On Stream Queens #2, Amber is currently crying that Becky is a LAH and there was no timer. Amber said that Becky would say she'd be gone for maybe 3 days and Amber would say "Okay, well just don't make it 4."
Amber fake cries for a few seconds with that fake constricted voice over Becky's LAHs before snapping back to total neutrality and then a few seconds later she's giggling and laughing.
Edit:
Question in the chat: "B said the kitty box was never cleaned by you."
Amber responded, "When we were in a relationship, 95% of the time, Beck did clean it." Amber then blames her never cleaning the litterboxes because she was bed bound and she physically couldn't... the entire 4 years she was in a relationship with Becky? She talks about how "OCD" she is about keeping the litterboxes clean, how much she loves to clean. "I shower now. I do everything by myself. I do my own laundry. I mop my own floor. I do everything by myself. Me. Amberlynn. I'm not the person I was 6 years ago."
Amber's now raging, "If Beck wants an apology, she needs to do that PRIVATELY." She hates that Becky is telling her side of the story.
Amber is now saying she "feels bad" that she treated Becky so badly that Becky is making videos about her "7 years later" and LAHing. Whenever Amber fakes taking accountability, she can't help but slam them at the same time.
She's basically saying, "Okay, yeah, I abused my girlfriend and I feel bad about it I guess, but THEY'RE STILL UPSET ABOUT IT 7 YEARS LATER??? LIKE GET OVER IT!!!! SHE'S A LAH."
Someone else in the chat says they've been through horrible trauma and that doesn't excuse bad behavior.
Amber responds, "BPD is in your brain. It's in your amygdala. It's... in really big words."
Amber starts talking about her brother Tony how he's always in and out of prison due to drug usage, then hints at things he's done even worse. She says that Tony acts like an asshole and goes to jail because of the trauma, so Amber acting like an asshole is just because she's a poor dainty gorl who is trying to protect herself. "It's not an excuse, but I hate when people say 'Okay but I've been through stuff.' It's really invalidating. I don't think it's fair. It's just invalidating. I don't want to invalidate myself. I don't want to see someone else see this and think 'Well, if Amberlynn is getting invalidating, that means I'm invalid, too.' "
She's an amazing case of manipulation and gaslighting. This is 14 year old teenage girl level of manipulation. It works very well in Jr. High but adults see through this shit.
She's now bragging about her stamina and how skinny people can't stand while cooking or showering, too. "If you're 150 pounds, sometimes you can run a mile, sometimes you can't. But you can increase your stamina. I used to have to sit while cooking." "But I built my stamina." "As someone who is 500 pounds, I did that! I'm able to walk a mile!"
She agrees with someone in the chat who says "It's not an own to make fun of someone with mobility issues."
She claims to intend to chip her pets sometimes in the future maybe.
Amber talks about going into temper tantrum episodes (she does literally call it temper tantrums) because of her BPD and says "some people say it's like being possessed."
"You literally can't regulate your emotions because when your brain was forming, it got fucked up."
It's not Amber's fault. Let her throw her temper tantrum demon possession BPD episodes. She needs sympathy, you guise. Can't we love our demon possessed gorl?? Just let her hurt you. Her mental health is at risk. It's not her, it's the BEEPEEDEE. She's the one who is hurting the most! It's not her fault!!!
Someone in the chat mentions the questions people have been asking, "If Amber wasn't bed bound or so fat, would she be physically abusive?"
Amber in response says that she's the one who gets physically abused, that she's such a passive gorlypop. Quote from Amber: "You can hit me, hit me, hit me and I'll take it. That's just me." "No. No!! NO!!!! I would never hit anyone. And you KNOW THAT." She talks about Destiny's mom throwing a k-cup holder at her and how she just took it and didn't hit back, which means that's how Amber acts all the time and she's never laid a finger on anyone.
Amber is now on an "intermission" to "let people go to the bathroom."
Everyone is staring at this lovely shot of her ceiling. All this for the low price of $9.99/month!
She's back and I noticed there isn't a single like over an hour and a half into the live.
She's talking about "splitting." I really don't need a DID arc.
Someone accuses Amber of stealing having BPD from Alexis. "I was actually diagnosed with BPD..." "Besides my weight, one of my biggest issues in life is having BPD."
Someone asks if Amber was diagnosed with BPD by a psychiatrist. Amber responds, "I was diagnosed by a psychologist. Psychiatrist is to get medication, psychologist is not."
Someone in the chat says that Amber looks up BPD symptoms and regurgitates it while lying that she has all the symptoms. Amber goes on this giggling rant that says she didn't even know what BPD was the entire time she was with Becky. "So you think *
giggle* the entire time I was with Beck I was looking up BPD symptoms when I didn't even know what it was???" "That's craaaaaaaazyyyyyy!!!!"
Didn't Amber claim she was diagnosed with BPD while she was with Becky? Because it was odd that Eric, Ricky, Becky, and Amber was diagnosed with BPD all at the same time. The gaycare era was wild. That caused the whole theory that Amber went to a therapist to get drugs. Now she's changing the story and saying she had no idea what BPD was the entire time she was with Becky.
"Invalidating my BPD is a BIG trigger for me! It really is!"
Amber addresses Becky's claims that Amber would hide about her weight. "I was always very upfront about my weight. I never cared. Like, are you joking??? That's the part where I'm just like whhhhuuuuuut????"
Claims to never have been over 580 pounds.
She goes on another rant about how Becky LAHs. But then talks about how she'd never say anything bad about Becky because "that's just not me." She's such a kind, innocent, good gorly! We totally believe you, Amber. /sneed