The Stop Drinking (or using other substances) thread - Hello, my name is "kiwi farmer", and I am an alcoholic.

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I've been 2 days without drinking. Day 3 will be hard.

Fucked my new gaming laptop last night, flowerpot fell off a shelf and spilled water all over the desk.
I keep water and food away from it but some freak fuckin accident fucked me

Anyway I'm in a shit mood today and I'll do what I can to avoid drinking to assuage that mood. Not gonna stay fat and drunk and angry the rest of my life.
 
I'm on day 3 without booze and I feel like death. Not super tired like I was yesterday and not borderline delirious but my chest is killing me from projectile vomiting about 10 times yesterday. It's like the worst heartburn you could imagine mixed with feeling like I've been punched in the sternum. My back also hurts like hell because if I lay down it gives me worse heartburn and I almost immediately have to throw up.
 
I'm on day 3 without booze and I feel like death. Not super tired like I was yesterday and not borderline delirious but my chest is killing me from projectile vomiting about 10 times yesterday. It's like the worst heartburn you could imagine mixed with feeling like I've been punched in the sternum. My back also hurts like hell because if I lay down it gives me worse heartburn and I almost immediately have to throw up.
Bro you need to see a doctor. It sounds like bad withdrawal. Maybe drink a little just to help the withdrawal. You don't want the withdrawal to kill you.
 
Bro you need to see a doctor. It sounds like bad withdrawal. Maybe drink a little just to help the withdrawal. You don't want the withdrawal to kill you.
I don't think it's gonna kill me. My heart rates fine, my chest just hurts from stomach acid burning the shit out of my asophagus and my muscles contracting while vomiting. I've had similar symptoms from really bad hang overs before.

Edit: Might go get a single beer just to sip through the night for safety though. I tried sipping a little wine yesterday but it just made the heartburn worse due to the acidity. I just really need to quit this shit, it's been fucking up alot of aspects of my life for a while now.

Edit 2: Pain in chest has gone down significantly so it seems it was just my asophagus being burnt up and straining/bruising from vomiting so much. Generally feel pretty ok now.
 
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I don't think it's gonna kill me. My heart rates fine, my chest just hurts from stomach acid burning the shit out of my asophagus and my muscles contracting while vomiting. I've had similar symptoms from really bad hang overs before.

Edit: Might go get a single beer just to sip through the night for safety though. I tried sipping a little wine yesterday but it just made the heartburn worse due to the acidity. I just really need to quit this shit, it's been fucking up alot of aspects of my life for a while now.

Edit 2: Pain in chest has gone down significantly so it seems it was just my asophagus being burnt up and straining/bruising from vomiting so much. Generally feel pretty ok now.
You've gotta be really careful quitting drinking cold turkey if you're a really heavy drinker. Alcohol mimics a neurotransmitter used in muscle control, and when you flood your bloodstream with it every day you stop making it yourself because your endocrine system says "looks like we've got plenty". So when you withdraw, you can lose control over your muscles. That's why the DTs involve shaking so much, but you also risk incontinence or even heart attacks depending on how hard your body has to adjust. That said, it doesn't sound like your symptoms are indicative of that.

I quit drinking 10 years ago after spending most of my 20s drinking myself to sleep every night. I was lucky in that I didn't drink to excess at any one time so I didn't get too many physical symptoms (aside from reflux like you're experiencing), but it was the psychological problems that were the worst - I didn't know what the fuck to do with myself in the evenings and my sleep cycles were fucked up for quite a long time. That said it's totally worth doing, you never realised how foggy your thought processes were until you quit and suddenly you can aim 100% of your brain at a given problem, rather than whatever percentage is sober enough to function at any one time.
 
Trying to get back on the wagon again. Was honestly inspired by a Meat Canyon video.


I've been 2 days without drinking. Day 3 will be hard.

Fucked my new gaming laptop last night, flowerpot fell off a shelf and spilled water all over the desk.
I keep water and food away from it but some freak fuckin accident fucked me

Anyway I'm in a shit mood today and I'll do what I can to avoid drinking to assuage that mood. Not gonna stay fat and drunk and angry the rest of my life.
Day 3 is bad. Almost as bad as day 14. And the Acamprosate didn't work. Doctors were no help. I get the feeling they just go through the motions without really caring too much. Only person who can help you, is you. Anyway, day 2. Again. Couldn't stop thinking of a bottle of vodka the whole drive home.
 
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Maybe I'm a retard and drank the kool-aid, but I've been sober since the end of 2020 and AA was a big help. I don't go to meetings every day and I think I lucked out in finding a group that isn't full of felons looking to have their court slips signed. But the social aspect of people being willing to talk and relate to you no matter who you are (I'm a visible faggot and the boomers in my group treat me kindly) definitely helps. That and I started out with a really hardass sponsor who called me every other day to check in on me. I don't buy the spiritual stuff but some light brainwashing to distance myself from a harmful behavior feels like an acceptable price to pay.
 
Gonna quit weed starting Monday. It's my final crutch after quitting cigarettes and a daily coke habit.

After reading some of the posts in this thread, my shit's minor. Just looking forward to having a clear head, being able to string a coherent sentence together and not wrangling with my own paranoid mindscape on the constant.
 
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Aaaaaand off the wagon after 7 days. Easter. Of COURSE the relations showed up with bottles of wine. *sigh*

I'm gonna have to tell them I'm an alcoholic and they can't have booze around me, aren't I.
This worked for me, and it's not as hard as you think it is. I drink again (in moderation) but when I was getting out of the binge drinking constantly nightmare I had the issue of if someone brought it, I couldn't say no.

It becomes easier once you gain that sense of self-control. But until then, you don't sound like a douche if you tell them "Look, I'm trying to stop, just don't bring it around for a bit". I had to do it and everyone was fine with it. Once you get over the hump it becomes easier to have it around you.

And always remember, you can have just one. That was the hardest thing I had to learn.
 
I used to chain smoke rolled cigarettes with shatter in them. I'd take a big chunk of shatter, or sometimes distilate, roll it into a tube then add a bunch of tobacco and smoke it. I'd smoke like 40 of those a day. Pretty much I'd be finishing one and rolling up the next one while taking the last few puffs. Haven't smoked tobacco since last August now. Barely smoke any weed at all any more. Now just gotta work on the whole drinking 8-12 beers a night thing.
 
If you feel like drinking, then do it. If you feel like getting fucked up limit yourself to the 6pack of beer or equivalent amount of other shit.

Also, the less concentration, the better. If you drink a shitton because you can't make yourself stop, bring the concentration down even more. Try drinking 6 liters(1 gallon and smt) of 2.5% of radler or some shit(preferably low on sugar), good luck lol.

Limit your sleep. I sleep from 10PM to 5 am at maximum. If you're not tired still, try getting to bed a little later. You won't drink as much before passing out from tiredness.

If you're really bad with keeping your limits and have a car, find something to do in the morning, like 6-7AM or smt and drive. That way you are forced to think about it (you should obviously buy a tester and learn about its limits, just to be sure you dont fuck up).

By any means, make yourself a point to drink a lot of water and eat a full meal atleast twice a day. I recommend doing a 300ml cup of water for every round you do(like 1 beer, glass of wine, 1 shot).

I myself am prone to binge drink, if I have no work the next day and I try to keep these things in check, so I dont fuck myself up beyond belief.

There is a way to enjoably drink. As they say in South Park: Disaprin, come from within'. If you spend all your energy trying not to drink, that substance controls your life anyway.

Sorry for wall of text
 
Maybe not the place for it, but I just hit 5 weeks sober. I’ve never been a big drinker but I’ve coped with weed for the better part of my life (so a couple decades, minus pregnancy) in excess of 5 times a day. I’m finally sleeping and having dreams again.
 
Day 3 is bad. Almost as bad as day 14. And the Acamprosate didn't work. Doctors were no help. I get the feeling they just go through the motions without really caring too much. Only person who can help you, is you. Anyway, day 2. Again. Couldn't stop thinking of a bottle of vodka the whole drive home.
The Sinclair Method (keep drinking but take 10mg of naltrexone an hour before you drink) is statistically the most effective. It reduces the dopamine hit you get from drinking. Some people quit completely and some are able to moderate and drink at safe levels. Others don't respond to the treatment at all.

Few doctors are familiar with it but if you print out the study they did on it and bring it in they'll probably try it out assuming you're not on death's door with cirrhosis or chronic pancreatitis or something.
 
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The Sinclair Method (keep drinking but take 10mg of naltrexone an hour before you drink) is statistically the most effective. It reduces the dopamine hit you get from drinking. Some people quit completely and some are able to moderate and drink at safe levels. Others don't respond to the treatment at all.

Few doctors are familiar with it but if you print out the study they did on it and bring it in they'll probably try it out assuming you're not on death's door with cirrhosis or chronic pancreatitis or something.
I can vouch for this. I was prescribed naltrexone to quit drinking and it worked well. I would still drink some on it and i kinda just lost interest in drinking.
 
I fell off the wagon pretty hard after a few months sober. Horrible mistake. Had to go to the hospital with severe dehydration, trouble breathing, chest and back pain, heart rate out of this world, and a bunch of other symptoms, puked up anything I drank or ate within 5 minutes of ingestion and noticed black strands in my vomit at which point I said "oh fuck I need to go to the hospital immediately because I'm bleeding internally". Thankfully I wasn't actually bleeding internally and instead the black shit was just bile. After like 3 days in the hospital with an IV stuck in my arm though I think it's pretty clear I just can't drink anymore or I'm going to die and it's not going to be pretty.

Have horrible pains right now from all the vomiting fucking up my stomach and throat, but at least I have absolutely no urge to drink anymore. I've been run over and had my leg wrapped around the wheel of the car and it was less painful than this shit was. Weirdly enough like 80% of the people at the hospital and in the ambulance told me to go to AA but also get a weed license which doesn't sound smart to me but at least it wouldn't kill me like booze clearly will. Would rather not completely fry my brain with pot though. At least I'm alive.
 
Maybe not the place for it, but I just hit 5 weeks sober. I’ve never been a big drinker but I’ve coped with weed for the better part of my life (so a couple decades, minus pregnancy) in excess of 5 times a day. I’m finally sleeping and having dreams again.
That's something I notice in attempting to quit bouts. I start dreaming again. It definitely does not happen if you have anything in your system. Considering how important REM sleep is for the brain, it's probably not good to go long term without it.
 
Was a casual drinker up until 2020. Played indoor soccer a couple times a week and was in the best physical condition of my life. Then the pandemic happened. The stress level at work went through the roof and I ended up going through a break up. I started drinking every night. Stopped sports. Beers turned into hard liquor. I've gained a lot of weight. I stopped seeing my friends. I've lost interest in any of my hobbies. Clearly I'm depressed.

Recently I've been trying to pull my head out the sand and have been fighting to not drink. I'm very much an alcoholic that is drawn to the sauce like a moth to a light. It's like I'll make the decision to not buy a bottle of liquor and then when I'm out driving or I go to the grocery store, my rational thoughts completely disappear and I just go into robot zombie mode.

I've been reading your guys' posts and I'm very much considering the advice of the of the more helpful Farmers. Wish me luck.
 
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