Fialovy said:
yeah, he is my badass Slovak grandpa btw and I would hate to lose him even though he is 90 and getting up there.
Well, nothing lasts forever, and we all have to go at some point.
Except for your grandfather. Old badass Slovaks are the exception to the rule, they're simply too cool to die, and it would be unjust if he did.
In all seriousness though, should the worst happen, you can always take solace in the fact that he died knowing you loved him and that he lived a rich, fulfilling life. Even if he doesn't make it, he'll always live on in spirit! I know you feel like there's something you have to tell him. If he makes it through the surgery (and I'm really hoping he does), that's all the more reason to spend more time with him and get closure on the things you were always curious about. Seeing my grandfather in the hospital so many times made me want to know more about him, I know that much.
Some people wake up every single day with a smile on their face, asking themselves the same question each morning. "How am I going to be productive today?"
I'm clearly not one of these people.
In all fairness, though, I always do some good when the opportunity arises. Not that many come my way, though. It's not in me to wish for more opportunities. That's in fate's hands. To deliberately seek more opportunities and go out of one's way to have these things come their way, in my opinion, doesn't make someone a better person. The best way to test one's willingness to do good is in the unexpected events we're given from time to time and observing their reactions. Even in the ways of self improvement, it's better to take things slowly and appreciate every opportunity that comes by rather than desperately rushing in to improve one's self to bolster their own appearance or simply because they "have to."
I should probably stop here before I turn this into some shitty Facebook post. The point being that I feel unproductive today, yet I know I'm capable of doing good.