I went through all of 2020 without drinking a drop of alcohol (or smoking weed or anything else). It wasn't a case of hitting rock bottom of anything, I was just curious to see if it would pose any challenge (thus indicating a problem) and what the effects overall would be.
I guess the results were mixed. On the one hand I had zero issues sticking to it. After the first few weeks I didn't even think about it. Lost some weight (in a good way), excercise was easier than ever, lifestyle, diet and habits improved overall. Got a ton of reading done, spent less time on the computer because my brain was much clearer and I was full of energy. Even my sleep schedule improved drastically.
On the other hand it didn't cure any of my larger issues with life, so I guess those weren't substance abuse related after all. I still had bouts of depression and weeks when I couldn't get shit done, but now I didn't even have alcohol to drown it with and at least get some use out of those days. I just laid there passively.
Started drinking again this year, mainly in the form of occasional binges separated by weeks or months of sobriety. It wasn't a good move, I should've just sticked with sobriety. Then again being intoxicated does provide at least some joy in an otherwise joyless existence, so it's hard to fully dismiss it. I don't know, thanks for reading my diary entry I suppose. I doubt I'm at a point right now where I'll try to go sober, the motivation or vision of a brighter tomorrow just isn't there nor do I feel it interfering with anything because I don't have that much going on. It might be in the cards again some time in the future, though. If you're thinking about it, you should do it.
