used_a_throwaway
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- Jan 12, 2025
I've thought about it, imagining myself giving up my moral standards and came to the conclusion that I would not be truly fulfilled if I settled for a whore. I would not be happy. The very idea would poison my mind constantly, to the point of it becoming unbearable.I already feel delusional following my own "standards"/morals if there is nobody else doing it and the years are starting to add up. You are essentially "cucking yourself" (as the meme goes) for something that doesn't exist.
Even if you are right about there not being such women, (which you are not, it is statistically impossible,) dying alone is still a lesser evil, at least in my eyes. I am relatively young, though, maybe It'll start feeling worse as the years pass by, but I simply couldn't live with constant shame and anger at myself. My first thought each morning would be that of bitter regret. I would eventually kill both her and myself.
My post did look like an emo kid's diary, so here's a funny picture to make up for it.