To all the people giving me legitimate criticism, I don't have a problem with you. You can say I was being kind of cringe on Augie's show or point out the fact that I posted a few bad tweets, it's whatever, we can just acknowledge that it's cringe and move on with our lives. What I do have a problem with is people lying about me and taking things out of context, so I'll address it here.
1. Doxxing: I've been accused of being a doxxer for posting publicly available information about ValidL's on Twitter. What people don't include is the fact that ValidL's himself has harassed and doxxed many innocent trans people for simply existing and being themselves. What I did was optically stupid and a bad idea, but I was giving him a taste of his own medicine. Anyone who says I dox people over political disagreements is lying to you.
2. The "Allegations" Meme: For anyone not familiar with me or my content, the allegations are an inside joke on my channel. It stemmed from a stream I did where people were guessing what kinks I have, and then I paused after someone said diapers because I wasn't expecting it. The people in my chat then started accusing me of having a diaper kink and it became an inside joke on my channel, referred to as the allegations.
3. Associating w/ Jalyn: Jalyn has been nothing but kind to me and is a genuinely nice person behind the scenes. I'm not cutting ties with her no matter how much you hate her.
4. Associating w/ Nattie Forsyth: Nattie has been cancelled over a misrepresentation of a situation that happened when she was barely 18. Long story short, she used to post gore on Discord, and she flirted with someone who she didn't know the age of, and that person ended up being a minor. As soon as Nattie found out it was a minor, she cut ties with them immediately. My standard of evidence is guilty beyond a reasonable doubt, so I'm not going to suddenly stop being friends with Nattie unless I see enough evidence of her actually being malicious and predatory, not just her being stupid and irresponsible in the past.
5. AugieRFC: I shouldn't have gone on his show, it was a bad idea, especially since I hadn't even watched his show before. I obviously wasn't going to get anything out of it. That being said, I did want to have a genuine conversation with him, because I believed that the root of the issue between him and Keffals was his actual political beliefs and opposition to gender affirming care for minors, and his unwillingness to engage in good faith and the way he treated me before I had even said a word was still kinda shitty in my opinion. I was let into the call but then I wasn't even given a chance.
6. Keffals: I don't know what her intentions are or if she was trying to use me, but she made a private server with just content creators, and I was one of the first people she invited. I believed her when she said Augie had gone completely mask off and admitted to hating trans people, and so I wanted to debate Augie over trans issues. That's why I called in. I still don't like Augie because he was unnecessarily rude to me, but Keffals should have explained the full context of the clip regardless. When I logged on discord this morning to see if there were any updates, I noticed that Keffals' server wasn't there anymore. I asked Keffals about it and she's completely ghosted me thus far. I don't know if she's mad at me for saying that I think Bowblax is actually a good person at heart who is pro-LGBTQ+ on Twitter, but she never responded so I have no clue. I had to reach out to other people that were in the discord and ask them, and I was told it was because of my Twitter by a couple people and then another person told me it's because YouTube drama is bad for my mental health. No one had even reached out to me prior or tried talking to me about it. I don't think anyone really cares about me as a person (aside from maybe Jalyn who's actually there for me), but I sided with Keffals even more after the call with Augie because he treated me like garbage and I felt like Keffals would actually be accepting of me. I feel like neither side wants to associate with me anymore and that people are willing to lie to me and gaslight me so long as they think it'll benefit them, and that the only reason anyone will ever care about me is if I serve them some sort of benefit in YouTube drama or monetary wise.
7. Conclusion: I just wanna be left alone, I don't know if I can even trust anyone anymore and I don't want large content creators to take advantage of me. I'm fine with people making jokes about my appearance on Augie's show, and I'll probably continue making jokes as well, but I don't wanna be a part of this drama anymore. It's really stressful and I think I might take a small break for my mental health. Just say I'm cringe and move on. At the end of the day, I just wanna use my platform to be entertaining, informative, and hopefully make a good amount of money so I can do this as a full time career. After seeing a few people say that I'm the reason they came out as trans or that my content has helped them in some way, I really don't want to stop. I want to be clear about my intentions and I legitimately try to be a good person. I don't know if it's enough, but it's the most I can do. I'm not sure who'll see these or how many people will see this, but I really hope you can understand. If not, that's fine, I can live with the fact that some people won't like me no matter what I say or do. If you've made it this far, thank you for taking the time to read this, and have a good day.
