Well, I think I weirded out my supervisor.
He's the guy I've talked about on and off, often referring to him as my Zone Manager (although it's a misnomer, but I don't want to explain right now). He's the first boss I've had who's looked out for me. He's a compassionate guy. He shakes MANOS, pats people on the back or shoulder. I've even seen him hug people on Christmas Eve. He laughs easily and gets along with just about everyone. He's the kind of guy who, once you get him talking, will hold you hostage with conversation after conversation, and you wouldn't mind it at all because he's such a funny, worldly person. There have been days when I was an hour late coming home because he couldn't stop talking.
He's clapped me on the back a few times. He once jokingly patted me on the head. He's shaken my hand. That's the extent of our physical contact.
For the past month or so, he's been trying to get me upgraded to full time. He tried once but the store manager put her foot down and said that I couldn't volunteer to work any more than 32 hours a week. So I resigned myself to part time. There are other jobs out there, after all.
Just the other day, after looking through the store's available hours and profits, my ZM found out that I could indeed be made full time. I would just have to work an additional two hours this week in order to be put over 34, which would qualify me. Yesterday, I agreed to work the additional hours.
I thanked him when we were alone. "I'd hug you," I said, "but I'm kind of sweaty." It had been humid in the back room.
He was quiet for a moment. Then he said in a serious tone, "It's well earned." And walked away with a pallet jack to do work.
Today, he didn't greet me. He didn't ask how I was doing. He didn't even look in my direction. He joked and laughed with the other employees--I could hear his laugh all over our part of the back room--but he avoided me.
Fuck it all, this is what happens when I show anything other than sarcasm or apathy. When I show actual emotion, people get freaked out because it's weird, scary, or unnatural.