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My various health problems are making me increasingly uncomfortable as the misery of summer approaches. I'm slacking off on many things I should be dealing with, procrastinating even on things that could assist me. Feeling pretty beaten down and the insidious "why bother?" voice of my depression in my ears isn't helping.
 
It just started raining and i went hollering "Look (GF's name), it's raining! Look! LOOK!" into the kitchen to my girlfriend and she looked at me like i am retarded. Woman, i haven't seen rain in six fucking months!

Lately I've been hitting it off with someone, but she's not white, which is difficult for me.
For racism reasons or because of cultural differences? I've been there once, not with an african, Wesley Snipes-black woman but with a dark LatAm woman. I think i could never get with an african woman because it would be a matter of hours before i forget my filter and use "nigger" in casual conversation.
 
For racism reasons or because of cultural differences? I've been there once, not with an african, Wesley Snipes-black woman but with a dark LatAm woman. I think i could never get with an african woman because it would be a matter of hours before i forget my filter and use "nigger" in casual conversation.

Mostly because I am what some people might consider racist and she is a true global citizen. It can be hard to move past, even when we're talking about caramel and not chocolate. Cultural differences generally don't faze me except for ghetto nogs and white trash. How long did you make it work?
 
Mostly because I am what some people might consider racist and she is a true global citizen. It can be hard to move past, even when we're talking about caramel and not chocolate. Cultural differences generally don't faze me except for ghetto nogs and white trash. How long did you make it work?
3 months, but she was only here on vacation, summer fling kind of thing. Also had a husband, which i learned of, much to my own chagrin as i despise cheaters, a couple of days before she took off back to Ecuador. But i get that "global citizen" thing, i've people like that in my social circle and i have to bite my tongue often when i am with them. Not because i fear them ostracising me or anything but i am a generally very polite person when i am not posting on here.
 
Tired, working two jobs, leaving one though.
Can't wait. They're already operating at half staff, my leaving is comes on the heels of two others leaving at the same time.
I'm burned out on working for people, esp people that demand more and don't want to pay for it.
Manager is in over his head, and has a weird management style.
One day he's your best friend, the next day he's pissed off.
It's tiresome, so toodles.
 
3 months, but she was only here on vacation, summer fling kind of thing. Also had a husband, which i learned of, much to my own chagrin as i despise cheaters, a couple of days before she took off back to Ecuador. But i get that "global citizen" thing, i've people like that in my social circle and i have to bite my tongue often when i am with them. Not because i fear them ostracising me or anything but i am a generally very polite person when i am not posting on here.

What gives me hope is that a lot of mixed people, especially those with roots in other countries, are very racist themselves and will happily speculate about the true cause of George Floyd's death, but only when they're sure about you. The other kind, the "proud of la família and let's take BLM worldwide" sort are incredibly annoying, but I rarely encounter them in the real world anymore.

The most beautiful woman I've ever known was Ecuadorian, by the way, a blend of white and indigenous. She was way smarter than me, too, and clearly thought I was retarded.
 
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The day of my birth commeth, I am slightly excited. Otherwise life is hell but if the green marine can power through worse then I can at least try.
>sperg and powerlevel for 7 years, nothing
>4 posts on the femoid subforum, triangle
Honestly a point of pride if all it took was a scorned w*man
Was wondering how you got the pinkie, not surprised. And totally not relevant to your pink triangle I assure you, rip Mega Black.
 
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I am freshly back from a six months stint working in a rich arab country (making serious money for the first time in my life)
Fresh out of college, I did 11 months in the UAE, commissioning one of their larger ports. I worked 16 hours a day, seven days a week for months on end.

I pocketed about $175k after tax equalization and what not. I used it to pay off college, bought a used car, and then held on the rest until I could put like 40 percent down on a house I liked.

Course now I'm on the other side of the US, trying to find an apartment because my asshole company fired me with no notice.

Side note, this company that flew me out to find a property and start on Tuesday just gave me a truck. I was expecting to have to hoof it or use ride apps to try and look at places. Mormons appear to be a lot better bosses than the Japanese.
 
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I pocketed about $175k after tax equalization and what not.
I am nowhere near that kind of money but they throw money around there like crazy. Monthly base pay was a bit over 3k€ after tax, for a job where i would be lucky to get 800€ a month at home in the same field and would also be lucky to get a 5€ tip on orders, over there i got 50 fucking bucks tips for a cup of coffee, that happened more than a few times. Wasn't in the UAE but in that general direction.
 
I am nowhere near that kind of money but they throw money around there like crazy. Monthly base pay was a bit over 3k€ after tax, for a job where i would be lucky to get 800€ a month at home in the same field and would also be lucky to get a 5€ tip on orders, over there i got 50 fucking bucks tips for a cup of coffee, that happened more than a few times. Wasn't in the UAE but in that general direction.
Yeah this was a while ago for me. Even for engineers, the utterly insane payouts have kind of dropped off. I was only getting $65k a year at the time, but with the overtime and whatnot, I made bank.

What I hated about the UAE was how laws were randomly enforced. For example, despite all the bars and alcohol stores, you technically need a license to drink.

You can't get one of those and everyone just ignores the law. So let's say you have an issue with your Arab overlords, they will just send the cops to your place to look for any signs of alcohol so they can deport you without pay. This is the sort of BS charge they throw at women who report being assaulted by their bosses and whatnot.

And man, once you seen one over the top mall, you've seen it all. And the weather sucks like 10 months out of the year. People drive like psychopaths. Trying to get safety gear for my Indian/Pakistan/Bangledesh laborers was a pain and always a fight. I literally once had a British project manager argue that helmets were more expensive then paying survivor benefits.
 
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I had a dream I actually remembered in which I was in a subway station and had an affair with a girl I hopelessly like.
No money, no savings, no plans for the future whatsoever. I used to have crypto and hoped to use it as a tool for savings but I wasted it all because I needed money to get through the week, even though I have a job, I'm not a "NEET" at all. Especially, when this type of lifestyle is actually unaffordable. Maybe it's affordable in the First World, I don't know.
But even still I'm not in any better position than those NEET wackos. It sucks, it's gay and retarted.
 
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Fucking hate acne, the clindamycin kinda works but I'm still fucking breaking out!

It's probably just stress I suppose. Idk, I've never had clear skin. Fucking sucks, same time it could be worse.
You are most likely niacin dependent (not deficient, dependent). Start taking at least 3 grams of niacin a day (or niacinamide, if you want to avoid the flush) in three 1 gram doses and your mental state will improve dramatically, and your acne with it.
 
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You are most likely niacin dependent (not deficient, dependent). Start taking at least 3 grams of niacin a day (or niacinamide, if you want to avoid the flush) in three 1 gram doses and your mental state will improve dramatically, and your acne with it.
Niacin? What?
 
Niacin? What?
Vitamin B3. The deficiency disease of niacin is pellagra, which is cured by minute amounts, a few milligrams. The RDA of niacin is around 15 - 20 mg. However, some people are niacin dependent, which means that for reasons of genetic predisposition or due to environmental factors, they need much higher doses to function normally. One such prominent groups are schizophrenics, who need 3 - 18 grams a day. Schizophrenia in mainstream (read: Jewish) medicine is considered incurable and the only treatment are tranquilizers. This is wrong, 80 % of schizophrenics can be cured by sufficiently high doses of niacin and ascorbic acid (vitamin C). Those who don't respond to such orthomolecular treatment might still respond to a prolonged fast. Schizophrenia is, in this aspect, no different from other mental pathologies like depression and anxiety; all such conditions respond to the same treatment.

Go to https://annas-archive.se/ and search for any books by Abram Hoffer on this subject or on orthomolecular medicine in general. There's no reason to suffer just because the Jew has a stranglehold on the pharmaceutical industry.

If you're adverse to reading anything other than kiwifarms and imageboard shitposts, then simply start taking 1 g of niacin and 4 g of ascorbic acid three times a day. In pure, crystalline form, these substances cost a couple cents per gram. They are safe even in such high (compared to RDA) doses and without any adverse effects. The only side effect is that this quantity of niacin will cause you to flush temporarily the first couple times you take it, because it causes vasodilation and releases histamine from mast cells. This flushing reaction is not present when niacinamide is taken instead. For the treatment of mental diseases, niacin and niacinamide have the same biological activity, but the latter might be slightly more expensive and can cause nausea at extremely high doses.
 
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