How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[queerape]

Having budding feelings for someone is a trip. I really hope it works out when I see him in a few days. Ive seen him online but both of us think it isnt enough. Feelings are hard.

 

[dingobaby]

Wishing I were outside more. Other than that I can't complain.

 

[Juan But Not Forgotten]

Agreed to change with my coworker, even though I'm free today and in constant pain due to this fucking skin disease. Realized, that I'm not even mad, but not because I want to help, rather because I'm so done with this shit, that I don't want to care anymore.

 

[Theropod T. Dinosaur]

Weirdly horrible. Currently shifting between thinking about how torn up I’d be if something bad happened to either of my parents and chewing myself up over things I can’t control.

 

[cuddle striker]

man, all I am is fuckin tired.
tired.

 

[A Beached Whale]

I'm covered in bug bites and welts that itch like hell. I haven't gone out much but the fucking mosquitos, or spiders, or whatever are getting in. It's the desert, it's to be expected. It's getting fucking unbearable though.

 

[Chan Fan]

Tough time sleeping at first, then I had a dream I was in a giant room filled with books and someone told me I could take whatever I wanted and I was so happy. Man, I miss book shopping (but I'm glad I'm alive and things are as well as they are)

 

[Duncan Hills Coffee]

I've always been prone to canker sores in my mouth. I think it's a genetic thing, since sometimes it's as though they just come out of nowhere. Right now I've got three, one on the inner part of my lip and two on my tongue, each on opposite sides. Talking's a real bitch because the ones on my tongue are positioned to where no matter what I do, at least one is touching my teeth. I've been gargling salt water and Listerine to try and numb it, which helps for a little bit.

 

[A Beached Whale]

I've always been prone to canker sores in my mouth. I think it's a genetic thing, since sometimes it's as though they just come out of nowhere. Right now I've got three, one on the inner part of my lip and two on my tongue, each on opposite sides. Talking's a real bitch because the ones on my tongue are positioned to where no matter what I do, at least one is touching my teeth. I've been gargling salt water and Listerine to try and numb it, which helps for a little bit.

I have them ocassionally too. About a week before my wedding I had one that was like a long strip on my lower gums. Dentist said it was probably from stress of all the planning. Whenever you're at home and don't need to talk, drop some orajel on those suckers. The taste is iffy but just spit it out once you get numb.

 

[KiwiJoe]

Should I really worry about what Josh has been saying about Section 230 and it potentially spelling the end of KF and potentially the (edgy) Internet itself? He knows more than me about tech and stuff, but I wonder if it's really something to keep worrying about or it's all speculation and wondering. I've been getting so invested into this community that's why despite being a long time lurker... I just feel... conflicted about this.

On one hand, everything is going well in my life. IRL side, things are going well, I'm saving up lots of money to buy stuff that I've always wanted to buy like a new Gaming PC, and getting a good job by this year's end. Internet side in other communities I'm in, also pretty good. I've been having almost too much media I plan to enjoy later like the hundreds of Mangas I have downloaded to read on my phone and Vidya to play.

But for KF, and the side of me that's in the edgy part of the internet, I still feel kinda worried, even a bit sad. KF really reminds me of the old glory days of ED where it was the fun edgy part of the internet where you can say whatever you want and drop N words, not take things too seriously, but it seems like with what Josh has been saying it can all end right here.

I dunno, it just all feels so tiresome.

 

[Dreams Mask]

Doing mentally horribly

 

[Ass eating cunt]

Absolutely awful, I was bored and looked up a bunch of conspiracy theories. But I forgot I am feeble minded and can't handle that kind of stuff, coupled with all the HAPPENING's and, well it's far from a mental breakdown but I certainly don't feel good at all. But I'm sure I bounce back to being alright after watching vinesauce and playing some more animal crossing

 

[Spamy the Bot]

Feeling fine. The world is on fire, at least that keeps my soul warm and fuzzy.
I fixed up some of my diet, getting rid of the excess caffeine and sugar. Step by step.

I am feeling a bit self conscious about my posting here, because I feel dumb.

Absolutely awful, I was bored and looked up a bunch of conspiracy theories. But I forgot I am feeble minded and can't handle that kind of stuff, coupled with all the HAPPENING's and, well it's far from a mental breakdown but I certainly don't feel good at all. But I'm sure I bounce back to being alright after watching vinesauce and playing some more animal crossing

If you are not big into following these happenings, a small break might help you.
Being online too much can cause an information and anxiety overload.

 

[KiwiJoe]

I just wonder how to cope with my last post in this thread. It really seems like 'Wild West' of the Internet has been dead for such a long time. KF is one of the few sites that remind me of that era. A decade and more ago, everything seemed so innocent and fun, you didn't need to take things so seriously, but now its like it can all be taken away by the powers that may be.

Sure my IRL life and other communities I'm in won't be affected much even if the worst comes. However I cannot imagine living without 'the edgy parts of the Internet' in my life. It provides a interesting contrast to the life I live. Balancing out the sweet yet orderly with the edgy yet free.

 

[Snollygoster]

Here stuck at home, I'm glad I still have a lot of cars left to repair to make use of my time.

 

[Bender]

I just wonder how to cope with my last post in this thread. It really seems like 'Wild West' of the Internet has been dead for such a long time. KF is one of the few sites that remind me of that era. A decade and more ago, everything seemed so innocent and fun, you didn't need to take things so seriously, but now its like it can all be taken away by the powers that may be.

Sure my IRL life and other communities I'm in won't be affected much even if the worst comes. However I cannot imagine living without 'the edgy parts of the Internet' in my life. It provides a interesting contrast to the life I live. Balancing out the sweet yet orderly with the edgy yet free.

In my experience the more that people worry about something the worse the result is, just carry on shitposting and have fun.

I am feeling a bit self conscious about my posting here, because I feel dumb.

Then your dumb posts will fit right in with mine and the other 50,000 users here. ❤

 

[KiwiJoe]

In my experience the more that people worry about something the worse the result is, just carry on shitposting and have fun.

Guess I'll keep posting everyday like its my last; aka, just enjoy!

 

[Chiang Kai-shek]

Trying to get myself to finish an actual drawing, I promised myself I'd do a lot of creative stuff during the quarantine. But I have trouble just doing creative stuff for fun, I have a lot of self-confidence issues and I don't think my stuff is that good. Which is odd because everyone tells me the opposite, not sure why that is. I just hate producing something that might be awful. Other than that work is being a pain, love the people there just the job itself ain't great. I might have to get quarantined because one of our coworkers might be showing symptoms of the coof. No confirmation or denial yet. In short, it could be worse. Looking at my creative block makes me think how eerily similar I am to Connor Bible's creative blocks and that is not a good thing.

 

[Pina Colada]

I've been good for the most part- been bicycling around my neighborhood and continuously job hunting with my uni's online career placement center (which was very helpful for finding me an internship). Been a bit mentally deflated with the nonstop HAPPENINGS, though.

Should I really worry about what Josh has been saying about Section 230 and it potentially spelling the end of KF and potentially the (edgy) Internet itself? He knows more than me about tech and stuff, but I wonder if it's really something to keep worrying about or it's all speculation and wondering. I've been getting so invested into this community that's why despite being a long time lurker... I just feel... conflicted about this.

On one hand, everything is going well in my life. IRL side, things are going well, I'm saving up lots of money to buy stuff that I've always wanted to buy like a new Gaming PC, and getting a good job by this year's end. Internet side in other communities I'm in, also pretty good. I've been having almost too much media I plan to enjoy later like the hundreds of Mangas I have downloaded to read on my phone and Vidya to play.

But for KF, and the side of me that's in the edgy part of the internet, I still feel kinda worried, even a bit sad. KF really reminds me of the old glory days of ED where it was the fun edgy part of the internet where you can say whatever you want and drop N words, not take things too seriously, but it seems like with what Josh has been saying it can all end right here.

I dunno, it just all feels so tiresome.

I'm cautiously optimistic little will come out of it, although the official repeal isn't out of the question (yet). It's good to have hope and faith in our community and embrace what we've become (well, when we don't fuck up and become lolcows ourselves)! I try to take my mind off it by catching up on my favorite threads, or just take breaks and go for a stroll, read something else (I've gone through 5 books since March!), draw, or talk with friends. Although we don't know what's going to happen, it hasn't become a priority one over a current pandemic. Still, it's surreal knowing how much time we've spent here getting to know people, laughing at weirdos, and discussing an Internet legend in real time- almost like it's become part of our "secret identities"!

 

[A Grey Cat]

Following news on the heroes act like crazy. I got and spent my corona cash already (not on stupid shit) I was (mostly) responsible with it but I tried to start a nest egg with it. But being out of work since feburay then waiting to get on the books at my new job cut a hole into it.

Now I'm just hoping this second wave even if it's the last gets past. Feels like I'm asking god for a second chance after he's given me more than I deserve while making the hollow promise this will be "the last one. "