I found some gold dust the other day,I had to link to upload it to youtube since KF won't allow me to upload it here, I was watching Dark Dave and heard Phil say that he was during his whole life called a low IQ, boring , untalented beta male, this gives insight of his psychology because he was called stupid by his own family, most likely his dad, and it's most likely the reason why he overcompensates so much trying to be smart by misusing words, he also talked about how everyone always told him he was going to be a loser forever and almost cried when he said it lmao, it is clear by this rant that he also latches on to his 4th place at EVO as his only life achievement because he was always called a stupid, boring, untalented beta that will achieve nothing, so when he got his 4th place he proved all the haters wrong, I'm gonna transcribe what he said, if some stuff seems nonsensical,there are words missing or it's lacking in structure you can't blame me because I wrote down what he said word for word, he is just a retard that can't talk right:
*Lip smack* "Lucky 3 leafsin says: 'overall I think you are best known for your resilience! Any advice for us going through hard times or info on your process dealing with hardship?' Well, what I can tell is basically
*autistically leans forward* and the reason why I used to use the moniker, I retired it this year, but I used to use the moniker The King of Hate, and it's not what you are thinking
*loudly breaths in* it's not 'oh he hates a group of people, or he is a bigot or he is racist' nothing like that at all ,it's because so many people used to hate ON ME!... In my youth, they would tell me things such as: You are not good enough,you are talented enough, you are not entertaining enough, you are not strong enough,
you are not smart enough , that was a big one, you are not smart enough (I'm underlining this because it's fundamental to this post, remember people used to call him dumb in his youth) , I was told that by a lot of people, my peers, my rivals, sometimes my family members, and it doesn't...it really doesn't feel good when you are told that by someone who...you know...you trust to basically be giving you life advice and they tell you something like that (it was 100% his dad let's be real) So, what I did is I used the hate against me, and I harnessed it, I used it as fuel for the fire for me to do well in life
(how did that work out uh?).
"If people tell me I can't do something or I'm not good enough to do something, I'm gonna prove them wrong, I'm literally going to motivate
*Autistically leans forward to the point his torso is horizontal and goes back to the original position* myself to be SUUUURE! to do what they say I can't do, so that way I can show them and prove them wrong, and for a very long time
*throat clear plus lip smack combo* in the competitive street fighter community, no one thought I was ever gonna amount to anything, no one thought that I could EVER! fight and win against top players, no one ever thought that I could win tournaments, and...you know...I mean
*gibberish* took a long time you know I was playing competitive fighting in arcades the whole 90s, then 1999 I went to my first major tournament, from 99 to all the way through 2005??? So we talking six years of me grinding away at this tournaments right? trying to find my place, trying to find a place to make it and win, but always it was all 'oh he is a scrub, he is a shit talker, he can never back up what he says and yadi yadi yada'
(I mean he couldn't back up what he said, that's why he hid in the bathroom when he was gonna get beat up) ,and finally after all that time motivating myself saying 'No, one day I'm gonna really prove these people wrong???' and then I did! You know...just a matter of time, you know, if you dedicate yourself enough to something and you are gonna persevere in it, it's a matter of: do you have the fortitude to do it? Because...in life...very rarely at least in myyyyyyy case, alright? you guys could disagree, you guys might have different life situations than me
(the term to use here is life experiences not life situations btw) , I almost
*a fish is on screen* NEVER IN MY WOAAAAH HOLY SPLAMOLI that's a huge fish, I almost never in my life...had people backing me up , it was always me doing shit alone, I was a loner, I was the guy that had to like...DO IT ALL, by myself! (man that didn't knew how to wash his clothes in his mid 30s claims he was always by himself and had to do everything) When I went to EVO 2005, I went by myself, I didn't had any friends or teammates with me, I went out there on a whim, I put myself into debt to do it, but when I went out there, you know with absolutely no one sticking up for me , I I persevered and I ended up you know basically my best national placing ever, 4th place overall at EVO , 3 top players being Japanese top players, technically the best american that year in the game I was playing
*throat clear plus lip smack after drinking water*
"That's what I mean like EVERY...oh yellow Perch and it's trophy size so apparently yellow perch are quite small, look he is talking look! 'mumumumumu' and he is like 'you showed them , you showed them, good job Phil, you showed them' ACK ACK ACK ACK , anyway *throat clear* yeah, that's what I do, you know , isn't it funny how in every portion of my life I had the same kind of hateful group of people after me? It's different people , but you always seem to have a hateful group after you
(it's not strange, you are an insufferable dent with NPD, autism and an IQ of 80) you know, in school...bullies! oh you are a wimp, you are a nerd, you will never amount to anything you are a loser, right? (
so apparently the Tyrones at his school called him a beta fag failure) Street figther! Oh he is a shit talker, he is a scrub, he is never gonna amount to anything ,
*gibberish* will ever be a top player or someone who ever has any kind of achievement or anything under his belt, he is just gonna be a loser for ever, right?
(he said this at 4:02, go listen to that moment in the video because he legit sounded like he was about to cry lmao) and later on in life, you know
*gibberish* on youtube and shit, the hate that I have been through over these years , and everyone just saying shit , making shit up about me constantly
(it's all slander, nothing is true) it's like at one point it all just kinda becomes white noise
(meaning that he was called an insufferable useless beta retard his whole life and now when confronted with reality his narcissistic mind just ignores it) and I know that every single day that I get on this stream and I have a good stream with you guys and we have a meaningful conversation, fun meaningful content that I'm putting out, I proved all of those scumbags wrong
(he proved all the haters wrong because he streams himself playing bugsnax for tips that he spends immediately after the stream is over) .
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Holy shit this stuff was so incredibly telling when it comes to his psychology, Phil was always called a retarded, autistic, boring ,beta, fag loser that will never achieve anything in his life by all the Tyrones at school and even his family called him a dent, I can imagine his dad yelling at him in various situations over being such a lazy retarded(for example when he got fired from the helicopter company), he was said he was not smart enough as I underlined earlier, and that was a big one for Phil, no wonder he is so insecure about his intelligence and tries to appear smart by using complex words , adding words when unnecessary or using terms he doesn't understand, he is very clearly insecure about everything but specially about his intelligence, it's not strange that a guy that can't even play games made for children was called stupid by everyone including his family, and this also shows why he is so obsessed with his 4th place at EVO, Phil was always a complete failure and the 4th place at EVO is his only life success, he was always hated by everyone everywhere he went, I remember him saying in those old videos he did while sitting at the couch in the CT condo that his co-workers at the helicopter company hated him , people at school hated him, people in the Street Fighter community hated him, but Phil is such a narcissist that for him it's all white noise since he is a flawless omnipotent god and everyone is wrong about him, literally zero friends his entire life until Rambo and Howard, hated by everyone but he is not the problem, the world has a problem with him.
He also almost cried at 4:02 when he said that people thought "he is just gonna be a loser forever", he clearly knows that he is a fucking loser deep down which is why it affects him so much, his narcissist false self gets hurt when confronted with reality, I also want to mention that Phil said in this rant that he put himself in debt for EVO 2005, and that he was playing tournaments from 1999 to 2005, do you guys remember a few days back when Phil's parents told him not to waste all of his money from his first job in going to tournaments and Phil told them that it was his money and he could do what he wanted? lmao.