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The shit we talk about with these people on KF is no joke and they exist in huge numbers in college where everyone is "trying to find themselves" and there's pressure to "make an identity" while on social media competing with everyone else for being unique and compelling in some way.
I see troons around more and more in general ever since the middle of last year, even in my Little Mecca part of town. It's unnerving. The last one i saw was so hideous, "Goodbye Horses" by Q-Lazarus started to play in my head immediately.

Edit: For comparison, i saw exactly one troon in the wild in the five years before that.
 
While you won't neccessarily get holed up with one you will definitly see them in your courses and on campus if it's anything like here. Kid brother, who's also early twenties, very aware of the troon menace and arguably more militant than myself when it comes to being anti-gay, started uni last year, after finishing his apprentenceship in a staunchly working-class field. He called me up after his first week, sounding exhausted and a little bit scared and told me "[My name]... there are people with pronoun pins here. And trannies. They are all REAL! The ukrainian chick in my course told me she's non-binary!", it was hilarious :story:
Goodness, it reminds me of my university days. Graduated four years ago and when I first began, things were chill. But suddenly, more trannies and gender specials popped up. People who had been basic white girls, suddenly dyed their hair and changed their names, and insisted that the proper pronouns be used.

I distinctly remember a weird little exchange during a morning course in German (I am a lit student graduate and the curriculum demanded that we look at literature through history, through different languages, hereunder German) and our professor, a stellar lector and a very nice man, using a saying that was pretty innocent. Directly translated, it essentially means "every man", and is used to address a large group of people from a position of authority.

Historically used in a military setting AFAIK but has been adopted for everyday speech. So by teachers and parents and whatnot.

Well, this tutu-wearing gender special had a hissyfit, standing up and going; "Excuse me, I'm not a man!" No, she was not but she was also not the only woman that day and no one else gave a shit.

A less egregious example was during my final year when this long-haired natural blonde girl I rarely talked to but was otherwise on neutral terms with suddenly showed up with short blue hair, changing her name and going by "they/them"

And the lector just rolled with it and I was fucking confused for half the class. A lot of the lectors for that understudy did actually, with one outright lecturing us in "heteronormativity"

Poor girl drank the troonshine fully. In the following years, she went on pride parades in BDSM gear and cut off her tits.
Universities are full of people who are not critical thinkers. I was really shocked by how dim-witted most students were when I went. You would be disturbed by how poor the writing will be from other students. Random posters on KF generally write better than most undergraduates do, and ideas in random posts will be more developed. University can be a very sobering experience.
Interesting. I thought the people I went to Uni with were actually pretty smart and well-spoken but I suppose you have to be somewhat competent linguistically when you're studying literature and producing some of your own through the courses outside the usual written exam and the thesis.

Now the emotional maturity on the other hand....yeah, that's a whole different story. I remember being so disappointed when I started and there were cliques and drama and infighting and gossiping. Granted, most people here are 19 or 20 when they enroll so I guess it's just a given.
I see troons around more and more in general ever since the middle of last year, even in my Little Mecca part of town. It's unnerving.
I feel strangely blessed in that regard. I live in Pitstop-for-cheap-hotdogs town, United Nations of Eurobeat. And I haven't seen a troon in my town. I know there are troons in the municipality but they gather elsewhere and leave my corner of the universe alone.

Pride Month is a non-factor here. No flags, no parades, no nothing. People just don't give a shit and admittedly it's refreshing. It might change when I move but right now, I'm enjoying the peace and quiet.
 
A less egregious example was during my final year when this long-haired natural blonde girl I rarely talked to but was otherwise on neutral terms with suddenly showed up with short blue hair, changing her name and going by "they/them"

And the lector just rolled with it and I was fucking confused for half the class. A lot of the lectors for that understudy did actually, with one outright lecturing us in "heteronormativity"

Poor girl drank the troonshine fully. In the following years, she went on pride parades in BDSM gear and cut off her tits.
Truly horrifying story. I also can't put in words how much i hate the word "heteronormative" and all the other troon/therapy speak ("Neurodivergent" is another big one, pure hate) that's slowly creeping its way into everyday jargon.
 
I feel pretty good for the first time in a while. I fucked up my knee last week and haven't been able to run, but my lifts are better than they've ever been, and I played drums and didn't hate it for once. Starting to get a better idea of what I actually want from the rest of my life, and becoming okay with it being nontraditional.

Also Arthur The King is an okay movie. Looking forward to Love Lies Bleeding this weekend.
 
It's looking like chamomile and/or related herbs make me feel like I'm going to have a panic attack. My mind is calm, but it feels like my adrenals are firing off and my heart is beating a bit hard. I'm freaking out physiologically while not worried about anything at all. Looks like I'm sticking to melatonin.
 
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In Taiwan it is illegal to teach kindergartners English. I agree with the sentiment behind the law about promoting mother language and culture, but like most laws in Taiwan it is largely ignored, and bilingual kindergartens are a big industry here
English proficiency makes children even more vulnerable to grooming by troons being indoctrinated with ideals that are detrimental to their home culture, so I can see why Taiwan would have those laws
 
Feeling pretty trapped in life.

I got a years worth of rent saved up and some change, and been thinking of quitting my job and finding some part time gig but also got medical debt worth as much as a years worth of rent and want that gone before I do anything too extreme.

The debt isn't too insane but it'd take six more months to pay it off and I just don't have it in me anymore to come in and deal with work place politics and doing over 100 hours every fucking two weeks.

The overtime isn't worth it, I'm so far behind on personal projects that should of been done in January and I barely get to spend time with my better half anymore.

Having the boss suddenly drop the news of tomorrow being a 12 to 15 hour day has broken something inside me today.

It's not his fault, the people who run this shit show never tell any of us drones about big projects until the day before because of the lack of respect around here for employees not part of the upper inner circle and I don't want to leave him hanging but I just can't continue with this.
 
Truly horrifying story. I also can't put in words how much i hate the word "heteronormative" and all the other troon/therapy speak ("Neurodivergent" is another big one, pure hate) that's slowly creeping its way into everyday jargon.
Which in turn makes "neurotypical" sound like an insult. Ironically I respond better to "neurospicy" but neurodivergent makes autism and ADHD and all that shit sound like a special superpower. It's borderline indigo child shit.

100 hours every fucking two weeks.
That sounds like absolute hell, Jesus. I don't have any decent advice but please take care of yourself somehow and put your health and wellbeing first and foremost.

Probably not the most useful advice but idk, sounds like a nervous breakdown waiting to happen and that shit sucks.
 
In Taiwan it is illegal to teach kindergartners English. I agree with the sentiment behind the law about promoting mother language and culture, but like most laws in Taiwan it is largely ignored, and bilingual kindergartens are a big industry here. Raids are only a problem if the school pissed someone off who narcs or the owners do something to get on the Ministry of Education's shit list. If I get caught teaching, then I could be deported for violating my visa (on paper I am still employed at my original school). Life as an international teacher can be interesting.
I love that you can honestly describe yourself to people as a Rogue Language Teacher or an Undercover Teacher.

"There are only two rules about Book Club. First rule: Don't talk about Book Club!"
 
Feeling pretty trapped in life.

I got a years worth of rent saved up and some change, and been thinking of quitting my job and finding some part time gig but also got medical debt worth as much as a years worth of rent and want that gone before I do anything too extreme.

The debt isn't too insane but it'd take six more months to pay it off and I just don't have it in me anymore to come in and deal with work place politics and doing over 100 hours every fucking two weeks.

The overtime isn't worth it, I'm so far behind on personal projects that should of been done in January and I barely get to spend time with my better half anymore.

Having the boss suddenly drop the news of tomorrow being a 12 to 15 hour day has broken something inside me today.

It's not his fault, the people who run this shit show never tell any of us drones about big projects until the day before because of the lack of respect around here for employees not part of the upper inner circle and I don't want to leave him hanging but I just can't continue with this.
I'm sorry to hear that. I was once in a similar-ish situation work wise but I was lucky enough not to have a medical issue hanging over me (other than the exhaustion of the work). What happens if you just tell your boss 'I'm sorry but I'm burning out and I'll do my standard work day but it's either that or I quit altogether.'
 
Haven't had a checkup in years, my health has been questionable with downs and ups, the algorithm has been throwing "everyone has ass cancer" articles at me, and I've noticed everyone becoming increasingly erratic.
Hard to keep a positive attitude, but I'm doing it.
Make an appointment.

Please. It’s the best thing you can do. I was literally in your boat last year around this time. Made myself sick with worry, assuming every targeted medical ad knew more than I did, etc.

And I broke down and made the appointment. And in the end it was 90% stress from not knowing that was causing most of my issues.

You’d be shocked, stress can and will kill.

For your own mental health I would love it if you’d reach out and make an appointment
 
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