I've definitely been blackpilled and am feeling great despair and hopeless anger. It feels like most of the people I know had their sleeper codes activated. I've been a lefty since I started to form my own opinions but this shit is so far out of hand I feel like I'm the one going nuts. I know that there's an old saying that people get more conservative as they get older, and I don't know if that's happening to me or if the progressive left has just gone so far beyond me and I don't want to catch up. Since getting labeled as a TERF for not wanting to allow tranny degeneracy to destroy the LGB community, I came to Kiwi Farms for some relief from r/gendercritical and their smug toothless "feminism" and have found this place to be a balm for my soul. I watched a close friend go from a fun, open-minded dude to the soyest of boys in less than a year and it was shocking.
However, I know for a fact that not all white liberals have completely lost it. Around 100 pages ago there was discussion about white teachers working in inner-city schools and their based descriptions about what it was like. I have a few (white, female, liberal) cousins who went through NYC's program to forgive your student debt in exchange for 2 years teaching in an impoverished school. These same cousins are not posting anything political on any social media right now and sticking to likes and comments on the proto-Karen black box posts. I suspect they had their own rude awakenings and are now keeping their mouths shut on their true feelings. Most of them are also married/engaged to blue-collar dudes who are neutral as they don't really have a dog in this fight. The same is true for the social media of women I went to high school/college with: most are virtue signalling like their wine budget depends on it, and others are quiet which makes me suspect they're doing so because of the current cultural zeitgeist.
I will never be truly redpilled because of the right's completely retarded takes on women, the gays, and abortion. Every time I read some alt-right stuff and see their asinine opinions on how white women should act, I'm reminded of why I started going left in the first place. If the right eased up on gays and abortions, and the edgy boys stopped posting stupid shit about breeding the new white race, get back in the kitchen kek, I'd probably be ready to go full 1488. They really need to get a clue or they'll spend the rest of their lives wondering why they're still tugging their teeny weenies on /pol/ while white women go running to make mulatto welfare checks with Tyrone. White women are hated in progressive circles right now because they see us as the plantation owner's wife and a co-conspirator in keeping the PoCs down, the right has the chance to take advantage of this and they're completely squandering it.
The whole reason I left the Catholic Church I was raised in was because I was completely sick of being told that I was a bad person for being born a gay woman, and that I could apologize my whole life for this and never truly be sorry enough. Now the people who I turned to want to tell me that I'm a bad person for being born a white American, and that I can apologize my whole life for this and never truly be sorry enough. Fuck that shit, it's okay to be white and it's okay to be proud of being an American! My ancestors came from Ireland in the 1890s, we were never slave owners and we had to struggle to be recognized as real people just like niggers, some of them served and died fighting for America! Where's my fucking reparations?
I'm moving in late July to FL, where you can get a gun with ease unlike cucked NYC. Hopefully America hasn't fallen to complete anarchy by then. I can't wait to shoot my first tranny antifa.