How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

The motherfucking neighbor far away enough for me to not know who it is yet close enough to hear it has an alarm going off multiple times a day for hours on end. It was on Friday night for like 4 hours, it was back on when we left the house on Saturday, and it went off again a few hours ago. I guess they could be on vacation or dead (in which case I'd feel like a cunt for whining about noise and not calling in a vague wellness check) but wow is this obnoxious. Still not going to do anything about it though, last time I tried to be a good citizen and call in weird shit, the non-emergency operator was too busy asking me about what guns we owned for the safety of officers I didn't want to meet to start with to decide whether or not a fence-jumping nigger a few properties down was worth investigating, so I just hung up after talking around in circles for a few minutes and told the neighbors to watch out the next day.

It's driving me nuts, it's just audible enough to disturb my whole falling asleep peacefully deal.
 
Went 8 weeks without drinking, tried it again to see if it was any fun. Spoiler: it wasn't. But now I'm sort of back on the train; "Ooh it's friday, I earned this!" (I didn't).

Even when I was in employment, I didn't feel like I had to 'reward' myself on a friday night. It's also literal labor to get drunk, having to down a few glasses to feel shit and then pour out the last one and go to bed out of boredom. I'd love to just go full-on sober but I recognize I'm a shy person and could need it to put a hand on the missus if I ever land one, so going full sober seems like a needless idea.
 
Went 8 weeks without drinking, tried it again to see if it was any fun. Spoiler: it wasn't. But now I'm sort of back on the train; "Ooh it's friday, I earned this!" (I didn't).

Even when I was in employment, I didn't feel like I had to 'reward' myself on a friday night. It's also literal labor to get drunk, having to down a few glasses to feel shit and then pour out the last one and go to bed out of boredom. I'd love to just go full-on sober but I recognize I'm a shy person and could need it to put a hand on the missus if I ever land one, so going full sober seems like a needless idea.
did you lose any weight after you quit drinking for 8 weeks? I think a steady habit of drinking beer has been bad for my waist line and im considering quitting
 
Been feeling great since Spring started in earnest. I'm exercising again and my conditioning is already back in me. It's got me feeling so good and filled with energy that I'm downright restless. I'm thinking about using the momentum as best I can this year.
 
I found a way to play Mario Kart Double Dash online with my friend and now we've made it a thing we do Friday nights. At first the idea of being a grown man playing Mario Kart seemed sort of lame to me, but its been surprisingly fun.
 
Autistic post but. Hanging's meant to be the most efficient way out right? Or is that completely wrong?
If youre really gonna do it, buy a shit ton of balloons, tie them to your waist, and jump off a cliff. Try to get enough so you actually float away. Dont be a drag, do something so reckless for you only that it might give you back your will to live
 
Yesterday I discovered that some key aspects of my career plan may not happen as-is, but it seems like with some work I should still be able to get there.
 
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I have to handle some legal stuff downtown for my family since I'm the most effective gofer they have right now. I don't mind it in itself but there's someone I used to know who works as a cop and I dread meeting them again. Luckily, it turns out to be the county sheriffs in charge of the actual courthouse so I don't seem likely to meet them. Still, I ended up nervous the first time I went. I'm glad that I come off as still being college aged because otherwise, I don't think all the people downtown would have been as forgiving of how nervous I was being. Otherwise, I'm doing great with the tax return coming in. I'll have a lot of work dealing with that as time goes on anyway.
 
Me: "Hey doc can you fix this?"
Doc: "No go to this specialist instead. That'll be $259 for the visit where all I did is give you a referral"
Me: "Hey specialist can you fix this?"
Specialist: "Sure I can do it for $4,000. And $254 for a follow appointment. And $176 for a 4 minute long phone call. And $36 for a prescription."
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And after all that? It didn't fix it. It was all unnecessary. A $7 over the counter paste is what ended up fixing it.

:gunt: I'm dead inside:gunt:
 
I need to vent about this to someone, somewhere. I'm stranded in an airport and have been since 10AM EST (actually a bit earlier).

They had maintenance issues on my plane and replaced it with a smaller plane with half the capacity. Delay after delay. Half of us got bumped off and we mobbed to customer service for refunds and vouchers. I got a ticket for tomorrow for twice the price on a different airline (JetBlue). Fuck my life.

I am never flying Frontier again. Being cheap isn't worth this shit.
 
Haven’t been myself for five days. I have no motivation to be productive. Up until Friday, I could barely articulate my thoughts. I don’t want to draw, I don’t want to eat and I can’t even play video games for more than 20 minutes. I have no ideas, inspiration or motivation to do anything. I don’t even want to go to church today. All I want to do is sleep. I don’t want to be conscious.

I haven’t told my friends or family the extent of my feelings cause I don’t want to be a burden. I don’t think I’m going to get better. I’m just hoping this passes and I wake up tomorrow not feeling utterly broken by nothing.
 
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