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Just about every relationship or attempt to is basically a show or a Shakespeare's tragedy.
I understand life's a show and we're all actors but damn.
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I understand life's a show and we're all actors but damn.
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You can do it bro. The process of tapering was so absolutely fucking unpleasant that any time I even considered smoking again, I remembered it. I don't ever want to do that again. The last date I smoked a cigarette was December 19, 2001.
It's well worth quitting that shit forever.
themanwhowalks
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- May 6, 2024
Frustrated with my location, career, and general outlook. I really don't know what to do everyday. I'm nearly 25 now and really I feel like I'm back where I started when I was 18.
I was considering moving to a nearby city in TN, I've even have a few job offers that have decentish pay, but really I'm having second thoughts now. It would be a repeat of behavior I already had.
My family are on the other side of the country and I've only seen them a few times in the past couple of years because of work. So, I'm also considering moving back there and staying for a month.
Usually I'm a pretty decisive person, but I'm just having a hard time. I'm realizing I've been pretty unhappy for quite a while and now I just feel demoralized. I was seeing a girl for a little, but she lived an hour away.
I tried going out and finding stuff to do that wasn't work and it just made me realize how much this place genuinely sucks - its not particularly beautiful, there's a good amount of crime -- there's gunshots around my apartment complex every weekend -- and everything has this blanket of seediness to it.
I was considering moving to a nearby city in TN, I've even have a few job offers that have decentish pay, but really I'm having second thoughts now. It would be a repeat of behavior I already had.
My family are on the other side of the country and I've only seen them a few times in the past couple of years because of work. So, I'm also considering moving back there and staying for a month.
Usually I'm a pretty decisive person, but I'm just having a hard time. I'm realizing I've been pretty unhappy for quite a while and now I just feel demoralized. I was seeing a girl for a little, but she lived an hour away.
I tried going out and finding stuff to do that wasn't work and it just made me realize how much this place genuinely sucks - its not particularly beautiful, there's a good amount of crime -- there's gunshots around my apartment complex every weekend -- and everything has this blanket of seediness to it.
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I liked when the reacts were relegated to the gaytism page and not my notifications.
Anyways I went skiing for the first time in 10 years and I had a lot of fun, but I hurt.
Anyways I went skiing for the first time in 10 years and I had a lot of fun, but I hurt.
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- Nov 21, 2020
I thought I'd like them back, but I just turned off the notifications. The reactions page gives context which makes it more useful.
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- Apr 20, 2021
I feel so relieved to return to my gated community. Someone tried to rob me at gunpoint and even tried to take my phone but I managed to escape without getting shot. It was the most surreal moment of my life.
KokoroMcCoco
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- Nov 8, 2024
Well, the past couple days have been tiring because…baby’s finally here! She’s adorable and small and sleeps a lot and I love her immensely. She was 2 weeks early and had to spend a night in the NICU for jaundice, but she’s perfect and my partner and I adore her. She’s the first 2025 baby in the family and I can’t wait to watch her grow up and celebrate every milestone with her.
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- Sep 24, 2024
After 3 months of unemployment, I finally got a job offer recently! It’s not as nice as my previous job, but I’m just glad I’ll be having a second source of household income again soon. All that’s left is the background check and drug screening, but I should be squeaky clean on both of those 
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- Jun 24, 2020
Snow day from work today. Though I need to get back on my emergency prepping game. Had to venture out to the grocery store and get more food.
Thank heavens for all-wheel drive.
Thank heavens for all-wheel drive.
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- Jan 22, 2023
Funny to read that because people are always forcing the ol' "humans are social creatures" meme but I sometimes think this saying is taken out of context given the amount of trouble relationships can cause.
Intimate relationships or relationships that could've been seem to be the easiest path to hell. Perhaps that's why I'm used to spend time with myself. That, mediocre social skills and experience in dealing with people both in private and professional life. And what did they give me in exchange? Frequent migraines and stress to the point of thinking about offing myself.
I see no positive traits in other people. I tend to distinguish them by how much bothersome or loathsome they are. It's how always has been and always will be 'till the day I die.
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- Aug 30, 2024
I agree. It's hard not to be a misanthrope
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- Dec 2, 2023
Coworker looked suicidal today. Didn't want to answer why. Found out that on January 3rd, he and his wife went for a scheduled fetal ultrasound. The machine detected heart and kidney abnormalities along with limb deformation. First time in mu life I've felt so completely stupefied. How do you even comfort a person receiving such grave news? Hope that the readings were wrong?
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- May 26, 2024
I'm eating strawberry yogurt
I love yogurt!
EDIT: I was expecting it to be the chunky kind and there aren't even chunks! Feels Fantastic!
I love yogurt!
EDIT: I was expecting it to be the chunky kind and there aren't even chunks! Feels Fantastic!
GoodOldDaysAfter 9/11
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One of my cats was diagnosed with FIV some time ago. He passed away earlier this afternoon. I'm really gonna fucking miss that little guy.
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- Aug 19, 2022
Have you had the oui yogurts that come in little glass jars? They're addicting half for the fact they come in little glass jars- they sell lids made to fit them (link). They're probably my favorite non-protein yogurt. Very rich, custardy, and not too sweet. They sell both "blended" and "fruit on the bottom" french-style yogurt. The blended blueberry is my favorite.
I know people always stan for the chobani flips but they are total scams: shrinkflation hit them really hard and now you get barely any toppings and barely any (highly sugared) yogurt.
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I've got an appointment in a few weeks to see if I'm a good candidate for a vision surgery. I'm trying to not get too weird about it/get too far ahead of myself thinking about how it could affect my life. I'm a little young for this type of surgery and there's a fair chance my prescription hasn't yet stabilized/my eyes are still getting worse. I have high astigmatism and myopia, and completed vitreous detachment in one eye and the other is getting there, and somehow this caused damage to my retinas that's probably reversible by surgery but I'm kinda foggy on the particulars.
I just think I will be really upset if it becomes a matter of "you need to be blind your entire 20s before we will make you less blind." My family has been on my ass for years that I should get a surgery like this, and I think they will be even less understanding/hassle me if I do have to wait. They really don't get that I'm definitely not a candidate for LASIK like all their coworkers/buddies who no longer need glasses, it's not going to be so straightforward for me- but there's a lot more than LASIK out there. Losing my license because my vision became uncorrectable was one of the biggest losses in my life and it was a shock. I spent most of my life thinking of myself as just that loser with bad eyes, just "glasses kid". It really was a total shock when I realized I crossed the threshold between "lol your glasses are thick" and "you are legally blind." Never thought I'd go from "glasses kid" to "blind in my 20s." My family took it rough, my employer took it rough, and some of my friends get it and some don't.
I also feel like an idiot, thinking back on certain things I did when I didn't realize what the deal was. I got a side job in a ice cream parlor, the trendy GenZ type with large, complex items- they had all the tickets up on the line, and all the recipes printed on little notecards taped above that. I could not read the tickets or the recipe cards, and I could not memorize their gigantic, ever-changing menu. So I quit. There were other factors, like they couldn't really give me the hours/days I wanted and my other job had to take priority, but really I had to quit that job because I was too blind for the work. But I didn't discuss that with anyone, and I didn't even really let myself think about it, because I figured it would make a bunch of people in my life freak out that I should also quit my current job. I guess I did eventually did move departments, but I don't believe my vision played a role in that.
My biggest takeaway is that I'm glad I'm Christian because 100% I would be unbearably angsty about this if I had not found God. I am still pretty angsty as is normal, but seriously sometimes I think, well God loved people with physical impairments. Even if I do become too blind for my current line of work, it doesn't diminish my value in the eyes of God. God is pretty supremely understanding of that type of thing- even if my family isn't. My birth mother cried and cried when I lost my license and seemed to do everything in her power to make me feel bad and still has not stopped asking "Are the doctors going to fix you? Have you made the appointment to see them???" It is going to be so, so freaking bad if they want me to wait until I get older.
I just think I will be really upset if it becomes a matter of "you need to be blind your entire 20s before we will make you less blind." My family has been on my ass for years that I should get a surgery like this, and I think they will be even less understanding/hassle me if I do have to wait. They really don't get that I'm definitely not a candidate for LASIK like all their coworkers/buddies who no longer need glasses, it's not going to be so straightforward for me- but there's a lot more than LASIK out there. Losing my license because my vision became uncorrectable was one of the biggest losses in my life and it was a shock. I spent most of my life thinking of myself as just that loser with bad eyes, just "glasses kid". It really was a total shock when I realized I crossed the threshold between "lol your glasses are thick" and "you are legally blind." Never thought I'd go from "glasses kid" to "blind in my 20s." My family took it rough, my employer took it rough, and some of my friends get it and some don't.
I also feel like an idiot, thinking back on certain things I did when I didn't realize what the deal was. I got a side job in a ice cream parlor, the trendy GenZ type with large, complex items- they had all the tickets up on the line, and all the recipes printed on little notecards taped above that. I could not read the tickets or the recipe cards, and I could not memorize their gigantic, ever-changing menu. So I quit. There were other factors, like they couldn't really give me the hours/days I wanted and my other job had to take priority, but really I had to quit that job because I was too blind for the work. But I didn't discuss that with anyone, and I didn't even really let myself think about it, because I figured it would make a bunch of people in my life freak out that I should also quit my current job. I guess I did eventually did move departments, but I don't believe my vision played a role in that.
My biggest takeaway is that I'm glad I'm Christian because 100% I would be unbearably angsty about this if I had not found God. I am still pretty angsty as is normal, but seriously sometimes I think, well God loved people with physical impairments. Even if I do become too blind for my current line of work, it doesn't diminish my value in the eyes of God. God is pretty supremely understanding of that type of thing- even if my family isn't. My birth mother cried and cried when I lost my license and seemed to do everything in her power to make me feel bad and still has not stopped asking "Are the doctors going to fix you? Have you made the appointment to see them???" It is going to be so, so freaking bad if they want me to wait until I get older.
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I ditched work today for some remedial training in REDACTED. Luckily I didn't forget nearly as much as I expected. Took way longer than expected though. But I can practice without supervision again and maybe I'll be able to share a non-phonebookable picture sometime.
Also, apparently all my hobbies are way too expensive. A guy suggested I should get an upgrade to one of my tools. $2500.... sigh... the problem is, he's right and it's a very good upgrade.
Also, apparently all my hobbies are way too expensive. A guy suggested I should get an upgrade to one of my tools. $2500.... sigh... the problem is, he's right and it's a very good upgrade.
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- Aug 12, 2019
I had the most sick and all around fucked up stray cat show up to my house not long ago. He’s so sick that the other strays avoid him (not going to go into details about his condition because its disturbing)…he’s too fragile to catch in a net so I attempted with a trap, he’s too smart and recognizes it for what it is. No luck.
So he’s stayed in my little cat house on the porch that I have a heat lamp in…so hard to look at that it makes me cry, but I’ve come to love this poor miserable thing. Done everything I can to make him comfortable and feel loved. And have been happy because he’s finally warmed up to me and trusts me…he has even started rubbing up against my leg…and now that I’ve gained his trust and I can most likely pick him up without him running, I know his condition is so bad that I have to hand him over to be euthanized in the morning
Life just isn’t fair and I’m heartbroken that I have to do this…I’d give anything to make him better.
Feels bad kiwifrens, I wish all of our furry friends could live forever
So he’s stayed in my little cat house on the porch that I have a heat lamp in…so hard to look at that it makes me cry, but I’ve come to love this poor miserable thing. Done everything I can to make him comfortable and feel loved. And have been happy because he’s finally warmed up to me and trusts me…he has even started rubbing up against my leg…and now that I’ve gained his trust and I can most likely pick him up without him running, I know his condition is so bad that I have to hand him over to be euthanized in the morning
Life just isn’t fair and I’m heartbroken that I have to do this…I’d give anything to make him better.
Feels bad kiwifrens, I wish all of our furry friends could live forever
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- Aug 7, 2017
The fire alarm in my house is getting low on energy and makes this chirping sound. I'd change the battery with no problems, but for some reason it uses not AA or AAA batteries and the specific one I need can be bought at a supermarket in a town nearby. But guess what? There is a storm right now and I can't travel there, so I have to listen to this shit over and over again. Jesus Christ, how do black people live like this?
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- Oct 27, 2021
Just take out the battery, ffs. Then take the battery with you to the store so you get the right one. Likely a 9-volt (every battery-powered smoke detector I've ever had is a 9V. So it's an educated guess but just take it with you.)
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- Oct 2, 2017
Another day of "Man, a change of career would do nothing to fix my life" vibes, but it's the one thing I actually try to change. I can read more, I can bike more, I can get into a guild, but ultimately nothing really seems like it'd cause monumental change.
told myself I'd start applying elsewhere in january and I'm already failing. Sure I'll apply if something fun pops up, but I have to start applying for things that aren't likely or sound dull. Then I look at my current job and realize "Oh it ain't that bad". If I was offered an office job with the same pay, I genuinely doubt I'd take it, unfamiliar new workplace and all. Someone wrote a comment going "You can't just keep applying and expect it to finally work in the end", but I mean what the fuck else? I could do a 1-year certificate in something and I'd be unlikely to gain anymore employability from it.
I don't know what I wanna do so I can't be sad about not achieving it. This job is a dead end compared to so many other groups at my workplace, where you can actually go from junior nurse to head nurse etc. All of our superiors are hired externally cause it has nothing to do with our actual job, whereas you want a head nurse to be.. a nurse foremost.
I'll never forget sitting opposite my current boss talking and she said "Omg I was unemployed for 3 months I was so suicidal and depressed", and I was like "I've had 5 interviews the last 18 months". She makes x1.8 what I do and work half as much. When I started this job I was like "I'll find another one within a year". Then after a year I told myself tongue-in-cheek "I'll totally find another job within 2 years of employment".After 3 months of unemployment, I finally got a job offer recently! It’s not as nice as my previous job, but I’m just glad I’ll be having a second source of household income again soon. All that’s left is the background check and drug screening, but I should be squeaky clean on both of those
told myself I'd start applying elsewhere in january and I'm already failing. Sure I'll apply if something fun pops up, but I have to start applying for things that aren't likely or sound dull. Then I look at my current job and realize "Oh it ain't that bad". If I was offered an office job with the same pay, I genuinely doubt I'd take it, unfamiliar new workplace and all. Someone wrote a comment going "You can't just keep applying and expect it to finally work in the end", but I mean what the fuck else? I could do a 1-year certificate in something and I'd be unlikely to gain anymore employability from it.
I don't know what I wanna do so I can't be sad about not achieving it. This job is a dead end compared to so many other groups at my workplace, where you can actually go from junior nurse to head nurse etc. All of our superiors are hired externally cause it has nothing to do with our actual job, whereas you want a head nurse to be.. a nurse foremost.