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Betonhaus said:
Forgiveness is not a right, or something you can be guanteed to earn with apologies and promises. Sometimes a relationship or a connection is pernamently severed, and the best you can do is accept that and move on, not spend years pleading and begging to be let back in
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Yes! Exactly! Thank you!

And here's my final commentary on this situation. This former neighbor also had the nerve to use the following excuses in an attempt to absolve himself:

I've had a hard life!
Okay. That's too bad, but it doesn't give you the right to turn around and make other people's lives hard. I've heard this so much that I've come to see it as an excuse. I feel like I can assume that these people with hard lives either learned nothing or they learned the wrong lessons.

Nobody's perfect!
No fucking shit! Again, this doesn't nor should it ever be an excuse to just become a worse person. Just because you can't be perfect doesn't mean you can't be better.

I'm only human!
So is everyone else! That doesn't make being a piece of shit okay!

I've had enough of people like this former neighbor who use these excuses, then they thrive because of other people's pity, fear, stupidity, complacency, and an urge to be seen as the second coming of Jesus because they took pity on a scumbag to feel good about themselves.

Thanks again for hearing me out everyone.
 
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Neighborhood Curmudgeon said:
I believe he has to live with what he did.
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He should be allowed another chance I suppose, but SOMEWHERE ELSE. I'd have done the same.
Betonhaus said:
Forgiveness is not a right, or something you can be guanteed to earn with apologies and promises. Sometimes a relationship or a connection is pernamently severed, and the best you can do is accept that and move on, not spend years pleading and begging to be let back in
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You can forgive. But if you forget you're a fucking fool.
 
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ForgedBlades said:
I'm currently sitting on the toilet and just realized there is no toilet paper (or Kleenex, or paper towels) in my house.
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Depending on the position of your shower relative to your toilet, and the length of the showerhead's tube, maybe you can powerwash your ass
 
Now that I'm done sperging about shitty people, I have something more pleasant to share: I had a full weekend of just doing nothing and I feel refreshed! Sleeping, doing stuff I like, spending time with family, and just being cozy and going nowhere are wonderful!

I don't envy anyone who has a busy weekend with lots of activities.
 
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Finally getting to relax after spending the whole winter renovating, fixing and building. I'm so worn out from working nonstop but now everything's done and I can look at my house without dreading the next big project. Hopefully gonna have some fun traveling with the wife and kids since I no longer live next to crackheads and don't have to worry about people breaking into my cars.
 
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My pain is getting worse again, and I need to decide if I take more medication (clouding my head) or suffer with it. If I suffer with it, I get smooth-brained anyway due to adrenaline and other wonderful chemicals released by the body because it perceives pain. If I take medication, it clouds my judgement and memory. I feel wonderful about the future. All I can do is try and keep moving so that the pain doesn't get worse due to inactivity, whilst trying to minimise the pain caused by exercise.

This is a fun balancing act. As well as all of the other wonderful things that come along with adulthood, that are too numerous, onerous and generally boring to mention.

If you reach the end of this screed, well done. Thanks for listening. I am moving countries soon and need to re-establish all of my pain management relationships(doctors, specialists, physios etcetera). This at the moment seems to be monumental.

This is all fairly basic pain-management stuff though, and I'm still on the topside of the soil.
 
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My pain is getting worse again, and I need to decide if I take more medication (clouding my head) or suffer with it. If I suffer with it, I get smooth-brained anyway due to adrenaline and other wonderful chemicals released by the body because it perceives pain. If I take medication, it clouds my judgement and memory. I feel wonderful about the future. All I can do is try and keep moving so that the pain doesn't get worse due to inactivity, whilst trying to minimise the pain caused by exercise.

This is a fun balancing act. As well as all of the other wonderful things that come along with adulthood, that are too numerous, onerous and generally boring to mention.

If you reach the end of this screed, well done. Thanks for listening. I am moving countries soon and need to re-establish all of my pain management relationships(doctors, specialists, physios etcetera). This at the moment seems to be monumental.

This is all fairly basic pain-management stuff though, and I'm still on the topside of the soil.
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Have you tried CBD M?
 
Lance Private Drop Off said:
My pain is getting worse again, and I need to decide if I take more medication (clouding my head) or suffer with it. If I suffer with it, I get smooth-brained anyway due to adrenaline and other wonderful chemicals released by the body because it perceives pain. If I take medication, it clouds my judgement and memory. I feel wonderful about the future. All I can do is try and keep moving so that the pain doesn't get worse due to inactivity, whilst trying to minimise the pain caused by exercise.

This is a fun balancing act. As well as all of the other wonderful things that come along with adulthood, that are too numerous, onerous and generally boring to mention.

If you reach the end of this screed, well done. Thanks for listening. I am moving countries soon and need to re-establish all of my pain management relationships(doctors, specialists, physios etcetera). This at the moment seems to be monumental.

This is all fairly basic pain-management stuff though, and I'm still on the topside of the soil.
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Damn I can't even imagine. Please don't lose hope. Is there a pain management group you can join in the new country? Maybe other people with chronic pain can give you some tips. Sometimes it helps to listen to fellow sufferers, only they can truly empathize with your situation.

Is your pain caused by some type of disease? Or an ugly fall that gave you complications? What kind of medication do they recommend?

Really hope things will get better for you.
 
Happened two weeks ago but I'm still replaying in my head when my boyfriend called me fat, insulted my personality, said nobody else would ever love me and would just use me unless I improved myself, and said I don't even look like a normal woman. This is because I wouldn't draw a picture of a hot girl for him since it's work and I was trying to relax. When I started crying he told me to go drink to feel better.

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I mean, pretty based and redpilled of him, and honestly he isn't wrong (I mean, I'm a female Kiwifarms user, I'm not exactly a catch). He hasn't done anything like that since, but I also haven't refused anything he wants since. I spend every day working on art he wants. Haven't even had the time for the most important thing of all, shitposting about internet weirdos on the fruit farm forum. He did give me a few days off for drawing for him for the holidays though, so at least there's that, and I've lost ten pounds since we got together (most of the time when he encourages me to lose weight it isn't as mean as it was there).

Still, if this relationship ends, I think this is the last time I'm dating men. I decided to give it one last go and I got this. Even the craziest chick I had a bit of a thing with (she was officially diagnosed BPD) didn't say stuff like that to me or make so many demands on my time.

Normally I don't talk about the mostly non-existent love life at all, much less on the Farms, but I'd honestly rather tell you niggers who will hand out some autism ratings and call me a niggerfaggot than anyone in my life.
 
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Happened two weeks ago but I'm still replaying in my head when my boyfriend called me fat, insulted my personality, said nobody else would ever love me and would just use me unless I improved myself, and said I don't even look like a normal woman. This is because I wouldn't draw a picture of a hot girl for him since it's work and I was trying to relax. When I started crying he told me to go drink to feel better.

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I mean, pretty based and redpilled of him, and honestly he isn't wrong (I mean, I'm a female Kiwifarms user, I'm not exactly a catch). He hasn't done anything like that since, but I also haven't refused anything he wants since. I spend every day working on art he wants. Haven't even had the time for the most important thing of all, shitposting about internet weirdos on the fruit farm forum. He did give me a few days off for drawing for him for the holidays though, so at least there's that, and I've lost ten pounds since we got together (most of the time when he encourages me to lose weight it isn't as mean as it was there).

Still, if this relationship ends, I think this is the last time I'm dating men. I decided to give it one last go and I got this. Even the craziest chick I had a bit of a thing with (she was officially diagnosed BPD) didn't say stuff like that to me or make so many demands on my time.

Normally I don't talk about the mostly non-existent love life at all, much less on the Farms, but I'd honestly rather tell you niggers who will hand out some autism ratings and call me a niggerfaggot than anyone in my life.
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First, if you think you should improve things about yourself, or if there's objective medical reasons to do it, then fucking do it. It's hard but what's the option, entering a loop of becoming worse, then feeling worse for it, then becoming worse for it, then feeling worse for it, and so on?

Second, don't roll over and comply with what anyone tells you just because they are mean to you and made you cry. What the fuck are you his employee? No, assert yourself. Tell this guy to fuck off. LowTierGod him, NOW!
Even more if you're an artist, if they're weak of character, they tend to get ran over by people who take advantage of them in every kind of relationship. So don't let them.

Third, don't dyke out. If you get unlucky and find shitty men, they be loud assholes but shitty women will dismantle your life if you give them the chance.

You're alright.
I'm going through my own shit and have been for a while now, but a line from a song I know usually helps me get centered during the bad bads:
Live through this, and you won't look back.

Song's kinda shit tho.
 
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Timmy Jolsen said:
Happened two weeks ago but I'm still replaying in my head when my boyfriend called me fat, insulted my personality, said nobody else would ever love me and would just use me unless I improved myself, and said I don't even look like a normal woman. This is because I wouldn't draw a picture of a hot girl for him since it's work and I was trying to relax. When I started crying he told me to go drink to feel better.

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I mean, pretty based and redpilled of him, and honestly he isn't wrong (I mean, I'm a female Kiwifarms user, I'm not exactly a catch). He hasn't done anything like that since, but I also haven't refused anything he wants since. I spend every day working on art he wants. Haven't even had the time for the most important thing of all, shitposting about internet weirdos on the fruit farm forum. He did give me a few days off for drawing for him for the holidays though, so at least there's that, and I've lost ten pounds since we got together (most of the time when he encourages me to lose weight it isn't as mean as it was there).

Still, if this relationship ends, I think this is the last time I'm dating men. I decided to give it one last go and I got this. Even the craziest chick I had a bit of a thing with (she was officially diagnosed BPD) didn't say stuff like that to me or make so many demands on my time.

Normally I don't talk about the mostly non-existent love life at all, much less on the Farms, but I'd honestly rather tell you niggers who will hand out some autism ratings and call me a niggerfaggot than anyone in my life.
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Not that you asked for advice or suggestions or anything, but why not dump this guy? He sounds like an asshole. I'm sure that you're no prize or anything, but you sound like a doormat for him. If anything you'd probably be better off spending some time alone to figure yourself out; you're dating men who act like shit (I use the plural because I'm sure he's not the first like this,) and the last woman you dated was BPD lmao. If it's some kind of deal where you rely on him financially so much that just leaving isn't as easy as a snap of your fingers, at least reach out to family or something if you can.
 
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I received a text that due to how well I'm doing, my therapy appointments are now moved to bi-weekly sessions
My male turtle stared at me as I was finishing my dinner and I'm drawing again
On a not so good note, my leg hurt because I smacked it against some solid wood in the Dom. Rep. I was given a sheet for exercises and my ankle is no longer swollen
 
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Got to spend some time with my niece today (I don't get to see her too often because she lives 2 hours away). I brought my Roland Lucina keytar out of storage and we played it for a while.

She also wanted to see some of the art I've been working on, and at one point we brainstormed monsters for a survival horror game. I promised her that once I can upgrade my laptop I'll download some game creation software and try to make the ideas into an actual game.

Life can be good.
 
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Got to spend some time with my niece today (I don't get to see her too often because she lives 2 hours away). I brought my Roland Lucina keytar out of storage and we played it for a while.

She also wanted to see some of the art I've been working on, and at one point we brainstormed monsters for a survival horror game. I promised her that once I can upgrade my laptop I'll download some game creation software and try to make the ideas into an actual game.

Life can be good.
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Man, I miss my five year old niece. Lives across the country from me in California and I find myself fearing for her safety a lot due to all the crazy shit there. Last time I was with her, she and I just played pretend with her toys and instructed me on how I should play with them, and I just went along with whatever she told me.

Also saw the Puss in Boots movie with her and she decided to sit on my lap and curl up on me for a while in the theater. Made me feel all fuzzy inside. When I told her mom about it she went, "You really just let her get out of her seat and do that?" I'll admit, I spoil her a bit.

Love that little girl. Closest thing I have to a daughter.
 
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