Off-Topic Random Trans Thoughts, Musings, and Questions - For all your armchair psych and general sperging

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I've come to the conclusion after a bit of speculation that porn is exactly the same as conversion therapy just in the opposite direction. The only difference being porn leverages suggestibility and human psychology, in a way it's like advertising cause humans are hardwired to be suggestible, some more than others while conversion therapy is a lot more forceful pavlovian conditioning. But the inherent mechanism itself and after effects, the input and the output are exactly the same. This isn't to say ban porn cause both rely on voluntary association/consent (which is why conversion therapy was banned cause gay people didn't consent) but it is interesting chyat, very interesting.
 
Trans people are actually rarer IRL. Online they dominate since mentally ill people and misfits have always done better online and play pretend is so much easier when you don't have a body, so to speak.
100%. The classic joke “on the Internet, nobody knows you’re a dog” would undoubtedly be considered transphobic these days.

Online is disassociative. You are literally unmoored from the reality of your body, existing as an avatar of your own creation, and so it’s not surprising that the terminally online start to identify more with their shiny cool online persona than the messy flawed reality of their real bodies.

Once they add porn into the mix, and the avatar becomes a cute anime girl, the course has been set for disaster.

Autism + Porn + Social Media = one way ticket to troontown with a 41% chance of the train derailing.
 
The idea of baptism is that you are cleansed and end your sinning ways as much as you can, go and sin no more. Trans is like that, but the only sins in the religion are "do not deadname, do not deny acceptance, do not gatekeep, do not judge in the group, do not persecute, and for the love of all that's queer, do not misgender."
Worse still, they're baptised, but it's everyone else that has to stop sinning. They become the worst sort of new convert; the censorious, judgemental sort, who revels in their newfound justification to judge and condemn everyone around them.
 
Transitioning, however, is a complete and total death of the old self, symbolically. When John decides he's actually a woman and wants to transition, he is no longer John. He changes his name to Jane, changes his whole identity, and refers to his old self in the third person. In the tranny's mind, John is dead. John no longer exists. There is only Jane now.
True. This focus on self improvment also helps most Christian sectors stop from turning into a full cult, but the bible has been warped many times to justify actions and new rules written or old ones handwaved - that's where offshoots come in and fuck things up. They don't get as popular due to their destructive nature and unorthodoxy, however.

There are other religions and cults that have name changes within them: a less culty one is Muslim name conversions where a person takes on an Arabic name as a legal name or their main name. Several cults use nicknames for each other or use new names as well to divorce people from their old icky life. It depends on religion.

There's also historical name changes for the newly baptized, even if most took place closer to Christianity's invention. Humans sometimes reinvent the wheel every so often and troon names are one of those things I suppose. More on religion below.

I'd expect at least one car thief is a troon, trying to get money to pay for SRS
This implies they go outside or spend effort on something that isn't instantly gratifying. If a trans person is desperate enough to resort to IRL thievery instead of easy donations, they're likely looking for regulsr drug money instead.

Online is disassociative. You are literally unmoored from the reality of your body, existing as an avatar of your own creation, and so it’s not surprising that the terminally online start to identify more with their shiny cool online persona than the messy flawed reality of their real bodies.
I encourage every kiwi to go outside for this exact reason. Save yourself with the balance of IRL time.

Worse still, they're baptised, but it's everyone else that has to stop sinning. They become the worst sort of new convert; the censorious, judgemental sort, who revels in their newfound justification to judge and condemn everyone around them.
Very. I'll point to muslism again as the more hardcore sects are full "peace through submission, convert or die you damn dirty kafurs". The religious fever against enemies that is either convert or destroy (or collect money from so they're tolerated) is similar to the trans fever of such.
 
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Just banned from Reddit for saying hunter Schafer isn’t female. The thing they used to use to justify transgenderism is now hate speech. :story:

Yes I’ll give myself the puzzle piece.

Anyway, the troon rebirth thing is an under talked about aspect of it. The most telling thing they always talk about is “second puberty.” What incel wouldn’t like to do puberty over but this time as the hot girl in school?
 
Just banned from Reddit for saying hunter Schafer isn’t female. The thing they used to use to justify transgenderism is now hate speech. :story:

Yes I’ll give myself the puzzle piece.

Anyway, the troon rebirth thing is an under talked about aspect of it. The most telling thing they always talk about is “second puberty.” What incel wouldn’t like to do puberty over but this time as the hot girl in school?
ugh,, the rebirth shit. I hate that. they think they can just ditch their past experiences and how others have known them for decades. Like, what do you mean that wasnt you? has it all been for naught cuz now you go by "lunarprincesskaguya" and bought a michael jackson nose with a korean filter-esque jaw? and I'm gonna get reaaaaaal nitpicky here. like, super nitpicky:

second puberty? is that how you see puberty? just growing into a more conventionally attractive and mature physique by your sex's standards? "wahmyn get big milkies and mun big daddy shoulders uwu uwu hot horny teehe" is all you think puberty is? because brain development and growing into a (normally) more mentally mature person is irrelevant? Puberty to me was far more than "omg I got hot longer legs and broad shoulders! omg deep voice!" and have a retarded troon think that they can just redo puberty like that is insulting. well, second puberty tracks. They've an obsession with youth. I mean, dylan mulvaney's their leader now and he's a nasty pervert who keeps acting like a bimbofied and fetishized version of a little girl. they PROBABLY LOOOOVE saying they're going through puberty and feeling like "uwu uwu uwu im like a little cutesy uwu 11yo growing now uwuwuwuwu second puberty hot!"
 
I've come to the conclusion after a bit of speculation that porn is exactly the same as conversion therapy just in the opposite direction. The only difference being porn leverages suggestibility and human psychology, in a way it's like advertising cause humans are hardwired to be suggestible, some more than others while conversion therapy is a lot more forceful pavlovian conditioning. But the inherent mechanism itself and after effects, the input and the output are exactly the same. This isn't to say ban porn cause both rely on voluntary association/consent (which is why conversion therapy was banned cause gay people didn't consent) but it is interesting chyat, very interesting.
It's literally just positive reinforcement. Let's say surgeons had the ability to install a button into your arm, that when pressed, releases feel good chemicals into your brain. You start slapping that button whenever you do something specific, like wear a spinny skirt or some makeup. Humans are not really that complicated at this level, your brain will feel good and associate skirt wearing with good feel and you will want to do it more. It's not complicated at all, this is basic psychology.
Obviously, we all have these "buttons"; it's our genitalia. Every time some dude wanks to his trans fetish, he's doing nothing but reaffirming to his brain that this thing feels good and he should do more of it. It's very very simple.
 
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Sneed is Frisian for "cut" or "slice". A little bit like how troons slice off their dick/tits. So "sneed" as an insult has gained a new dimension.
 
Can anyone give me a rundown of Magnus Hirschfeld and the Institut für Sexualwissenschaft? All I could find was that he was interested in the age of consent.
 
I can't get over how Kafkaesque the world is.
It hits a lot different when you know people close to you troon out. And deal with actual discrimination but been stuck dealing with these types of people who pretend to deal with it get all the love and support while you, for whatever reason, is villianized. When a cross-dressing white abled bodied biological male or female is seen as a bigger victim than someone disabled... That's the definition of absurdism.

I don't think a lot realize the sheer trauma that comes with being raised in a postmodernist setting. While everyone else had traditions and proper beliefs, there was nothing but contradiction on mine. Maybe that shaped me for the best, maybe it didn't since I am still affected by it. I was forced into a life I didn't understand and was told nothing but contradictions to "help" me understand it. Most people here were born into a traditional family already, I wasn't. I can't explain to you the nothingness that lingers with me due to growing up in a postmodernist setting.

You'd think it gets better but then you see society adopt postmoderism right when you finally become an adult. Does it benefit you? No, of course not. Now you are left feeling more alone than ever, seeing the people and communities close to you get turned into a cesspool of hyperreality- all the while looking back at history, getting to see what you lost out on.

Believing in God helps but I often worry what good it does if the world around you feels so kooky and meaningless. When the goverments are being so openly corrupt now more than ever but in a way where most brush it off with a "it is what it is" attitude or even try to justify it.

I am not a nihilistic person yet I am trapped in a society that breeds nothing but nihilism and degeneracy. I have no community, no family, nothing. I am stuck outside of everything. That would be all fine if I didn't had to deal with the consequences of corruption. If I was just a normie who had mommy and daddy to cosign a lease or take me far away out to live on a farm or something. But no. I am stuck facing it all. I literally only have the Farm, self impprovent circles, and random passing strangers to remind me of sanity.
 
Not sure if this was ever posted, but I have to admit that this tumblr post is accurate.I know some here may disagree with LGB, but the concept of trans does conflict with the "born this way" argument. (Even though some trans people state they weren't born wrong strangely enough.)
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There are some christian circles that are coming around to this wrong body idea. I don't do church, for various reasons, but my family all attend and I get regular updates on church politics from them. The stories I've been hearing recently - within the last year - are about people of some influence in large inter-church christian organisations, who see troonery as a way to "fix" homosexuality, by encouraging homosexuals to become "what god intended them to be", or some variation of that phrase. I think the doctrinal framework they're developing is that the devil somehow interfered with the god-ordained body troons were supposed to be born with, putting their soul into the "wrong body", and that it's the duty of the church to accommodate god's intentions for the troon's life rather than succumb to the interference of satan. I think. I'm obviously not getting firm details from what is, at best, third-hand information, so for all I know the reality could be completely different, but this is what I've heard, and it does vaguelymesh with some of the weirdo christian shit that has cropped up in the troon Ls and tranny sideshow threads.
 
Not responding to anybody, but something I wanted to say and this is the thread for it.

Something that came up recently that I haven't heard much talk about is the constant suicide threats the trannies love to make. It's one of those things that you'd think would tip people off to the extreme narcissism of the trans movement. They always threaten to kill themselves if you don't acquiesce to their demands. Just recently Florida passed a law saying the sex on your driver's license must match the sex on your birth certificate, so of course trannies are fuming over it, and they all staged a "die in" which basically consisted of them going to the DMV and lying on the floor, pretending to be dead. "NOT ALLOWING US TO CHANGE OUR DRIVER'S LICENSE IS LITERALLY KILLING US!"

Never mind the histrionics of threatening suicide over a fucking ID card that hardly anybody is ever going to look at, just the act of threatening self-deletion at all is despicable. We used to understand this as the mark of a narcissist. We used to call it what it was: emotional extortion. People did it long before trans people starting using it as a political tool, but we used to rightly condemn those people as abominable. A boyfriend threatening his ex-girlfriend to get back with him or else he'll kill himself was not uncommon, but we used to see that for what it was. That would be all the more reason for the girl to dump him, because we knew that said man trying to manipulate her with guilt was a monster for doing so.

Now, suddenly, it's become a legitimate bargaining chip for the trans crowd. Really, it's their only bargaining chip. It's the only thing they ever use. "Give us the hormones or we'll kill ourselves!" "Give us ID changes or we'll kill ourselves!" "Let us play on the women's team or we'll kill ourselves!" Whenever they talk about "trans genocide," this is what they really mean. They don't mean an actual genocide, like we're going door to door hunting down trannies (as much as I'd love for that to happen), but instead they mean "not giving us what we want makes us kill ourselves, so therefore you're committing genocide by not giving us what we want."

No other group of people in history who has ever been oppressed has ever resorted to this. You didn't see blacks in the civil rights era saying "let us ride the bus or we'll kill ourselves!" You didn't see women in the suffragette movement saying "let us vote or we'll kill ourselves!" Yet trannies do this consistently and frequently. It's their only argument. Meet my demands or I self-delete. It's such a disgusting act of emotional abuse and guilt-tripping, and it just kills me how the rest of society doesn't see this. Suicide is a choice. It's your choice. Nobody can make you commit suicide except yourself, which is why it's called "suicide" and not "homicide." The correct response to somebody threatening suicide is to say "your suicide is not my responsibility, and how fucking dare you try to threaten me in such a way. Fuck off."
 
Now, suddenly, it's become a legitimate bargaining chip for the trans crowd. Really, it's their only bargaining chip. It's the only thing they ever use. "Give us the hormones or we'll kill ourselves!" "Give us ID changes or we'll kill ourselves!" "Let us play on the women's team or we'll kill ourselves!" Whenever they talk about "trans genocide," this is what they really mean. They don't mean an actual genocide, like we're going door to door hunting down trannies (as much as I'd love for that to happen), but instead they mean "not giving us what we want makes us kill ourselves, so therefore you're committing genocide by not giving us what we want."
And it works sadly.I'm going to be honest here, and say I truly believe half the reason handmaidens do everything to appeal to TIPs is because they are scared of the suicide threats.I've seen this whenever anyone debates a TRA online.It always boils down to "I don't understand being trans, but as long as this prevents them from committing suicide then it shouldn't matter." or you get arguments like "See!They stopped threatening to kill themselves so that proves they're real women deep down."
No other group of people in history who has ever been oppressed has ever resorted to this. You didn't see blacks in the civil rights era saying "let us ride the bus or we'll kill ourselves!" You didn't see women in the suffragette movement saying "let us vote or we'll kill ourselves!" Yet trannies do this consistently and frequently. It's their only argument. Meet my demands or I self-delete. It's such a disgusting act of emotional abuse and guilt-tripping, and it just kills me how the rest of society doesn't see this. Suicide is a choice. It's your choice. Nobody can make you commit suicide except yourself, which is why it's called "suicide" and not "homicide." The correct response to somebody threatening suicide is to say "your suicide is not my responsibility, and how fucking dare you try to threaten me in such a way. Fuck off."
There's a lot to criticize about BLM, but even I admit that I've never herd of any of their leaders encouraging black people to threaten suicide when it came to police reforms.I never saw any guilt tripping with stuff like "Little black kids will kill themselves if police reforms dont happen."Hell going back to it, this is another reason the T needs to separate from LGB.I never once herd of gay rights activists tell gay kids to threaten suicide if their parents dont accept them.Usually the argument was to hold out until adulthood, and live your own life if your parents wont accept you.The trans movement tells gender dysphoric kids the opposite with "Threaten to kill yourselves if your parents wont accept you."I dont know why suicide threats only works with Ts, because if religious people used the tactic"Teach god in public schools otherwise kids will be depressed and suicidal without him." then many of these atheists leftist who support trans people would laugh it off.
 
I've seen this as well. Their writing turns from exploration of ideas into advocacy of dogmatic positions, which is absolute death for any sort of creativity. You'll see the same sort of thing among "allies", who tie themselves in knots, trying to output only correct thoughts and ideas, in order to maintain good standing with the new hierarchy they've aligned with. It's no different to people who adopt a new religion, or who are indoctrinated into an extremist political movement.
Yes! I've noticed their writing comes across like they are trying to get a reaction out of you instead of earnestly trying to tell a story. It comes across flat in a way. You can tell a lot from someone's writings, their thought process behind what they are writing and alike. It's a lot different than drawing or sculpting because it's a more personal form of expression. And in regards to journalism, their uppity self righteousness is impossible to ignore.
Their whole agenda is based on not trying to sound like they are condoning wrongthink, so they often write things out in a manner in which you the reader are told what is good and what is bad. There's a reason why these people are never truly recognized as "good artists" no matter how hard they try, at most I've only ever seen people praise a troon's visual art. A lot of a troon's attempt at writing is mostly based in vanity. Just like their identity, they wanna appear a certain way- mostly to gain status as a "creator". That mentality is noticeable in writing. The only times I've seen people who like a writer's work who had that vane mentality is when they had no idea about the art of writing- so of course they aren't gonna see it as it is.
I don't trust anyone who says they're a professional trans writer to tell me a damn thing about writing. They couldn't tell me about plot, structure, tension, word usage, anything aside from MAYBE character whinging and purple prose. I'm so fucking sick of it and I'm elated I do not have to speak to anyone about troon writing in books or games anymore because it's fucking atrocious.
Just returning to this, because it was writing that was the first crack in my shield of trans acceptance. Back in 2012 or so, I was part of the interactive fiction community, and there was this up-and-coming author that everyone just knew you had to check out, a woman by the name of Porpentine. No one could shut up about Porpentine. You have to check out Porpentine's works, Gorillionaire. You have to see how horrific they are, Gorillionaire. You have to see what she's saying about power and agency, Gorillionaire. Emily Short has praised her work, Gorillionaire. Sure, all of her works were just Twine games (meaning using hyperlinks, perhaps the most simplistic form of interactive fiction) but Twine was really trending at the time and some Twine games had been good.

Of course, Porpentine turned out to be trans, but I didn't know it at the time. I was curious and I liked to give all the popular works a shot, so, I played through a bunch. And what struck me immediately was how gross and puerile they were. They all dealt with violence against females and had a pretty fetishistic approach to bodily fluids and harm. I was astounded. The same community that grumbled about unrealistic depictions of women (or even just the possibility of sexual assault, such as in Emily is Away) was holding up these works as being exemplary? As best as I could tell, to use an example, Cyberqueen was just an elaborate 'on rails' torture porn scenario featuring a Shodan expy that involved the player, a nameless female character, being made to drink piss, get drills jammed into your brain, being generally mutilated, masturbating as you torture and are tortured, being put in chastity, etc... Just so many things while the villain gloated about how they were ruining your power fantasy and your choices didn't change anything. I didn't get it. Between Bioshock (2007) and Stanley Parable (2011), it seemed obvious to me that the idea of video games offering genuine choice had been thoroughly rinsed. Why was this being celebrated? It was so obviously a sex thing.

I had to know.

And so I played another, and another, and they were all like that: 'game' after 'game' of fetish scenarios that mixed gross kinks with violence to women. Then, as I became more familiar with trans art, it struck me that Porpentine's works aren't anything unusual. Almost every trans work features this grotesque focus on bodily fluids, trash, waste and other putrid things that feel like what you'd find if you went sifting through F-List's grosser corners. Gretchen Felker-Martin's work is another prime example. As you said, it's about provoking a reaction. But I think, returning to Porpentine's work, Porpentine didn't place themselves as the victim, but rather the one inflicting the violence. Especially when the linked thread makes it obviously clear that it was, indeed, a sexual fetish.

Christine Love is another game designer I'm familiar with who is interesting because she basically degraded as trans culture became more accepted. Her first game, Digital, is genuinely great and worth the praise. The next big game, Analogue, is a notable step down but still pretty good, although the anime aspects, cosplay, etc. make it clear that something is a bit odd. These are the games that Christine Love is generally known for, but she has released others. There was Don't Take It Personally, which is notable because it featured a gross anime-flavored statutory rape love story subplot and the ability to perv on your underage students. Ladykiller in a Bind, a BDSM sex game where the player, a woman, is sexually abused by a man, and their most recent one which is full-on tumblcore trans aesthetic. But notably, Love is unlike most other trans artists in which she hasn't given into describing how gross everything else like she wants to be made to drink people's vomit or whatever else. But the statutory rape thing is enough to make the point anyway.

There was another story I checked out recently which I pegged the author as trans because the very first chapter was filled with these repeated descriptions and mentions of the protagonist sweating in fear and vomiting and tasting blood and bile. I'd love to know why so many trans artists express themselves this way. Why the fetishistic focus on gross things and bodily fluids? And why can no one in any of these writing communities, interactive or otherwise, see it? If a man wrote Cyberqueen, I doubt he'd have been celebrated, and I don't think a real woman would've written it because the whole point of the story is that females exist to be tortured in a grotesque sexual display.

I think trans writing appeals only to people who are into trans culture or are otherwise primed to enjoy the bizarre sexual fetishes that seep into every corner of the work. Trans-flavored slop, in other words.
 
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Can someone provide me examples of transgenderism being geniuely anti capitalist? Because i can't find anything. Ive never seen anything to prove their claims. Even the ones who don't medically transition are still hooked on consumerism.

I feel like they just love cosplaying being anti capitalist. They consider being an artist as inherently being anti capitalist. They consider creating zines, going to clubs and conventions, and all that stuff that used to be counter culture as still being counter culture today. But it's not. And their attitude reflects none of the people who were counter culture in the past. They consider their art being showcased in museums as a "dream come true", they are obsessed with having a following- they only create art if someone else will notice it and if it will become famous. They LOVE money, more than most people. Its all about getting a reaction. And to make matters worse, they are all for cancel culture. They support totalitarianism. You cant draw something that offends them. You cant draw anything controversial that could upset people or they will try to ruin your life.

This is why I'm all for gatekeeping. Theyre not real artists, theyre corporate shills. They are no different than an hourly wagie trying to climb the corporate ladder. As an artist myself, i guess i feel a personal vendetta against these ingrates. I always feel held back because i dont have a perfect sparkily image since im, yaknow, a real person and not a brand. And just because i wanna post my art online doesn't make me a brand. I see people in the niche circles im in be applauded as a creator, even though they are a shitty person behind the scenes and their art is superficial. They only exist to hop on bandwagons and they wouldnt have gotten any attention without leeching off of actually passionate people. Yet they pretend to be self righteous counter culture rebels despite literally being nepo byproducts coming from upper / middle class families who paid for their artistic endeavors- only to cut them out of their life because they wouldnt support their AGP lifestyle.

For most of these people, their parents gave them everything only for them to turn around and spit on them because they told them "no" for once. Yet I'm expected to share a community with them? Ew. I will forever despise posers. I cant wait until the pendulum swings and shitting on posers becomes a thing again.
 
Is it alright to link from a lolcow thread? I only do so because I think it's relevant to the topic. "Transwoman" seems to admit that their desire to be a woman could be due to childhood trauma:


Some female detransitioners have alluded to molestation as being a potential cause of their dysmorphic disorder resulting in the desire to emulate men, bind/remove breasts, etc. Sounds like one could develop a hatred of their own body pretty easily if you're told by some adult predator that it's the reason for the abuse. Obviously there have been memes about this forever regarding trans and even gay people, the creepy uncle touch, etc, so I thought it was interesting to note. Of course, only those in that protected class could ever say this in public without having the unwashed masses online attempt to destroy their livelihood.
 
Some female detransitioners have alluded to molestation as being a potential cause of their dysmorphic disorder resulting in the desire to emulate men, bind/remove breasts, etc. Sounds like one could develop a hatred of their own body pretty easily if you're told by some adult predator that it's the reason for the abuse. Obviously there have been memes about this forever regarding trans and even gay people, the creepy uncle touch, etc, so I thought it was interesting to note. Of course, only those in that protected class could ever say this in public without having the unwashed masses online attempt to destroy their livelihood.
I was never abused (nor particularly well endowed) and still found myself wishing I was a boy more than once growing up, so I don't doubt it.
Puberty for girls means a lot of men suddenly pay a lot of attention to you. It's one thing when your crush does it, but mostly you'll notice disgusting old creeps.
 
Can anyone give me a rundown of Magnus Hirschfeld and the Institut für Sexualwissenschaft? All I could find was that he was interested in the age of consent.
I have read way too much of his Wikipedia page once, so I'm still by no means an expert on this man's history or sexology (lmao) for that matter. Wikipedia is of course pozzed af on this subject, but it seemed quite interesting to me. Social & civic progression for sexual freedom still had a lot of ground to cover then, as opposed to the sickening play-pretend of current-year queer theory trying to make complete nonsense work. Lobbying for some social awareness (oh my god, educate yourself!) was not the only exploit of DER INSTITUT FÜR SEXUALWISSENSCHAFT, as they were not afraid to get their knives out and cut some bratwürst as well.

About Herr Hirschfeld: He was an advocate for gay rights and he was gay himself, the contemporary taboo against same-sex attraction caused many gay people to kill themselves at the time. Honestly quite brave (and stunning?) considering how old-school homophobia was merciless and the literal naht-sees were on the rise.

About the trans: He oversaw the first recorded vaginoplasty, performed on Dora Richter. Dora allegedly tried to DIY transurgerify himself at age 6 when he tried to amputate his penis with a tourniquet, so he was absolutely one of the old school transexuals with congenital gender dysphoria. When you have this going on from such a young age, it seems clear to me that his brain, or at least part of his brain that controls the feeling of your body's integrity, was aberrant, and possibly quite similar to a woman's in neurological make-up. That, or he was otherwise fucking insane and disturbed. Contemporary batshit troons don't really want to have this perspective on gender dysphoria researched anymore since it would be falsifiable and actually scientific, which they don't like. Anyway, Dora was surgically castrated at age 30 and went to DER INSTITUT shortly after. After seven years of life and observation at DER INSTITUT, they astutely noted that yes, eunuchs do become less masculine, and yes, a mentally ill person does feel better when you let him do what he wants and affirm his inclinations somewhat. But was that enough?

Of course not. Step 2: he also had his penis amputated and, later that year, got the world's first vaginoplasty. I can only assume they made the simplest possible amhole without inverted sausage-skin as his dick was long gone. Brutal, but in a way, good for him I guess. when you are already born broken like this, maybe sacrificing yourself for an experiment into your own betterment is the best you could do with your life. I wonder to what extent he believed that such surgeries could really turn him into a woman, but I doubt he was that stupid. The hope that these surgeries could nonetheless get better for him and people like him must have counted for a lot back then. Hopefully most cases are similar to his, and these surgeries really will improve and make somebody a woman, right?

Enter stage left: The second ever person to undergo gender-affirming surgery: Lili Elbe (real name: Einar), whom you surely have heard of before. coincidentally, his vaginoplasty occured mere weeks after Dora's, but besides that the story of Einar's trooning out is a lot different. He was a succesful Danish painter, married, and already 38 when he went into the typical late-onset 'gender dysphoria'. His wife was also a painter, and when one fateful day a female model was too late for one of her painting sessions, Einar opted to model instead, and apparently wearing the women's clothes opened the floodgates for his middle-aged autogynephilic psyche. From then on, he came out to his wife (who was not happy, shocker!) and started wearing women's clothes more and more. He lived like this for 10 years, untill he went down to DER INSTITUT at age 48 and also had the snip-snip. Fast-forward another year, and he had the world's first and only uterus transplant done on a man, in order to fulfill his wish of becoming pregnant. The complications of this affront to God rapidly did him in, truly life-saving medicine you guys. What a disaster, and the most scientifically illiterate troons (which says a lot) still think that womb transplants will someday be a thing.

But enough about the surgeries that Hirschfeld helped pioneer, do you maybe note some differences between the two first ever recorded MtF transexual? I do, and I find it incredibly ironic that Blanchard's typology is so reviled now. While you can definitely say that it is not scientifically airtight, perhaps there could be still more that two types of transexual, or perhaps the distinction between is not in type but in degree. Still, the extent to which this theory is hated now only proves to me how he was on to something. Dora was born with a dire neuropathy that caused him to always feel that his body was wrong and that he should have been a girl from birth. He never really lived without this pain for as far as I can tell. Meanwhile, Einar functioned as normal man until he was 38. Whether or not he had proclivities to cross-dress or also suffered from dysphoria before then is unknown, but it is still clearly different from Dora's psychology. Dora's sexual orientation was probably irrelevant to his overwhelming body dysmorphia, while Einar was clearly motivated by a type of heterosexuality that looped back unto himself. He in fact desired not only women but also to make femininity an ideal that he should meet, or he would have no emotional and/or sexual gratification. The notion that he could be desired just like he desired the female body, and that he could renewhimself and his sexuality instead of facing the fact that he would get older and his body would falter must also have weighed on his mind. Hence: Autogynephilia at a later age, up to and including his suicidal paraphilic desire to become pregnant.

Blanchard was so similar to Hirschfeld in many ways: After all, he only wanted to help transsexuals. But, he noted that the reason for why some want to transition could be described with some dirty words, and all of the sudden the AGP's want you to stop talking when it hits a little too close to home. Fuck them, really, we could help and accept them if they could accept this less glamorous aspect of their sexualities (and a few even can do that!), but the overwhelming majority of AGP's are now trapped in maladaptive, addict-like denial because it's just so valid! to troon out and chase that euphoria. One person I know IRL got plastered on Stinkditch some time ago with his autogyneschmirking on reddit, asking how to be sexy as a true and honest transgirl. It just makes me MATI to no end knowing that he would be (rightfully?) ashamed if this behaviour was brought to light in any place other than the troon hugbox, but it's because of exactly that social control that you simply can't help him.

The Weimar republic was an extremely chaotic period in history and it's now an entire century later, but I seriously get the vibe that things really were, well, not necessarily better for trans and gay people, as you they were, y'know, about to get literally genocided by some of the hardest-R gamer moments of history, but still, the consideration of trans people had not gone into sheer pseudoscience and astroturfing worship as it has today. Everybody could be more open about what was then a niche issue, and we were spared from an internet-fueled culture war which modern technology and politics provide us. It's all so tiresome.
 
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