The General Thread
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Twice.Surtur said:exball said:I found out some douchebag is bullying my younger sister. The testosterone in me is telling me to beat the shit out of this kid. Seriously, what dude bullies a girl. It's fucking pathetic.
Do it.
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My backyard looks like a particular Vincent Van Gogh painting right now. The grass is dead due to the winter. I put out ear corn, peanuts, shelled sunflower seeds, and safflower seeds for the birds and squirrels to eat. And now the crows are all over it.
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exball said:I found out some douchebag is bullying my younger sister. The testosterone in me is telling me to beat the shit out of this kid. Seriously, what dude bullies a girl. It's fucking pathetic.
Go for it. With extreme prejudice.
I got a new laptop (finally!) for Xmas. I need to go into Safe Mode to use my computer, so I have sound again, so I can finally watch CWC videos (HA!), no more keys that stick, no more spyware, pop-ups, and I just love the lap-top itself. (Of course, now I'm super-ultra-paranoid about anything happening to it!).
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Mrs Paul said:exball said:I found out some douchebag is bullying my younger sister. The testosterone in me is telling me to beat the shit out of this kid. Seriously, what dude bullies a girl. It's fucking pathetic.
Go for it. With extreme prejudice.
I got a new laptop (finally!) for Xmas. I need to go into Safe Mode to use my computer, so I have sound again, so I can finally watch CWC videos (HA!), no more keys that stick, no more spyware, pop-ups, and I just love the lap-top itself. (Of course, now I'm super-ultra-paranoid about anything happening to it!).
Happy to see you back.
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So I watched Jacob's Ladder right before bed last night, since I heard it gave inspiration to the Silent Hill series and I like surreal/psychological horror in general. Either that movie and/or the melatonin I took gave me weird dreams.
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Jacobs Ladder inspired a lot of the imagery to the series. Things like James Sunderland's jacket being similar to the main character, the rapid head movement being employed similarly with the enemy animations, the graphics of the otherworld location etc.Mourning Dove said:
When you enter Otherworld in the hospital in SH2 the cinematic is taken directly from a scene in Jacob's ladder.
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A General Vent thread?
I'd like to see this become a place where people can just vent but I just really want to get my thoughts out somewhere where other human beings can see it. Feel free to ignore it or lock it if theres already another thread like this.
I'm part of an FB group thats basically no rules we just share posts and bullshit. Every Thursday we do something called #thirstday where we post pictures of people we find attractive. My posts are really popular in the group because I usually get them off of chive or tapiture or something and I kind of have an eye for aesthetics. We all get a kick out of it and its become one of the highlights of my week.
I really enjoy doing those thirstday posts and just dope photography in general so I had been bouncing around the idea of making another tumblr to post photos like that on the regs. I used to be an avid tumblr user years ago and left because basically everything about the site irritated me. So I go on the website today and find out that my old one was never really erased to no real surprise. I found myself encountering alot of negative emotions. Like deep resentment and bitterness and I wasn't sure why. After all its just a website. I didn't feel like this when I logged into myspace for the first time in a million years and that was where I received death threats and was around the time of my deepest depression and suicide attempt.
Because of the websites awful interface I couldn't figure out how to delete all of my posts so I started going one by one and deleting them an unfollowing everyone I used to follow. While digging through those posts I realized where all these emotions were coming from.
There was a girl years ago. To this day I'm not even sure what happened. I guess you could say I fell for her. Hard. The whole reason I got into tumblr was her. Something as simple as this website had brought up a shit ton of old memories. She was a year or so younger than me and had just started going to my college. I had determined in my mind that semester that I was going to engage in a steamy carnal affair with some unassuming freshman girl. I saw her and decided she was going to be my target. However, I was 19, beta, and inexperienced as fuck.
I won't bore you with the details but it wasn't long before I caught feelings. This wouldn't be a big deal for alot of people but I have a serious fear of emotional intimacy. Its probably the only fear that has drastically affected my lifestyle. I'm not entirely sure where its from. My dad is Jamaican and they're known to be a bit stoic when it comes to feelings of love and affection. Or maybe I secretly enjoy people needing me more than I need them (which is probably kind of sick.)
Regardless of its origins, this girl brought some shit out of me that I didn't even know was there. My behavior was all fucked up. I was absolutely insane over this girl. And it didn't help that we hung out with the same friends, worked together, and even had a class together at one point. I'd get jealous when I saw her flirt with other guys, (which she realized and didn't lose sleep over. Which in turn made me like her more.) I remember there were nights where I couldn't go to sleep because I kept thinking about her and every time I did my stomach would do backflips. So I'd just pace the floor for the better part of the night trying not to wake my parents.
I hated this. I hated every moment of it. It made me feel weak, vulnerable, and out of control. And I've spent the better part of my life being the exact opposite of all of that. This episode in my life made me realize I was human. Which is good, but I'm afraid that I've been neglecting my emotional life for so long that the next time I allow myself to fall for someone it might be like this. I mean that girl was the first real "crush". I had in probably over 5 years at the time. My high school romantic interests were all based on physical aspects. And was m last one since. It'll be close to another 5 years since this all went down soon and I feel like I'm in a worse position now than I was back then.
All this really resonated because fast forward to the present and I'm talking to a beautiful good girl who likes me, understands me and doesn't give lap dances to my friends and I find myself unable to truly connect with her. Not because I'm afraid of getting hurt. I can't even get that vulnerable yet. I just don't want her to fall for me because I know that right now, unless something drastic happens I won't be able to catch her. I'm just afraid that my inability to be truly vulnerable will leave me lonely or just plain unhappy. My love life since this has basically been sitting through conversations about things I don't really give a shit about and the odd hook up interspersed.
Blah, I'm done talking for now. I fucking hate tumblr. Thanks for reading, if you did.
I'd like to see this become a place where people can just vent but I just really want to get my thoughts out somewhere where other human beings can see it. Feel free to ignore it or lock it if theres already another thread like this.
I'm part of an FB group thats basically no rules we just share posts and bullshit. Every Thursday we do something called #thirstday where we post pictures of people we find attractive. My posts are really popular in the group because I usually get them off of chive or tapiture or something and I kind of have an eye for aesthetics. We all get a kick out of it and its become one of the highlights of my week.
I really enjoy doing those thirstday posts and just dope photography in general so I had been bouncing around the idea of making another tumblr to post photos like that on the regs. I used to be an avid tumblr user years ago and left because basically everything about the site irritated me. So I go on the website today and find out that my old one was never really erased to no real surprise. I found myself encountering alot of negative emotions. Like deep resentment and bitterness and I wasn't sure why. After all its just a website. I didn't feel like this when I logged into myspace for the first time in a million years and that was where I received death threats and was around the time of my deepest depression and suicide attempt.
Because of the websites awful interface I couldn't figure out how to delete all of my posts so I started going one by one and deleting them an unfollowing everyone I used to follow. While digging through those posts I realized where all these emotions were coming from.
There was a girl years ago. To this day I'm not even sure what happened. I guess you could say I fell for her. Hard. The whole reason I got into tumblr was her. Something as simple as this website had brought up a shit ton of old memories. She was a year or so younger than me and had just started going to my college. I had determined in my mind that semester that I was going to engage in a steamy carnal affair with some unassuming freshman girl. I saw her and decided she was going to be my target. However, I was 19, beta, and inexperienced as fuck.
I won't bore you with the details but it wasn't long before I caught feelings. This wouldn't be a big deal for alot of people but I have a serious fear of emotional intimacy. Its probably the only fear that has drastically affected my lifestyle. I'm not entirely sure where its from. My dad is Jamaican and they're known to be a bit stoic when it comes to feelings of love and affection. Or maybe I secretly enjoy people needing me more than I need them (which is probably kind of sick.)
Regardless of its origins, this girl brought some shit out of me that I didn't even know was there. My behavior was all fucked up. I was absolutely insane over this girl. And it didn't help that we hung out with the same friends, worked together, and even had a class together at one point. I'd get jealous when I saw her flirt with other guys, (which she realized and didn't lose sleep over. Which in turn made me like her more.) I remember there were nights where I couldn't go to sleep because I kept thinking about her and every time I did my stomach would do backflips. So I'd just pace the floor for the better part of the night trying not to wake my parents.
I hated this. I hated every moment of it. It made me feel weak, vulnerable, and out of control. And I've spent the better part of my life being the exact opposite of all of that. This episode in my life made me realize I was human. Which is good, but I'm afraid that I've been neglecting my emotional life for so long that the next time I allow myself to fall for someone it might be like this. I mean that girl was the first real "crush". I had in probably over 5 years at the time. My high school romantic interests were all based on physical aspects. And was m last one since. It'll be close to another 5 years since this all went down soon and I feel like I'm in a worse position now than I was back then.
All this really resonated because fast forward to the present and I'm talking to a beautiful good girl who likes me, understands me and doesn't give lap dances to my friends and I find myself unable to truly connect with her. Not because I'm afraid of getting hurt. I can't even get that vulnerable yet. I just don't want her to fall for me because I know that right now, unless something drastic happens I won't be able to catch her. I'm just afraid that my inability to be truly vulnerable will leave me lonely or just plain unhappy. My love life since this has basically been sitting through conversations about things I don't really give a shit about and the odd hook up interspersed.
Blah, I'm done talking for now. I fucking hate tumblr. Thanks for reading, if you did.
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Re: A General Vent thread?
If you gotta vent on a personal level, general thread will suffice. Not scolding you, just sayin'.
If you gotta vent on a personal level, general thread will suffice. Not scolding you, just sayin'.
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So one of my classes this semester is an oceanography telecourse. It requires me to watch telecourse DVDs, which so far has been boring me to tears. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love earth sciences. But these DVDs consist of bland stock video footage of sciencey things while various PhDs do soundbites about earth science. Edutainment it is not. I want Bill Nye the Science Guy and/or The Magic School Bus to teach me university-level oceanography! 
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^ my holier than thou niece takes (free) classes similar to this and she acts all mighty because of it. It's sickening the way she acts about them on fb. Like she getting a harvard education.
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I spent $25 today going into Manhattan for a total of like, thirty minutes.
Come back and my town was completely blanketed in snow, so much so that the roads were all white and everyone was driving wherever they felt like it. Had to shovel my way into the house.
I'm so ready for coffee and a nap.
Come back and my town was completely blanketed in snow, so much so that the roads were all white and everyone was driving wherever they felt like it. Had to shovel my way into the house.
I'm so ready for coffee and a nap.
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Finally, a sentai has truly captivated me. I've tried watching a few different seasons, but none really pulled me in like some shows do. I may like them, but only them when I feel like it. This series, though, I doesn't have that problem 
Kakuranger is strange, comedic and right for me.
Kakuranger is strange, comedic and right for me.