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Totally agree. To further expand on this, this is why Chris dropped the Magi-Chan body swap early on. Because, he couldn't keep up with the persona. He knows Magi-Chan is wise and all knowing and the superior father figure that can adult things. However, Chris couldn't do that in real life, and with Chris's mental state, he constantly breaks out of character and tards out. So to protect his fantasy, Chris quickly swaps back. Then comes Chris Chan (mama). Chris believes himself to be an intelligent goddess who is fated to save the world and merge and shit. But even he couldn't handle that. His constant tarding out, and the sense of powerlessness is also breaking his character as being a goddess, so with no choice, Chris decides to switch out to being Sonichu, which fits perfectly to Chris's intellect. This is why Chris pull the Sonichu act for so long, while praying for Mama ( the supreme woman figure that Chris always wanted to be/ Mother figure that he wants to coddle with because Barb is too old for that) to save him from reality.I think Chris knows he’s a tard, sadly.
(The happy tards always seem to be the ones blissfully unaware that they’re perpetually on life’s short bus.)
One of the earliest observers in known Christory, back in 2005, made this observation while watching Chris at the Alderman library in University of Virginia.
Surrounded by the "brightest" students in America, whatever that means, he sits in his chair and draws. 23 years old. I'm not sure he even graduated high school. In front of him texts of Plato, Faulkner, God, and Kleist swirl. Does he have the capacity to understand these works? Whether he can or not, I am not sure, but their is something in his eyes that realizes that there is a level of understanding and thought that he is unable to partake in. As he slumps lower and lower in his chair with each student he eyes reading or holding a book, he falls into himself- into the markers and colors on the page in front of him. (coffee idea) He seems intelligent enough to understand that he does not understand, and that is the hardest part of all.
We also had the numerous references in phone calls with Kacey and Jackie where Chris mentions how he’s “mentally slow” sometimes, or that Rocky tried to work with him on admitting that he’s retarded.
And now we see the head punches. (Which, granted, is probably also partly Chris trying to be zany and fun.)
So yeah. Chris knows he’s not all there, even if he sometimes blames it on “his autism”.
It’s probably also the one and only area in which I feel genuinely sorry for him. Being retarded but still smart enough to realize that you’re missing out, must be frustrating and hurtful.
But of course, he never really draws the correct consequence of that, and in the next sentence brags about being high functioning or a goddess or whatever.
C’est la Chris!
EDIT: Let just feast our eyes on this hearty chunk of autism for a second... Chris actually went to a university library, sitting there with his markers and his Gameboy, surrounded by students doing their homework or reading Schopenhauer, TRYING TO FIND A GIRLFRIEND, never even realizing how he might stand out.
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