How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

Today was the last day of my seasonal job. We had a going away party for all the staff. It was pretty nice.

Not sure how I feel about the forum essentially going into limp mode, but TBH its kinda nice to not be under fire from drama and the media for just a hot minute. If people think that we're dead let them keep thinking that for the time being.
 
Today was the last day of my seasonal job. We had a going away party for all the staff. It was pretty nice.

Not sure how I feel about the forum essentially going into limp mode, but TBH its kinda nice to not be under fire from drama and the media for just a hot minute. If people think that we're dead let them keep thinking that for the time being.
Just relax and let the ropes absorb the impact, they'll punch themselves out eventually.
 
Well It's almost midnight and i have work in a few hours but cant sleep, My feet are still giving me problems and it's starting to affect how I function at work, and as a bonus i can't tell if it's just a case of bad shoes causing sore or developing skin cancer,oh and to top it all off the site's gone underground with only tor barley holding it together with duct tape and chewing gum. I can only access the farms from my home computer...



So I'm just fine and dandy, it's sunshine and lollipops, how bout you?

Gonna try and get some sleep now goodnight gentlemen...

 
My boss asked me to loan him a couple thousand dollars under the table on Saturday. I lied and said I didn't have what he was asking for in my checking account which prompted me to go on a guilt-ridden drinking bender exacerbated by this bullshit with Cloudflare. The long weekend is over and I pray that tomorrow I will be far too busy for it to even come up.

So I'm feeling shitty for a bunch of reasons, but not so shitty that I can't function. There's money to be made, after all.
 
I feel like complete shit. My home life sucks and i feel as if nobody i know in real life, friends or family, gives me the respect i feel i deserve, everything i do or say is second guessed, ignored or undermined and its very soul draining. Ive been trying to shake it off or avoid it but i thrive on the approval of others, nothing is worse than disapproval for me.
This is why places such as KF matter so much to me and i really hope it continues to exist in some form for the forseeable, nobody has to know who I am or what I've done in my past.
 
I'm sad that the farms have been reduced to this but I'm also kind of glad for the distance. I've been getting some good irl opportunities recently and I think posting on here made me a more confident person offline.

I know caring about stickers is dumb and gay but having a place where my thoughts, even dumb one-off shitposts get honest feedback helped break me out of the "everything you say is stupid and nobody cares" cycle of self-loathing I had been in for a long time. we need more sites like this online and not just narcissist hugboxes
 
Tomorrow, I have to put down my dog.
He is still happy and functional , but the tumor he has is killing him.
I don't want him to suffer.
Aw that's awful, I'm so sorry. I know the feeling, my dog had to be put to sleep just recently. Just know that it's the right thing to do, even if it's a hard and painful thing to do. I'm sure he's grateful for the wonderful life you gave him and would rather his life end on a good note than suffer. Take care, fren <3
 
Tomorrow, I have to put down my dog.
He is still happy and functional , but the tumor he has is killing him.
I don't want him to suffer.
Animals don't, in my opinion, have the ability to think about the future, regret what they're going to miss, etc, and because of that there is little to look forward to and what they feel from moment to moment they feel intensely.

So it's a good thing - selfless - to put the dog down before he starts to suffer real badly, because unlike a person there's no reward to their troubles.

One of my dogs died recently of what was probably Alzheimers and I wish we'd just put her down long ago.
 
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