I have a ton of work to do that I'm not doing. Basically, to finish graduate school I have to get a job, which means hundreds of applications (and it's not a good situation, it used to be a guaranteed job when I started this stuff but even my field is beginning to unravel, academia is a bubble and COVID and its consequences made it worse) and tinkering on my dissertation chapter, which is used as a proof for hiring committees. But I don't bother with the latter.
My students are shitty this year, I don't know if I just had good luck last year or if I'm having bad luck this year, but they're not rewarding to deal with, low effort simpletons.
What's a real problem, though, is that I have a constant brain fog on me. It comes and goes but much of the time I'm sick. Much of it is likely greatly worsened if not outright caused by lifestyle choices. I don't drink near as much (at least, I think) as I used to, but I do smoke cigars now, which in theory is fine (even the FDA doesn't really care if you stay below two a day), but isn't. I think that stuff does have an impact because, aside from making the throat sore, I feel a weird sort of tobacco hangover the next day. There's also overeating, I really swelled in graduate school. But even aside from all that I do get sick from my students, and this fog is something new, I've never had a problem like this with feeling mostly physically fine but having a brain that just doesn't want to work when I go home. I've just kind of vegetated all day. When you see me posting all day long on here, especially in the Games subforum, that's because I'm not doing well, I'm burying myself.
