I don't mean to stir the pot or anything, but I do not believe he has NPD.
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He 'forgives' people: this one is harder to show because he has no in person relations, but he unbans people who grovel and beg. Narcissists do not do this. If you spurn one, you don't come back from that.
I don't think there's any significance to the fact that he unbans people - it's at least not evidence of forgiveness. It's entirely transactional; what can he get out of that person? If it's a person who regularly tips then he doesn't benefit by leaving them banned for too long. That exploitative, or at least transactional view of the people in his world is consistent with narcissist traits, and not evidence of forgiveness.
I think Phil's behaviour is consistent with narcissism as I understand it. For example:
- Much of what he does is roleplaying, or building a facade of a mature adult, and constantly building up, or reinforcing the narrative. Which is why he neededa new relationship with khet so soon after Leanna, and why he refers to his wife and cat as his "family" (who does this? Phil, you sound ridiculous when you do this). Even if he personally considered that little unit a family, why does he have to repeatedly say it to his viewers? He's playing a part and building up that self. There's nothing behind it though; he doesn't grow as a person. He doesn't yearn for an intellectual or emotional connection to a partner. He's doing what he understands others do, and what he thinks is success by bringing a wife into his orbit.
- he has no sense of humor about himself whatsoever, and can't laugh at any joke at his expense. The few occasions where he tried he's obviously pretending, and only because he has no alternative in the moment. Many shit stirring tips could be laughed off, or others would run with them in a way that encourages more tips. Our boy can't hack it. There's no resilience or robustness there, because they attack his brittle, constructed self. A healthy, resilient, self assured person wouldn't care what some random autist troll said in a tip. He knows enough to say he doesn't care, but his actions and hissy fits betray that he does. I suspect because they cut him down, and attack him in his world where he otherwise is building himself up.
- the gaslighting, confusing behaviours. Leaving people confounded, particularly his mods or people actually in his inner circle. Even seasoned DSP observers can be left confounded by his nonsense, (that feeling of ...
wow) which might be why we keep watching. That effect on others is consistent with covert narcissism.
- inability to admit fault, constant deflecting, blaming others. Everyone in the universe is stupid (people buying groceries, game developers) except for him. Palpable lack of insight.
- inability to maintain positive, pro-social, long-term relationships. The only long term relationships he's had have been with women over whom he has a significant power imbalance (age/worldliness, income/wealth). The only people who choose his company these days are his parents (in small doses), and Khet who is still relatively young and not at all worldly, but will probably come to her senses one day like his former friends and Leanna did. Kat deserves better and she'll figure it out for herself one day soon (and when she does I'm sure the farms will leave her alone and collectively wish her well).
So DSP's is an unusual mix of narcissism combined with a lack of intelligence in a person who despite those deficiencies has somehow acquired significant influence over his little world during the narrow window of time when the stream is on. Once the stream is off, and he's uploaded his videos, that feeling of power leaves him. This is why he feels the need to reconnect to the part of the day where he has power through a late night tweet at a time when most would be well and truly clocked off from their work life. That late night tweet reconnects him to the little fiefdom where he is in charge, and makes him briefly feel big at a time of night when the doubts are creeping in. I suspect the tweeting on his days off can be explained in similar terms. Why on Earth would he do these things otherwise?
Most healthy people get resilience/grit/strength through our relationships. These relationships are what enable us to face, confront or navigate difficult situations, and maintain good mental health. Those relationships are usually partners, friends, trusted co-workers, spouses, siblings. Due to his inadequacies, DSP can't really turn to those people, so perhaps touching base with the DSPgaming world where he feels big is how he gains some fleeting strength to face what he's up against, even if it does look pathetic, or is intended to bait trolls. This isn't evidence of respecting or appreciating his viewers, just that he gains some sort of strength when he's amongst them.
It will be fascinating to see him rationalise the bankruptcy proceedings (a process he doesn't really understand, and which involves subjecting his circumstances by making an application to people and institutions who have significant
actual power over him) particularly if it doesn't go as he hopes.