PACER is a very emotional topic for all involved because of what it symbolizes. for me, it symbolizes bringing others into my world, where currently I'm all alone fighting against adversaries (including my own lawyer). it also symbolizes leaving a legacy behind, since PACER documents stay on record forever.....
right after I got here in february, I was put in quarantine, and my case was meanwhile being covered on the TV news, so when I got off quarantine they put me in a cell with one of the worst cellmates I;ve ever had, Afif Jamil Boukhdoud.
like most muslim cellmates, he viewed himself as superior and wanted to dominate everything, and set a bunch of rules. He's also the only cellmate I've ever had who just openly raided my locker for food without asking. A little violence probably would've gone a long way in curbing his bad behavior but instead I went on hunger strike till the guards finally tool my complaints seriously enough to separate us.
The worst was his constant yelling at me over every trifling detail of cell life. e.g the place had to be spotlessly clean, I wasn't allowed to drink coffee while taking a shit because that offends Allah, I couldn't rattle a newspaper before 8am bacause it disturbed his sleep, or fill up a cup of water from the sink after the evening count because the sound of the faucet annoyed him, etc.