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I have a dehumidifier in the hall right outside the bathroom, but I should probably move it into the bathroom.
it could be worse
Dude, I wish I could show you this shit.
This is my faucet at full blast.

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Fuck it, I'm just gonna post some of this shit and if you can find me, good on you.
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So here we have the shitter drain, not because the shower leaks but because the toilet does and sometimes you get a little poopie :)

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Here we have our window enforcers, none of that dark stuff is dirt, just dead bugs that no one wants to move because it might displease our guardians. You may ask, why keep the window open and that is because our apartment has a direct line to the septic tank for the one above us and it always smells like poopy, I wish I wasn't alive.

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Here you can see the giant hole in the ceiling, that most of the rodents come through, yes that is plumbing, no I don't know what it goes to. You can see in the background an attempt to cover up this hole but the landlord unfortunately stopped giving a fuck and here we are.

I'd show you the rest but those were highlights.
 
I know that doesn't sound nice, but I am kinda jealous of you. I have one giant project in the works, couple of lesser ones and an ocean of other small stuff that I can't work on at the moment while the list keeps growing. I also have a job and home stuff and some lesser stuff like training from time to time, so not only I do not always have time I also don't have any energy left or plain on desire to work on them, I just want to rest or fuck around watching silly stuff on YouTube, playing games or reading this forum. All this realization weighs me down and I feel guilty for being unable to just get done with it all at once and be free. Sometimes I even wish I could quit. When I finished my previous grand project, I was burned out and only some time later started feeling somewhat proud about it.

And you're just killing it. I wish I could do that.
What really helped was the fact that my client for this project has been fantastic, they've been really easy to work with and have given me really great feedback so the project itself was a good experience. I've had other projects where my client was a pain the whole time and the project turned into a soul-sucking ordeal, and then I had to immediately jump into another big project that was now on a really short time crunch.
I totally understand the feeling of burnout especially since my OCD makes me a workoholic against my own will sometimes, I have to be careful that it doesn't doesn't burn me out to the point of getting into a really bad headspace.
My goal from now on is that I need to have one day off a week from work/side gig stuff and not feel pressured to get anything done that day.
 
I've witnessed 3 different police incidents in person today, when I've never seen any happen in person before, wtf is happening.

One guy ran a red light at the intersection, got t-boned & spun into a bus, another guy drove HARD into an old lady walking across the street and just drove off, and some retard's whole family at the Minecraft movie threw popcorn at the epic funny chicken jockey scene (literally no one laughed, they hit some guy hard in the back of the head and they were escorted out, police made them go clean it all up when the movie was finished lol).

Eventful day.
 
In all honesty, things are going pretty well. I know I've bitched a bit my last few posts, but things are really doing alright on my end. Job's solid and pays well, making good progress on my writings, and I'm getting some plans lined out for some fun days here in the immediate future. There are a few concerns - health's acting kinda funny lately, though that might be my body continuing/failing to adjust to the schedule of my job - but it's overall doing alright.
 
Date went great. We went bar hopping (Sunday night here doesn't exactly offer a wide variety of options, so we'd have a beer in one, they'd tell us they're closing, and we'd walk around until we found another, then repeat), talked at length about our lives, experiences, aspirations, and what we want out of a relationship, and so on. It was great. We'll meet again tomorrow, since we both are kid free this week. Unlike the previous wöman, this one has a similar arrangement to mine about looking after kids (50/50 time with each parent), but it doesn't match perfectly, so if we want to be a thing for real, we'll have to make the most of the perfect match weeks, then find ways around it for the rest of the month. Not perfect, but better than "I can maybe steal a couple hours away from home once every 1.5 weeks".

About the trust issues, we talked about it. As expected, she had some bad experiences, making her a bit jumpy at what you could call "false positives". We agreed to trust each other (within reason), and move from there as we get to know each other more deeply.

I'm feeling good about this one, lads.
With the previous one, sparks were flying, but I never felt like I was standing on solid ground. With this one, I do.
Not looking to be foolish about it, but optimistic. 'Cos, if I can't let myself hope for something good, why even do this?
Still hyped about yesterday's date, we decided to have another date today. It went fantastic once more. We're gonna meet again tomorrow, and possibly every day during this week.

Again, we gotta make the most of the one week we're both simultaneously kid free.
 
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In an hour I have a job interview at McDonald's, if all goes well this will probably be the first job I've ever had (I'm eighteen) there's a girl working there who goes to class with me and she's literally the very stereotype of the nerdy girl with braces and glasses who looks like she's straight out of an 80s American movie, I quite like her.

Please pray for me kiwis...

EDIT: Unfortunately, I haven't been hired, but I don't care because tomorrow there's a job fair in my city and I've already signed up to go. I hope someone hires me.
 
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So, yesterday I gave a nice little message about how life is good, things are better than I've been admittedly posting, etc. Today I wake up and find out my great aunt just died; been suffering from heart issues for quite some time now, her condition suddenly took a nosedive rather recently, doctors decided to delay the treatment for her by several weeks - she was supposed to get it either yesterday or the day before - and send her home despite her issues. My mother did not take the news well; the two were really close, and she's been crying for quite some time now.
 
EDIT: Unfortunately, I haven't been hired, but I don't care because tomorrow there's a job fair in my city and I've already signed up to go. I hope someone hires me.
Ah that's disappointing! Did they give you much feedback?

You're young with a fresh back to break - it won't take long to find something if you have a good attitude. :)
 
Ah that's disappointing! Did they give you much feedback?

You're young with a fresh back to break - it won't take long to find something if you have a good attitude. :)
I try to always stay calm and polite, and I'm willing to work in whatever field for a salary that will pay for my driving school internship and the purchase of a car.

I've sent out a lot of CVs, especially to supermarkets like Lidl and Aldi, because they tend to be very simple and beginner-friendly jobs. I also sent one to McDonald's a few months ago, and I wasn't expecting them to call me back, but they did yesterday while I was walking home, and I was really excited.

It's a shame, really. But I hope to get one at this fair, since my teacher begged me to sign up, as a lot of companies from different sectors participate.
 
Got off the phone with my mom. My family's oldest indoor cat had a stroke and had to be put down. He was only 10 and was perfectly healthy only the day before. No decline or anything and now he's fucking gone.

I still remember the day I moved out all those years ago. I pet him, let him on my bed and filled up his food bowl as a peace offering, one last time. RIP. You were an amazing cat.
 
I have purchased an eight-pack of What Plants Crave. I'm sure it's poison but I feel great.
 
this thread needs some cheering up
I KNOW WHY IVE WAITED
I know why I've been blue
Praying each night for someone baby
Exactly like you
Why should we spend money
on a little show or two
When no one does the love scenes
Exactly like you
And you make me feel so grand *doodly opp*
Id like to hand the world to you *doodly opp*
You seem to understand
Each foolish dream im dreamin
Scheming and scheming
I know why mother
Taught me to be true
She made me fall for someone
Exactly like you
Love this song. I used to bomb hills on my skateboard to it.
 
I had to restart my weight loss again, I started at 263 and I'm back to 245 again, that's where I was at when I basically just fucked it all up. I'm very hopeful that it'll work out but let's not fuck it up by going on door dash again.
 
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