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I have every reason to feel crappy today but I keep doing little things that are productive and it's helping me feel better
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The whole week has been shit but I finally got to make some delicious homemade bubble tea which actually made me so happy so hey there's that
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- Nov 28, 2018
Emotions are weird. The last couple days, I didn't feel shit. I was too busy focusing on the here and now, keeping my eyes and ears open for signs that a wild-eyed mob was going to personally destroy everything I had.
The city is coming back under control, from the sound of things. I know that a lot of other cities in the nation have not yet. I'm lucky in that regard.
The sense of imminent danger is gone. I'm finally starting to feel shit, and I'm angry. What sucks is that I don't know who specifically to be angry at; every fucking person on the internet is pointing fingers in every direction, including at me.
It's easiest for me to be angry at people trying to rationalize the shit that put me in danger. The people saying that "actually, some systemic capitalistic internalized institutional whackadoodle makes it very cool and good that random lunatics wanted to burn down your home" make my blood boil. But at the same time, I try to remember that internet opinions are merely internet opinions, and that if I start to take those too seriously, I'll lose my fucking mind. If I get autistically angry at every person who's Wrong On The Internet, I'll probably wind up with my own thread.
So I don't know. I want something to change, but I don't know how I can change anything simply by going through the usual channels (votes, etc). I'll probably arm up in the near future, though, because fuck living in fear of arson and home invasion.
The city is coming back under control, from the sound of things. I know that a lot of other cities in the nation have not yet. I'm lucky in that regard.
The sense of imminent danger is gone. I'm finally starting to feel shit, and I'm angry. What sucks is that I don't know who specifically to be angry at; every fucking person on the internet is pointing fingers in every direction, including at me.
It's easiest for me to be angry at people trying to rationalize the shit that put me in danger. The people saying that "actually, some systemic capitalistic internalized institutional whackadoodle makes it very cool and good that random lunatics wanted to burn down your home" make my blood boil. But at the same time, I try to remember that internet opinions are merely internet opinions, and that if I start to take those too seriously, I'll lose my fucking mind. If I get autistically angry at every person who's Wrong On The Internet, I'll probably wind up with my own thread.
So I don't know. I want something to change, but I don't know how I can change anything simply by going through the usual channels (votes, etc). I'll probably arm up in the near future, though, because fuck living in fear of arson and home invasion.
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- Nov 27, 2019
Had to unsubscribe to a few YT channels today that I really liked because they felt the need to share their virtue signaling politics. Like, you're an ASMR channel, just tap on things and make clicking sounds and STFU
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- Aug 7, 2017
I feel you on that matter. Something like this happened to me a moment ago. And for God's sake, this was just a channel that streams music, why do you have to do this?
Guts Gets Some
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- Nov 9, 2018
To be fair, most of the ones doing it (at least for me) were already on their way out. They hadn't made a good video in well over a year. I was just waiting for an excuse: and literally asking people to donate to domestic terrorism did it for me.
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Having a riot drawing big-booby demons for a new comic project. Also being visited by my bro, and a small doggo tomorrow - So looking forward to that.
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People are searching for justice in the USA right now. Simply so many protests. People are demanding justice. Screams for justice Roar into the air in the United States of America end the racism and white supremacy and police brutality in USA.
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- Jun 12, 2019
Almost out of food, no money till Monday. I wanted to lose weight but not like this
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- Nov 27, 2019
Happened again this morning, this time on a journal/pen pal/crafting channel. Appalling thing to wake up to. Unsubscribed. But I always feel better when I remember I'm not the only person who feels this way and I'm sure I'm not the only subscriber these channels are losing
Guts Gets Some
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Happened again this morning, this time on a journal/pen pal/crafting channel. Appalling thing to wake up to. Unsubscribed. But I always feel better when I remember I'm not the only person who feels this way and I'm sure I'm not the only subscriber these channels are losing
Definitely. It makes me happy for the same reasons, especially when others are roasting them in the comments too. It gives me a little bit of faith in humanity still.
Of course, the majority, as you'd expect are little sheep who are OMG SO HAPPY THEY DID THIS, but fuck them. They have to use entertainment Youtube channels to get the word out for their social justice.
Fucking sad.Got a question for you, were yours smaller channels or corporate ones? For me, it was always the latter; I generally hate the popular trending channels, but sometimes I was intrigued enough to sub. They're the ones (same with any corporation desperate to go with the flow for these psychos) who "proudly" declare how woke they are.
All of the other ones I'm subbed too are still large, but mostly independent and none of them had said anything, and probably don't agree either.
Lesson to be learned here, I think. Ditch the shills, go with the people actually passionate about their work.
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Definitely. It makes me happy for the same reasons, especially when others are roasting them in the comments too. It gives me a little bit of faith in humanity still.
Of course, the majority, as you'd expect are little sheep who are OMG SO HAPPY THEY DID THIS, but fuck them. They have to use entertainment Youtube channels to get the word out for their social justice.
Got a question for you, were yours smaller channels or corporate ones? For me, it was always the latter; I generally hate the popular trending channels, but sometimes I was intrigued enough to sub. They're the ones (same with any corporation desperate to go with the flow for these psychos) who "proudly" declare how woke they are.
All of the other ones I'm subbed too are still large, but mostly independent and none of them had said anything, and probably don't agree either.
Lesson to be learned here, I think. Ditch the shills, go with the people actually passionate about their work.
Not huge channels but ones who just have no stake in what's going on, like zero. One said she was so upset she couldn't even put her feelings into words and had to wait to put her feelings into words. So dumb. That's almost exactly what Uma Thurman said about Harvey Weinstein so it didn't even sound original lol
Guts Gets Some
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And then when the next huge thing happens, they won't remember this at all. We've seen it like.... 15 times this year already?
Typical idiots who just consume media blindly.
It's going to build up. Remember, reality isn't a TV show where everything immediately goes back to normal at the end of an episode.
Guts Gets Some
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The same with Trump "starting" WW3? His impeachment? Etc.
We'll see, but I've noticed this pattern a lot. Funny too how much Covid stopped being a thing when BLM got to riot too. Hmm.
Well, those previous things were completely inconsequential to 99.9% of people, just things they saw online and/or on TV. The COVID spergout affected pretty much everyone on Earth. Now mental health, the economy, and tons of other things are completely fucked in unprecedented ways. Just because they're not currently focusing on it doesn't mean the effects aren't still there.
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- Aug 5, 2018
Still having trouble finding a job, and my Trumpbux ran out weeks ago. I know I'll find something eventually, even if I have to relocate, but my optimism diminishes with each passing day.
On the bright side, I get to spend more time with my grandma and my pets, so silver lining and all that.
On the bright side, I get to spend more time with my grandma and my pets, so silver lining and all that.
Just found out I got a state scholarship that I applied for a week after the deadline. Covered $2500 of the last academic year.
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- Apr 5, 2018
Doing really good today! I have more energy than I've had in weeks and I cleaned the house. Kind of sleepy because I ate too many edibles, so I'm just watching animal videos.
Cows are so pretty. I never realized they were so big!!
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Mine ran out too, hey if the heroes act gets passed that means another round of trumpbux, though given the state of the union I doubt Congress will assemble soon let alone pass any bills for a while. Dammit Floyd you had to pick the week Congress was supposed to vote on that Bill to get high, steal smokes and die?