If you weren't held down by it you would not virtue signal about it every given chance.
Again, you're acting like a stereotypical 'recovery diva' junkie, you can keep being as much of a vainglorious cockmonger about how you are so much better than addicts and people who've never faced an addiction both, about how much of a strong special little bee you are for 'rebuilding', but most everyone will see through it. Funnily enough you are about the kind of obnoxious sanctimonious faglord I fully expect Nicky to turn into if he never gets clean, maybe you're seeing more of a mirror image in him than you let on.
As for making you leave? perish the thought, home grown cows are the best, it's just a matter of time.
Speaking of things you don't know? the minds of everyone on the forum, as you keep repeatedly assuming you do, take your own advice.
I hate how amerimutts have appropiated Yerba Mate and turned it into a shitty canned drink so much it's unreal.
At least pull a James Hetfield and drink the real thing.