idea of leaving our bodies behind and entering a purely digital existence.

"I need to stop being pretentious and just treat you all like intelligent people, because that way it would probably be... *burp* umm. There might be discussion?"

Chat is slow to react but other than some jokes about furries, and hiding bodies not a single person except KillDeerStudios responds to the question. (PacoZGonzales the #2 bit donator for the week claims that (((they))) already have a way to transfer your brain into a computer!) The chatters continue to talk about useless content, one person likes chai tea. Another asks about anime. KDS is the only person still thinking about the question Narcissa posed.

Chat isn't acting like intelligent people. The only option the streamer can take...

"What am I chasing when I speed run? What am I chasing? What does that mean?" Responding to a chatter "I'm chasing satisfaction? I'm too -stoic- to be satisfied."


"I think I get depressed easily because I want to be... loved" Narcissa crawls onto the bed and hugs a pillow for a few seconds and then jumps up "I want love from the chat now! I think I want that. "

"I'm back. I will soon start speedrunning every day!"

A user in the chat mentions 5mg of thc twice daily and Narcissa confirms she has taken her weed pill for the evening. KillDeerStudios suggests looking into the self help series by Jordan B Peterson.

*eye roll*

***It's after this point I can't understand what is happening. No thought is ever completed. Sentences are broken, unfinished and sometimes have nothing to do with the chat or anything currently happening.***

"I went to Catholic school... I'm open but I'm shy"

A user subscribes and Narcissa laments that her thanks are not genuine enough but that people's support (money) is desperately needed.

"I'm trying to be a monster. I'm a monster. I've been inflicted by the monster curse. I've been cursed. I'm buried in the monster cave"


Narcissa starts hissing only stopping slightly to catch breath.

At this point Narcissa starts regressing even more. The hissing stops and now will only type in the chat, less speaking. A chatbot chimes in with a message that the stream has been ongoing for over 6 hours. This triggers Narcissa's brain to take pills on stream. The Kate user says Narcissa seems stressed out which almost makes the streamer cry.

"Acknowledge is three syllables but it could be four!" (This is a quote from a person who claims their chatroom isn't intelligent enough)

Advice starts pouring in. All of it really excellent stuff. This is helpful pay attention!!!

Think good thoughts and don't think bad thoughts? This is completely new info to an almost 30 year old.

A couple users actually make the suggestion of getting professional help. They approach it so gently and timid for fear of offending the ghoul. "Maybe you could possibly sometime, if you want, try and seek out a counselor for maybe one minute a year? Maybe? I dunno lol"

"I feel so little control right now. I can't do anything for anybody in the chat. People just tell me to seek help! I can't do anything for anybody in chat. I wish I could lift everyone up"


I watched this above part several times. I still don't understand it. People tell you to see help and your reaction is "I cant" and "I want to help everyone else"??? It makes no sense. What the hell does any of that mean?

It's been less than 45 minutes since nick asked about weed!!! Time to ask again.

"PLEASE UR STIGMATIZING!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck. I need my safe space. I need control. I need something I can control."

"I don't want people's fucking advice." -- Person who cried out "What am I chasing when I speed run?" and almost cried just minutes earlier.

 

[(not) y2k compliant]

God damn this is grim. This is getting less wacky and more horrifying as it goes. The cognitive break down resulting in hissing and inability to finish sentences is nuts. I've seen this before a few times with people I've known but that was due to hard drugs, not self prescribed hormone replacements.

 

[Idea Waifu]

with more context provided by @LiquidCancer makes the story of KillDeer sadder

#NarcissaUnbanKillDeer
also i check it out and KillDeer doesnt follow up Narcissa anymore
Edit : there leaves another fan that had genuine care for her and wasnt just a bubble dickraider

 

[Ungern]

#NarcissaUnbanKillDeer
also i check it out and KillDeer doesnt follow up Narcissa anymore
Edit : there leaves another fan that had genuine care for her and wasnt just a bubble dickraider

He learned the hard way that trying to help somebody who doesn't want to be helped is a waste of time and energy. And Narci here is clearly in love with his misery and celebrates his self-destruction, so banning people who want you to get better is only logical from his pov.

 

[ForgottenAcct]

He learned the hard way that trying to help somebody who doesn't want to be helped is a waste of time and energy. And Narci here is clearly in love with his misery and celebrates his self-destruction, so banning people who want you to get better is only logical from his pov.

No screenshots since the poster got purged unexpectedly, but there was another user in the stream last night that had been trying to be helpful as well. Narcissa asked them to compile their posts into one message so it could be read easier, and one of the mods deleted the post as soon as it came up and permabanned the user. They (chat mods, not Narcissa who was actually having a conversation with the user) also purged that user from the chat history and muted people complaining about the ban.

Edit: Sifting through the video I found it. Happened early in the stream. Starts around here:
https://www.twitch.tv/videos/241825896?t=02h20m06s

About an hour further into the stream, the user offers to to compile their posts. Either the post got spam-filtered or deleted too quickly to show up on the chat video playback.

User gets banned around here:
https://www.twitch.tv/videos/241825896?t=03h41m40s

 

[LiquidCancer]

No screenshots since the poster got purged unexpectedly, but there was another user in the stream last night that had been trying to be helpful as well. Narcissa asked them to compile their posts into one message so it could be read easier, and one of the mods deleted the post as soon as it came up and permabanned the user. They (chat mods, not Narcissa who was actually having a conversation with the user) also purged that user from the chat history and muted people complaining about the ban.

That sounds wonderful but I've already watched a full hour of Narci today so I can't be fucking bothered to watch anymore to find it.