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Normal is what you make of it. If you're not happy with what you are, it might be time to reassess your priorities and environment, as you may just be incompatible with that current one. Find new hobbies or friends, reassess your faith, or maybe look into moving to a different area.
 
Once again debating if I should try again to leave this town. Because where I'm at now feels like the kind of place you try to leave by the end of college, otherwise you'll be stuck here with no one to talk to but the dregs and nothing to do but shop, eat out, and go walking.

But then again, maybe it's like this everywhere. Maybe I'll move to a bigger city hoping for greener pastures, only for nothing to change except now there's more rent, noise, crime, traffic, troons, etc. Makes me wonder if it's worth putting in all the effort to land a new job and move. I don't know.
 
Back at you pal. I was lucky enough that my insurance covered the whole thing (I paid for wheel nut locks out of pocket on top of it though). It was more of an emotional thing because that's my car, and on top of that it was a gift from my father, which makes it mean that much more. That and the time wasted on the repair process. I even had a replacement, so in a logical sense, you have it much worse. It sounds like you use your car much more than me, and you're paying for repairs out-of-pocket. Best wishes to you and I hope your car troubles are resolved soon.
The time wasted is the worst part. I was gone from here most of yesterday because it wouldn't start lol. My baby got towed, three days after I got it back. Gave the shop owner a bit of a hard time, and unlike before where we'd scheduled it for two weeks out, the man looked very remorseful. And I fully agree its emotional, wether it's a beater or a flashy corvette, it's your car. And with me, yeah, i'm paying out of pocket, burning through my savings that I did have plans for. Ah well. On the bright side, I have been losing weight from walking home all the time. That's nice.
 
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A consumer rodent? No, you don't.
The time wasted is the worst part. I was gone from here most of yesterday because it wouldn't start lol. My baby got towed, three days after I got it back. Gave the shop owner a bit of a hard time, and unlike before where we'd scheduled it for two weeks out, the man looked very remorseful. And I fully agree its emotional, wether it's a beater or a flashy corvette, it's your car. And with me, yeah, i'm paying out of pocket, burning through my savings that I did have plans for. Ah well. On the bright side, I have been losing weight from walking home all the time. That's nice.
Hey welper. I can't stand most mechanics, they're obvious skeezy bastards with no respect for other people out to grift you. That and/or they're really inept and too stupid to realize it. I've had to end up paying enough in repairs where I could have just gotten a new used car but they were too retarded to figure it out the first time, and by then I had already sunk enough new parts in....

I just picked up some very important items for some of my niche hobbies, so I'm excited. I've been overly-anticipatory the past few days. Some of my personal long-term plans have finally begun and I'm happily working on it. I've been getting better at sourcing odd things I like. I've barely had time to do much else but work on my hobbies which...feels fulfilling, despite the money I'm spending, but thankfully I never wasted my money on Funko pops so I can buy shit that matters.

With later spring in full bloom water is warm, everything is blue and green and there's color everywhere, and not a pride flag in sight. Hummingbirds have started coming by.

God it's fucking beautiful outside. I've been wandering in my back yard even late at night, because I'm an extreme insomniac. I've started watching the spiders do their thing, pay attention to plat growth... I've been paying more attention to identifying local plants...
 
Hey welper. I can't stand most mechanics, they're obvious skeezy bastards with no respect for other people out to grift you. That and/or they're really inept and too stupid to realize it. I've had to end up paying enough in repairs where I could have just gotten a new used car but they were too retarded to figure it out the first time, and by then I had already sunk enough new parts in....
It's more the car- old people that owned it before ran it into the dirt. But at this point, i've had half the internals replaced. I know how these mechanics think, and trust me, since i've had work done through them before, and all of that comes with 2 year warranties, if they mess with anything they did before, they will be footing the bill on that. He could tell my bullshit meter was at its wits end.
just picked up some very important items for some of my niche hobbies, so I'm excited. I've been overly-anticipatory the past few days. Some of my personal long-term plans have finally begun and I'm happily working on it. I've been getting better at sourcing odd things I like. I've barely had time to do much else but work on my hobbies which...feels fulfilling, despite the money I'm spending, but thankfully I never wasted my money on Funko pops so I can buy shit that matters.
Glad you're working on your hobbies. That's one thing i've been doing a lot especially recently, building gundam, catching up on some of my tv shows, etc. It's good to have them, rounds you out as a person
 
Im more annoyed by everything in my life than anything else. Im starting to realize that i dwell on my losses too much. Its driven me crazy to think about how much got lost from being too naive and im seeing the change in my eyes. Im more or less back together even if i dont have everything restored but the mental stress showing on my face will require a really good skincare routine.
 
It's more the car- old people that owned it before ran it into the dirt. But at this point, i've had half the internals replaced. I know how these mechanics think, and trust me, since i've had work done through them before, and all of that comes with 2 year warranties, if they mess with anything they did before, they will be footing the bill on that. He could tell my bullshit meter was at its wits end.

Glad you're working on your hobbies. That's one thing i've been doing a lot especially recently, building gundam, catching up on some of my tv shows, etc. It's good to have them, rounds you out as a person
Owning a lemon of a car is a fucking nightmare. I've owned a haunted car before and it's hard to describe the stress it keeps giving you.

I barely have watched TV or movies in a long time. I just can't sit in front of a screen for a long period of time anymore. Maybe when it gets colder but these days I really just want to be outside.

Im more annoyed by everything in my life than anything else. Im starting to realize that i dwell on my losses too much. Its driven me crazy to think about how much got lost from being too naive and im seeing the change in my eyes. Im more or less back together even if i dont have everything restored but the mental stress showing on my face will require a really good skincare routine.
I'm not sure if you mean life-wise or financially but the best way to conquer life is to just enjoy "simple" things that would always be there no matter how much money you have. There's a lot of great things in life "they" can't take from you. I know this sounds like a platitude but there are many great things in life which don't involve large sums of money. Just make sure you're solvent and try to get out of any debt you're in as soon as possible and build from there.
 
Florida feels like it's been absolutely Godkissed recently. The first 2 years were rough but I think a lot of the weather and bugs chased off the worst of the cityfolk coming here. Just met my newest neighbors, they're absolutely loaded and a very wholesome young couple, they seem to like me after I've been quietly working on their slice of lawn that intersects our shared lawn expanse. Dude's got one of the most impressive trucks I've ever seen, thing could haul an RV out of a ditch if it really needed to.

Again, the weather's just beautiful, had a thunderstorm the other day and it was a little rough but my area always seems to have the worst weather pass over it and all the flooding and lightning stays a mile or more north for whatever reason. Really feel like God's rewarding DeSantis for being a good guy, and I'm happy he did a lot of the things I was praying for. It's been some of the nicest summer days I can remember.
 
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Florida feels like it's been absolutely Godkissed recently. The first 2 years were rough but I think a lot of the weather and bugs chased off the worst of the cityfolk coming here. Just met my newest neighbors, they're absolutely loaded and a very wholesome young couple, they seem to like me after I've been quietly working on their slice of lawn that intersects our shared lawn expanse. Dude's got one of the most impressive trucks I've ever seen, thing could haul an RV out of a ditch if it really needed to.

Again, the weather's just beautiful, had a thunderstorm the other day and it was a little rough but my area always seems to have the worst weather pass over it and all the flooding and lightning stays a mile or more north for whatever reason. Really feel like God's rewarding DeSantis for being a good guy, and I'm happy he did a lot of the things I was praying for. It's been some of the nicest summer days I can remember.
Life sure gets better once you leave the city folk behind, eh?
 
Life sure gets better once you leave the city folk behind, eh?
I've never lived in a city, they came to me and the years 2-3 behind were filled with gatekeeping, I'm the neighborhood watch and they were turning my neighborhood into a dangerous shithole racing their cars in the suburb, when I started recording them they would call the cops on me repeatedly, of which I was happy to calmly talk to and explain the situation, not once getting a bad reaction. They got so utterly deranged one of them broke my leg, I didn't press charges but I did report it and got it on file. Recently, after a long struggle, they've finally been put in their place, it was a group effort and, frankly, I'm happy to help. Fuckin' city slickers and their fancy German cars.
 
Owning a lemon of a car is a fucking nightmare. I've owned a haunted car before and it's hard to describe the stress it keeps giving you.

I barely have watched TV or movies in a long time. I just can't sit in front of a screen for a long period of time anymore. Maybe when it gets colder but these days I really just want to be outside.
Trust me, I know all about the stress. But at this point, I'm going to fight to keep it as long as I can. It's just a machine. All machines can be fixed if you try hard enough.

As for TV, it's mostly something i've kept with since highschool. First the old discs of Star Trek, now anime. I like stories, and at least with animation, I don't think about how much of a faggot the actor has become.
 
Trust me, I know all about the stress. But at this point, I'm going to fight to keep it as long as I can. It's just a machine. All machines can be fixed if you try hard enough.

As for TV, it's mostly something i've kept with since highschool. First the old discs of Star Trek, now anime. I like stories, and at least with animation, I don't think about how much of a faggot the actor has become.
When I do watch shit it's mostly older shit. The newer Star Trek (Discovery) is fucking terrible, typical Millennial low attention span shit. Despite being Seth Macfarlane and hyper-liberal The Orville is actually pretty good and worth a watch. We've talked about anime before, haha, so I'll just say that you should watch From The New World if you want something not-shit, other than that I wouldn't have much to suggest. It was based on a novel. Is there anything new that's even good on TV?
 
There's a narrative that the world is going insane, that happens a lot here as well, and yet I know people who are very normal politically moderate individuals who make fun of all the modern hysteria, they think the trans stuff is as clownish as any sane person, and at this point live in nice houses (even though millennials are all supposed to be broke), working middle class jobs and making more than enough money to support their lifestyle and are even looking towards having kids.

There are pockets of people who sort of float above it all and don't seem conflicted in the slightest. They come off so much more well adjusted, I spend time with them, sit outside drinking martinis and eating fine cheeses, and it makes the doomsaying seem almost childish.

The whole thing is really nice, just go to work, be prudent with your resources and relationships and things will be fine.

Then you deal with other people and everyone's an angry broke maladjusted motherfucking whacko who can barely exist in polite society, or ones who may as well live in a pod because working and consuming is their whole personality, and I go back to being convinced there's no possible way the system as we know it is going to last so you shouldn't put your chips on it.

I sort of wish society and economy would make up its mind as to where it's going so that it was easier to know what to do.
I'm fine with whatever option, it is what it is, but the establishment really needs to decide whether it's going to go off the rails or not and hit me up to let me know because this weird state of flux everything seems to be in really makes things difficult.
 
There are pockets of people who sort of float above it all and don't seem conflicted in the slightest. They come off so much more well adjusted, I spend time with them, sit outside drinking martinis and eating fine cheeses, and it makes the doomsaying seem almost childish.
You can tell the real wackos because they get inordinately mad about the "I just wanna grill for God's sake" people because it's some horrible betrayal not to be fighting the Nazicommie Transhomoqueerual whatevers 24/7. In actuality those guys have a point.

And if you really are fighting something that evil effectively, then you're doing it for them whether you like it or not, so you might as well like them. After all, you're working for them.
 
Kielbasa, pierogi, and sauerkraut. Didn't know about the cheeses, thanks for telling me. I'll have to see if my local supermarkets sell them.
Oh man, you haven't even had real pierogi, I'm sure. Is it just from the supermarket? That stuff isn't close to legit pierogi. It's an abomination. It's offensive cultural appropriation. Usually the supermarket stuff is just shitty dough around potato, not true pierogi.

So you're not going to find those cheeses anywhere outside of Poland. Maybe you'd find some version in Chicago, I've heard it's sold there in some Polish delis, but I have no idea how legit it is.

Stuff you might be able to find in America or make yourself... bigos, barszcz (borscht), flaczki, golabki, zurek, makowiec, and placki ziemniaczane you will have best luck with finding in America or making yourself, whether Polish or a similar variety, and maybe at some deli you can find headcheese to get an idea of some other strange things that Polish people eat. Of these flaczki will probably be the hardest to make and find because it uses beef tripe. Way better than Mexican menudos. It can be hard to get the placki ziemniaczane just right but they're so good.

If you visit Poland, you will have to snack on kabanos. They're basically like much superior, less greasy and possibly less carcinogenic Slim Jim. Other foods to try there you can't get in America so easily would be things like fresh smoked sprats.

There's a narrative that the world is going insane, that happens a lot here as well, and yet I know people who are very normal politically moderate individuals who make fun of all the modern hysteria, they think the trans stuff is as clownish as any sane person, and at this point live in nice houses (even though millennials are all supposed to be broke), working middle class jobs and making more than enough money to support their lifestyle and are even looking towards having kids.

There are pockets of people who sort of float above it all and don't seem conflicted in the slightest. They come off so much more well adjusted, I spend time with them, sit outside drinking martinis and eating fine cheeses, and it makes the doomsaying seem almost childish.

The whole thing is really nice, just go to work, be prudent with your resources and relationships and things will be fine.

Then you deal with other people and everyone's an angry broke maladjusted motherfucking whacko who can barely exist in polite society, or ones who may as well live in a pod because working and consuming is their whole personality, and I go back to being convinced there's no possible way the system as we know it is going to last so you shouldn't put your chips on it.

I sort of wish society and economy would make up its mind as to where it's going so that it was easier to know what to do.
I'm fine with whatever option, it is what it is, but the establishment really needs to decide whether it's going to go off the rails or not and hit me up to let me know because this weird state of flux everything seems to be in really makes things difficult.
It really does seem like the well-adjusted people are few and far between though. I've known a great deal of people who went woke, stayed broke, I've known a statistically remarkable number of people who went tranny, and almost everyone I used to know never got out of little kid consoomerism. I've learned to limit who I associate with to remove the headaches. I've basically threw away most of my memories and mementos from youth because everyone associated with them went bonkers. Sometimes I don't know what other people on the farms talk about, so many people I've known or went to school with went so far left wing that I the only thing I can conclude is that other people haven't payed attention to how much other people have changed.

I have an in-between position. World is absolutely going to shit, propaganda is changing the world left and right and there really isn't hope for society long term. There's just no social forces and the dominant cultural narratives are pretty bleak. Millennials / Gen Z are much more receptive to socialism than prior generations, they care more about being offended than freedom, yadda yadda standard spiel. Regardless though there's a huge world outside of people and things to do. I can't stand what society has become so I just sort of disregard society. Anyway you'll find that usually the best option is, when you can, just don't compromise too much for the expectations of other people in this crazy society. Too many people today care about being liked by many people, and don't worry about the quality of those people. I say most people are trash, and people think that's me being an edgy misanthrope, and while I'm just stating facts, the uplifting part is that it's only most. As long as you have a good solid foundation (which still can be hard to find!) you should be content with that and not this tiktok celebrity culture where everyone is a spineless twerp worrying about what people think. How many of us have seen "shitlord" friends prostitute their values because of some girl or friend group that ended up treating them like trash anyway? Care about your circled wagon and laugh at the rest of the hoi polloi, that's one reason I browse the farms.

I've learned to embrace it. Unless I need to be liked (employment-related or whatever) I just say whatever crazy shit I want for laughs. The people that get offended? They were never worth getting to know anyway. They were gonna stab you in the back eventually anyway even if you didn't open your mouth. These perenniel losers are also just plain awful people. It's because they have no self-discipline and can't say no to themselves.

Whatever happens I've already sort of personally prepared for it anyway. I didn't think things would get this bad, but I knew it was going to get worse, I just didn't realize the left would end up caring about buttsex more than their faggy economic programs. I've had a lot of "I told you so"s though.
 
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Me too. I wish I could fit in with other people, I wish I understood how to be a socially healthy person. I wish I were just a run-of-the-mill moron, not a care in the world.
Why do you care what other people think? What's wrong with doing whatever you want and not giving a shit what other people think? That's the problem today, everyone cares what everyone thinks so people adopt this ludicrous unhealthy woke "gotta be nice to everyone all the time, can't be looked down upon" mindset where they are guided by approval. Look at all the super-wokie jobs, they're actors and stuff, jobs people go in to because they want public approval!

The true test of character is how you stand up to being ostracized anyway. Whether you're an ancient Christian standing among the Romans or a dirty hippie fighting enlisted servicemen, whether you change your beliefs or not to be liked or fit in is what makes you more of a man than anything else. Just turn on the TV and look at these trainwreck drug-addicted celebrities that "normal" people look up to. Do you want to be like them? Or do you just want to be liked by them? Why do you want to be liked by them? What value do they have to offer you? Or are you hoping you'll have camaraderie you never had before? Are you sure you really want it with them, though? Maybe what you want is something that doesn't exist and never existed.

We just saw social norms shift in ~20 years to not saying "shit" on TV to practically state-mandated homosexuality, you need to ask yourself, "do I want to be the kind of person that wildly shifts my values in pursuit of 'what's normal' or do I stand for something?" Because the normal person is the former.

Everywhere you go people live and lead by convention, either you're conventional and you're an everyman or you stand out in some way that most people don't like (no matter what they say to your face, people because are lying fuckers).
 
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